Ok so, I didn't quite know where to put this, so if it's in the wrong section mods, just let me know.
Anyhow, I've been trying to develop my inner game, and have been focusing on being more social the last few days at work. Generally it has been going fine but there were two instances today that really got to me and would like some objective opinions. Constructive criticism is also welcome (however, if you're gonna say "MAN UP!!" then please explain how).
So today at work (I build houses) I needed help lifting a wall. So I went to one of the guys and asked him. He seemed more interested in another co-worker trying to get the portable power generator fixed than in my problem, and I was sure he'd end up helping me if I waited, but I didn't want to. So I went to my cousin (another co-worker) and asked him to help. He said to ask the first guy I already asked, but I told him he refused. so then he called to the other guy and made him help me, and the other guy was all like "I was gonna help you didn't have to go crying to so-and-so" I just rolled my eyes and said "I don't have time to wait for you if you're watching a generator smoke, I've actually got work to do."
Then when we got to the wall we chatted a bit more (forget what was said) and he's finally like "so we gonna lift this wall or what?" and I'm like "oh, you're waiting for me now eh?" and he laughed.
So yeah, afterwards I felt completely helpless being moved around like some pawn. I figured I should have stuck with the first guy and made him help me, but I dunno, I didn't see it as a problem to go to someone else, but the way it was painted afterwards made me regret my decision.
My thoughts on this are that I did nothing wrong, but am still afraid how others see me, which is kinda true as I'm making an effort to be more likeable anyhow. :/
The second instance was at the end of the day where I came to help the guys (I was working alone today, and most often do.) with their walls. they were laughing and having fun etc, and I would interject here and there with things people laughed at, but mostly I still felt like an outsider. It's also hard for me to laugh along with people as my sense of humor is quite dry and I don't get caught up in the moment, like ever. I can joke and stuff, but I think my 'aloofness' is a big problem when it comes to integrating with a group. As I said, most of the time I feel like an addition, rather than part of the group.
Anyhow, everything was going just like that, and I started eating some more of my sandwich (I eat a couple throughout the day because I'm working out and need my food) and the one guy says "he's got something in every pocket!" I'm like "yep... evvvvery pocket >>" and my older cousin (also a co-worker, and an AMOG) comes up to me, opens his mouth and says "feed me!" and I take another bite, and say "well, I could give you a knuckle sandwhich if you want" and he's like "oooooooooooohhhh!" and the other guy laughs as well, and then incorporates that into another running joke that was going on about fast food. >< Anyhow, I guess when it comes to socializing (sp?) I take things seriously, but mostly I just want to have fun like everyone else, I just can't seem to let go, and mostly just focus on things like this, as i am now. ><
Any help/insight would be appreciated, thanks.
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