I have not posted in a wile and it is because i have fallen in love. I told her, she breaks me down so nicely. She knew about me. She knows that I have cheated. She does not care though. She leaves me stupid to say the least. I truly need her. She knows that I am special. I have this caring in my heart that will not go away. I told her I will not take no for a answer.. Its how I proceed from here on out that scares me. We never know the future, we just try to hold it. Or hold onto it because it is what matters most. I still love the forum. I hope that all you peeps are still doing the best you can giving the best you can for everyone. Thanks all.. love and respect.. cha bra..

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For the longevity of your relationship I think you need to take a step back!

You sound so deep in love that you could be making stacks of AFC choices!

I wish you all the best mate, but I think you should take it slow.

You need to treat this girl as the condiment to your life, not the full-course meal! You will not starve if she's gone.

She's not a hamburger mate, she's ketchup! If you lose her, there's always mustard.

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I'm only gona say one thing.. From the way you wrote this post it sounds like you are going mental about her, keep it cool and don't get too needy because that's how you sounded in this post anyways. If you don't then you'll be on here again asking for help to where you went wrong.

Be carfeul and good luck

for sure. I think you guys are right. I will consider your advice wile i am caught in this moment. my level of appreciation is high.. we will see. thx for the advice.. I will let u guys know of any change. thanks for caring hey.

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You've fallen in love? Great! Aphrodite bless you!

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---BJ,
Wonder Woman's #1 Loverboy...aficionado & expert.

you have what we all are wanting anyway man, good luck and dont forget that relationships are as much as game as approaching and opening and closing are lol

Keep active and don't stop talking to friends and other women,she can't be the only on in your life....trust me

So in summary. She left town last week. We said, we would try. I was planning on visiting her this summer. We were talking about maybe starting fresh again. After a week she broke down and said that she can not forgive what I was in the past (I cheated). I thought we got past it, apparently I was wrong. So with her far away across the country. And then with me in Nevada finishing my Junior year of college. I am left in a very sorry state. It turns out from reflection (she was the best girl I ever had). I was married once too fyi.

She told me, "I blame everyone else for my problems." She also said, "I make her lazy." Just some negatives that I took away from this one. I am really lost. I really do not even care about PU right now. I feel like I lost the best.. So, I have been down before. I will get up.

Im just such a hater to the game right now. This whole game cant just be about pussy and alpha male shit. I just got done with the most real thing I had experienced. I know that I took two steps forward and one real big one back. I am here on back on the forum again. I am not getting drunk or fucked up every day. I have just lost my faith... That was the best four months I ever had with a women.. If their is a one, she was the closest thing to it.

I'll be loathing for a wile. Trying to take responsibility. much love

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I know your pain, because I told a girl that I was seeing someone else, and she went with it for a while but I could always tell that things wouldn't be the same between us.

It's really made me question what I'm doing. I don't even know. I want to be with lots of women but I never wanted to hurt anybody. I don't know if I should just stop feeling bad about it, harden my heart, or get married and put this whole thing behind me. I just can't decide to do either. So I'm just doing nothing, which is even worse.

Ok well, this situation is not over yet. I thought it was, but she is good at taking me on the emotional ride.

She is still across the country. We grew close again. After she played a quick game with me. She broke up as I said in the last post. She then told me that she slept with some dude. Now we do the long distance thing. After that, she missed me, we grew close again.

I was thinking in my head that she was going to fuck around. So one day about 2 weeks later I called her out on it. She admitted to having done what she did. She said she felt even with us. She said that now we could proceed like normal. That is not quite what happened after though.

We have grown close, as close as you can with long distance. I got a job offer in the area to model. Nothing sexy or anything just some silly videos, but the job pays good money! I have been telling her I love her for some time (ever sense I got caught cheating). The other day I told her I may choose this job over moving out her ways. She kind of flipped, told me that she loved me. She told me I need to go to her or give up. But she also said she was fed up with the games the mistrust ect..

I truly believe that she loves me very much. I love her more then I can recall loving a girl. I also have the best job offer of my life right where I live currently. So you see; this is the choice. Maybe, the love of my life? Or the best job opportunity I ever had? Its very hard.

I am leaning toward the job even though I can not tell her that. I want to go to this girl without condition. She did not have to present the ultimatum that she gave me. I feel wrapped up in this game. This game, she says I started by being untrue. I truly have grown from this experience. I took NLP head on. I know this is why I got this great job offer.

I really want to be straight with her and say something like. Babe, I have to take this job. Have a good life. However, here is what I feel like I am going to do. I have to go too her next month just for a couple weeks, then I will find a excuse to come back home. I will tell her that I plan to come back to her area, I just have to take care of some shit. Then, when I get here. I will most likely take this job head on. After a few short days, I will call her and tell her that I can not come back there. Its just the way to play this one out properly. At least that is my opinion. I know a true G does not need to lie about anything to girls. But we just started with all our insecurities and lies. So now I have to continue to play this out until she stops playing with me.

This chase me game is really old. This give me your all game is swamped with issues. But I am drawn to her. It is a shame when I try to be legit with her she gets sooo suspect. I know I did that to her. But this moment, will be very difficult. I am going to pressure her with a decision. I am essentially going to tell her. I can not chase you no more. If you want me, I am here. If you do not want me, I am letting you go. But before I do that I want to be with her for a couple weeks. Just so I can relive that magic. I want her to love me for as long as she will. She is amazing for me. But I have to draw the line on continuing to chase her. It evolves more plot on the script of this game. But if just let go... Then I am depressed. I have to play the game on this one. At least that is what I think.

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Dude what the fuck thats not love thats obession. First off LDRs really need a strong attitude and mentality. To me it seems like you were obsessed with this girl even when you were with her. "Blah blah most real thing in my life blah blah" grats man you found a girl who fit you like a key, someone who was probably different then any other girl you have been going for who had the depth of a childs pool.

How the fuck can you read what your typing and not look a way, it's nothing to do with game, you've got oneitis really bad and I don't think it will end well. This is a very mentally unstable way to live, god dam man reading this makes me want to through my cup of coffee at the wall.

To me it sounds like the relationship is over and she doesn't need anything from you but attention, taking a job to her area is fucked and she will think it's needy.

Fuck it what the hell do I know because I'm getting real fucking mad now because of her having your dick in a jar next to her pickles.

Yes, maybe so. I am 28 I know all the games. She is playing with someone who is prob going to hurt her. Obsession, obsession... Yes, this is kind of the vibe. I have really no desire to hurt her though. If you know how to talk a man out of obsession then I commend you.

I know I have been in love 4 times. I also know that I suck at it. haha. But I have never been so hung up on a women. Its the first time like this for me. I was married before. I just never felt this way.

Sure i am in the middle! Between games and love. Is that not the definition of obsession. If this turns out to be a game... And its not real as I first saw it.

I will go to visit her. I will stay for a short time. Then promptly go back home to my awesome job.

Actually I get more opportunity for pussy sense I have felt like this about a girl. So is it a phase? Maybe? Is it real as I first thought? I do not know? I appreciate your 3 cents on the topic. I am well aware of my position. Part of me knows she is just in it to learn from me. Often times I felt like the stepping stone. It happens, ill learn and grow for the next awesome girl. Someday, I am going to marry a Romanian girl though. That much I know.

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Why do i get the feeling i'm gonna be seeing you two on the news?

Bro, im seeing oneitis. And alot of it. Cut it out, get other women in your life and quit acting like that. She evidently doesnt love you as mich as you love her so its bound to crash and burn.

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