I feel like i should really tell people about this because i don't know how else to deal with this.Its a pretty long one but please bear with me.

In 2008/9 years ago i met this girl at a social gathering. Back in the day i was a quiet geeky guy with little skill in even saying hi to a girl.But this girl was so beautiful,bubbly and nonjudgmental about me that i had to say hi and talk to her.I'm not really one to fall for a girl easily so even though i liked her i pushed it off thinking that
1) im only infatuated with her temporarily
2) she too good for me and ill will never get her

Anyway i built some connection with her over this gathering(which was 3 days long) and left it at that knowing/thinking ill never be able to get with her.

Anyways after i got home i realized how much connection we built. By fate or something my parents happened to contact her parents and i managed to get her email address n we started chatting for a bit and this continued for about 4 weeks until we both got busy and stopped chatting

Fast forward to august 2011. My hotmail got a virus and it sent a load of spam to my contacts. This girl for some reason thought it was a genuine mail and replied back to me.We started chatting again only this time she started being really flirty and so i thought it was time to tell her i liked her. BIG PROBLEM.
Turns out in the time i spent being a pussy she had gotten a bf. Now this guy is 40 years old. He is a huge business man with a load of qualifications and contacts.all in all every girls perfect man. so now i basicially know i cant get her anymore because she is very loyal and it will be a lonnnnggg time before she even thinks of leaving him.

i didnt give in and i kept telling her i liked her until one day she gave me a strong text telling me she only sees me as an older brother/friend and nothing more and that we should stop talking.

LESSON learned. because of this i took up pickup to
1) get over her
2) learn how to talk to girls properly so i dont make these mistakes again

Here's where the problem starts. I'm sure you're all aware that getting over your one-itis is to go interact and bang other girls. well i did this but it didn't help. This girl was so unique and so perfect that all other girls are below her in every way ( looks wise,conversation wise,great personality, kind and knew what she wanted in life)
Now Its got to the stage where all i can think is her. I dont get dreams anymore but when i do its always about her 99% of the time. every song reminds me of her(she was a professional singer so she sang a lotta songs for me). there's these phrases and quirky things she would do, and every time some one else says anything related to those i think of her.

Its hard because i don't think i can get her anymore but why is it i cant get her out of my system. its almost been a year since we stopped talking and still shes in my head. ive done everything to try n forget her but i cant.

I have no interest in the girls im opening anymore because none of them are like her and just bore me or the girls are shallow sluts who half the time have no idea im trying to talk to them

What do i do guys? This has literally driven me to depression and i might just give up on life soon


Note : she's 18, im 19 and her current bf is 40 (i know its f'ed up)

Here is what you do:

Get your shit together and improve in every way possible! You thinking your not good enough for her is total bullshit! You can get whatever you want in life as long as you work for it!

Watch this video please: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lsSC2vx7 ... re=related

That is the mindset you need to have in life, never give up man, your 19!

Her relationship WILL end, i can ensure you that. But when it does are you the best man you can be or still the wussy who she sees as a friend?

Step it up and do not contact her anymore, she made her point. Contact her again when her relationship is over and your the best you can be.

In the mean time i will ensure you that there will be a girl who is even better then her and will make her fade away, there millions of great girls out there and you only seen a few of time.

So work on your inner game and never give up!

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Do not make external things like girls define your happiness or you will live a harsh life. Keep doing what you love and keep improving as a man.