Okay I have been contemplating starting a journal for awhile and tonight it has been decided....I'm going to.

This is more or less going to be a journal of my life in general and I'll try to keep it short sweet and updated.

I would be greatful for help as I go along but even if only 10 people see this, I don't care because this is more for getting my thoughts down than anything, as I love writing them down but keeping a "private" journal seems a little weird to me to say the least.

I'll slowly describe my life throughout the posts but tonight I just want to get down what I'm thinkin tonight as I'm very disappointed. My posts won't generally be negative as I absolutely hate negative people and avoid them at all costs...I've actually made that a goal in my life and it has worked out great. Tonight however is slightly negative, I just need to get it off my back.

I am still young enough to live in my parents house respectfully and I have the utmost respect for the house and life they have provided me. The one thing that pisses me off more than anything is disrespect towards my house...I rarely have people over to my house for the simple fact that teenagers have almost zero respect for anything much less my parents house.

Tonight I decided to trust one of my best friends and let him come ovr and drink at my house. After awhile he calls this girl up and talks to her for awhile. She is sick as a dog and has had a cold for awhile. I strongly suggest she shouldn't come ovr, as I hate being around sick people and there really is no reason, he wasn't going to get laid.

Well after his drunk stupid ass contemplation of the idea gets done, he invites her ovr to which she complies. I think fuck this shit but whatever he normally is respectful so ill let this fly. So she comes ovr and almost immediately they start flirting and being extremely loud. I tell them to quiet down multiple times, they don't listen. After about a half hour of this my mom calls me upstairs, it's 1 and she has to work the next day.

She confronts me about drunk people downstairs and expresses her disappointment. I proceed to go downstairs and more or less kick them out, and he was planning on spending the night since he was drinking but he got the clear vibe that he needed to get the fuck out and he did.

I am soooo madd as this guy has never done anything like this and is normally my tightest friend but as far as people coming ovr to my house anymore fuck it, i'm done, everytime people gain a little respect from me they always seem to lose it but whatever.

Anyway ik this seems like petty shit but one of my only rules is don't disrespect my parents or their house and both happened tonight so I just needed to vent. Most of my posts won't be like this, I'll actually post FR type shit but for now that is it.

Peace, Marky Mark

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Okay time to start the actual journal and to start another chapter of my life.....taking getting girls to a new level for me and to make everyone's life I'm in just a little bit better.

So after I decided last summer that my game needed to change from more inner game to more outer game, things began to get interesting.

Shortly after the summer started i was rolling around town in my parents convertible to cash some checks from my job. As i was getting out of the bank some girls drove by and yelled at me getting into the car. I smiled and thought fuck yeah! As I was driving away I look over to my left and they had circled the block and came back and were now giggling like little girls in the car next to me. I looked over and gave them a nod. The driver was a hb 8 and the passenger a hb 5.

The light turned green and I started driving being way to much of a pussy to say anything to the driver. The soon get a ways in front of me and then a wave of "go fuck yourself Marky Mark" hits me like a ton of bricks. Why the fuck didnt I say something to this hot fuckin chick that more or less opened me. I think to myself its time to man up and actually go for it....you have missed too many opportunities like this. So I hammer the throttle to the floor and catch up with them. I look over and motion for them to roll their window down and ask them where they are headed to. (they are in bikins)

They say something inaudible and I ask again where they are headed to. They say the park to go suntan! Soo by this point my heart is beating through my chest and I manage to squeak out, "You guys should pull over for a second"! They say to just follow them to the park....fuuckk yeah i did it!

As I am basking in the glory of my sucess Im still nervous, what the fuck do i say once i get to the park, I think to myself whatever, fuck Ive already been successful, Im just going to wing it and not try any routines. So we get to the park and as soon as i get out of the car the hb 8 asks me my name and from there we make some small talk. i was soo nervous i could think of anything to say. Just as im getting settled in the hb 8 goes "you should come suntan with us and hang out." WTF, i didnt know how to respond so i just say i hav something to do later and i hav to go, which I really did but i couldve stayed a little longer. So i stick to my words and after about a minute more of small talk i tell them i have to go. At this point the number close wasnt too nerve wracking as i had gotten so many IOIs from the hb8. So i number close both of them and leave like a dumbass.

I wait almost a week to txt the hb 8 like a dumbass and i got no response so I just left it at that and nothing else happened. Overall a huge success as it is one of my first number closes ever but definitely some points i couldve capitalized on much more so.

Any comments are welcome!

Peace, Marky Mark

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Got a little lazy on the journal as you can see but I came to the realization I quit because my posts were much too long and took too much time and effort to pull out of my ass consistently.

So with that being said Im going to try to keep this as updated as possible. Im more than likely going to skip what happened in between now and then, except for the stuff that worked.

One thing Im coming to realize is I need to quit reading and listening to 15 different strategies at once, it's an information overload and is almost worse than no info at all. The problem: I have a job where I listen to audio for 1-2 hours a day and naturally I have just been listening to PUA related audio for the last 2 years. I really enjoy listening but at this point, I believe its doing me harm but I havent decided if Im going to quit....it is quite the proactive way to avoid approaching women;).....learning more from a book or program = real world experience....yeah right

A couple more notes.....so far something that has worked well in txting women who you havent been in contact with for awhile is sending them a consistently themed message everyday until they respond positively. Such as a goofy ass pickup line everyday or the one I do consistently is a quirky fact of the day often times being sexually themed. If you do this right ive found it can be entertaining and seems to make peoples days often. All you have to do is download a fact app on your phone, scroll through a few facts a day to find a cool one and whalaaa, its as easy as that.

I gotta peace for the night

Peace out,
Marky Mark

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This is unusual but I have to post again consecutively. Tonight I got unexpectedly invited to a party that ended up being a success.

I wasnt expecting to do a whole lot tonight but I called my friends up and they said they were going to a party but I had had a rough night and wasnt planning on drinking or smoking but decided I would go. Sooo I hop in the car and what do ya know they had booze, so I got pressured into it, which wasnt hard since i like to drink anyway, I just wasnt planning on it.

So as far as the party, i consider it a success....after i had done the party thing and played a couple games of pong and met a couple people I was just chillin on the couch by myself. Ive learned to be comfortable just by yourself at parties at times and just relax and take a few deep breathes and fix my posture. I use to get anxious and feel nervous when I was out of the group for even a minute or two but its gotten much much better.

After awhile on the couch just chillin by myself I realize this girl (fuckable...my scale is either fuckable or not) and i are kinda playing eye tag but we never quite make solid eye contact. I thought about going for it and got quite nervous as the alcohol was wearing off at this point. After a minute or two of thinking and bullshit excuses I decided to go for the approach. I just said fuck it and stared right at her for probably 15 seconds until she made eye contact with me and then a signaled her over to the couch. She got up and wandered over. I introduced myself and held the handshake for an extended period of time. (I never thought this would work but it does, when you grab a girls hand to shake it dont let until she does is the best policy) I kinda wussed out and let go after about 20 seconds of holding her hand but it was quite a bit longer than a normal handshake.

At this point we made small talk and I told her to sit down because she was still standing. We talked for maybe another 2 minutes and then my friend walked by and I stopped him to see where he was going. (He was my ride) My friend and I talked for maybe 30 seconds and she started getting figety and got up and left. At this point my ride was leaving and I had to head out. She had got up and went and sat on some guys lap, which I figured was her boyfriends lap so i just left without number closing. Its a bad excuse but i didnt wanna cause any drama as I was leaving.

Overall, the lesson learned was the bark was much worse than the bite...in other words the AA was way worse than actually just doing the approach...who knew? By the way this was my first random approach in probably 2-3 months...kinda sad but opened my eyes...hopefully i can build off this

Peace,
Marky Mark[/list]

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So Ive been feeling sorry myself, last night was probably one of the last nights ill get to see my two best friends for the next 6 months. These two guys have literally been 90% of my life for the last 2-3 years and it was off to college for them early this morning. Last night was bad because i was high and my feelings were just magnified, super lazy and depressed. This morning is much better with everything outta my system, in fact i had a small twinge of excitement....this is where Im either going to make it or break it!

Im staying in the city I live in for college, and by doing so Im almost getting away moreso than if I wouldve went to another state college because I know at least a few ppl going to every college but everyone wanted to get away from home so no one is going to the college in town. I have a few auxiliary type friends who are going to be around for another 2 weeks but we dont hang out much and I dont have much invested in them....after that Im going to be nearly 100% on my own for the first time since childhood. Im going to be forced to go out and meet new ppl unless I want to sit home, which Ive been shown too good of a time to want to do that.

On the pick-up front, I number closed one girl at a party a few days ago, I didnt talk to her very long and she ended up getting really drunk so I never texted. Oh and I tried the Skills/Sexaddict dream txt on a girl that ive known for a little while that was fairly promising anddd Im pretty sure I creeped her out pretty bad. This is the second time Ive tried to get directly sexual with a girl who was into me over txting and both times have failed miserably....dont know if it has to do with the age of the girls i deal with or what but I might try this one a few more times, maybe with a little more finese.

Well boys this is go time, Im either going to find myself falling into the same old routines i used when i was a complete social loser or Im going to go out and excel. I need to start making goals but damn its easy to find excuses....For the next 3 days Im going to just sarge my surroundings wherever i go and come back and report. Im going to lay off making guy friends and focus on women for awhile, I dont need anymore excuses not to with women.

Peace,
Marky Mark

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Surrounding sarging hasnt been going so well, not surprising though, i didnt see very many women yesterday. I did have an excellent convo with the gas station attendant but it was a guy...if he wouldnt have been old enough to be my dad i wouldve got his number to hang.

One thing I try to hold off on is the fact that I have a motorcycle...I dont want to sound braggy so i dont bring it up often but I think from now on Im really gonna try to put it into leverage and use it. It seems like nearly every girl in the past that has been semi into me was also into the bike. It just felt shallow to me in the past but screw it Im gonna start using it to get an "in" with girls.

Also a few more things i need to get down before i forget...stealing a womans frame seems to work very well...i have used "women just use me for my body" and have gotten great responses from that and fuck i forgot the second one...hopefully i can go out tonight and at least get a few waves in on my motorcycle

Peace,
Marky Mark

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is your journal named after the store in San Francisco?

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"It's disrespectful not to bang them when they sleepover." (Hellhound)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-eSN8Cwit_s

^This is where I got the name from, I came across this song one lonely night a few years back and it changed my life. It was a little awakening inside me. It motivated me to start working out and I've put on 35 pounds since then and I'm planning on putting on more this winter. I think Marky Mark is in near PERFECT shape in this video, 9.8/10. That is how I want to look some day. I don't think being a 270 pound bodybuilder is attractive, I think his physic is attractive.

I also love love love the 90's, in fact I use to day-dream about them all the time and idealize them, which I knew wasn't good to do but it was fun. I don't dream about them nearly as much as I use to but I still think they were an AWESOME time in history! And I'm glad I got to experience what I did with the 90's.

Also, Marky Mark is just dope, every time I watch this video it pumps me up, motivates me, and puts me in a better mood. It's more or less the epitome of what I'm looking for in life. Bros, hoes, and a damn good time!

Peace,
Marky Mark

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Decided to do a small update as I have a little free time tonight. College has been moving along very quickly and I havent even had a whole lot of time to think about women, which is both good and bad.

I felt like I've done quite well for myself socially so far. I started probably 4/5 conversations with random people the first week and have made around 5 new guy friends. I also got 2 numbers from girls, one ended up becoming a very good friends and we see each other almost everyday and the other went no where. I also got in with a frat that is really chill and doesnt mind me coming and partying there, even without being a member. Oh and freshman drink free!!

I stated in a previous writing that i was going to focus just on women and put the guy friends situation on the back burner.......HORRIBLE IDEA. I tried this for about a week and I couldnt figure out why i felt so shitty come the end of the week, well I went out and socialized with one of the new guy friends i met the first week and WHALAA just like that i felt so much better and relieved. I love to recharge by myself at the end of the day, if ive been in school and around people all day but come the weekend, I HAVE TO get out and socialize or I become very irritable and pissed off.

Also, something hit me when I was chatting up some long shots on facebook tonight, none of which went anywhere. I use to kind of pride myself on witty conversations with girls on facebook or over txting. Which isnt a bad thing, it is much better to have an interesting light conversation than a boring interview type. However, I realized the reason none of these are going anywhere, is because i didnt connect enough IN PERSON. Its so obvious but until recently I thought you statistically had just about the same percentage of taking an interaction farther with a girl, if you got her number in 1 minute or an hour. Oh how sorely mistaken i was. Honestly at this point, even with the small number of random interactions I have, almost everyone that has went farther than a few witty txts, I have seen the girls on multiple occasions or interacted with them for 10+ minutes the first time I met them. I don't think Id go for a number unless i could spend at least 5 minutes with a girl i just met, unless it was just for practice asking.

Peace,
Marky Mark

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Ohhhhh whata weekend, started off with me getting wayy too blitzed and having the worst hangover of my life...I never wanna get that drunk again...ever. Then there was a little less intense party saturday which i decided to abstain from alcohol at...i was still feeling weird from the night before, and then it was capped off with a good day of football and a hilarious approach at the gym.

So not having anything to do this afternoon, I decided to get to the gym and get a workout out in. Once I got there everything was fairly normal: Said hi to the regulars, did some stretching, and got on with my workout. Well about 15 min into my workout I catch eye contact with a hottie through a few machines. She heads to the water fountain and comes and sits down at the machine right next to me and does nothing, just sits. Immediately i think, okay awesome shot for an open friendly approach. (This kinda thing seems to happen to me more than id ever of dreamed of at the gym) However, I glanced over at this girl and I recognize her, she is this steroid junkies girlfriend who is a regular there. (He honestly seems like a bitch, most of the time he comes and checks up on her every 5 minutes while theyre there) And yes he was at the gym at this time, so I decide to completely ignore her and move on with my workout.

So after about one or two exercises on the other side of the gym, i come back to the side shes on, and lo and behold within 5 minutes she is at the machine right next to me again. I take another look at her and notice something seems slightly different about her than I originally thought, i.e. she didnt quite look like the douches girlfirend, close but not quite....maybe a sister or something to the original girlfriend. And besides shes following me around, theres no way thats her boyfirend, i think to myself.

Finally i just fucking grow some balls and decide to approach her. I walk around to the front of the machine she was on, make eye contact, and took out my ear buds. Know what she did? Before I even could say a word, she takes out one ear bud, gets off the machine, and storms off without saying a word. I walk away from the scene and literally start laughing, I found it really funny actually!!! I just continued my workout with a smile on my face the entire time. That is honestly the first time ive gotten blown out like that without even saying a word and I would have guessed it wouldve sucked a dick and been embarrassing but no it was literally funny to me!

Idk what her problem was but it did end up being mr steroids girlfriend as I saw them leaving together...maybe she cant handle herself around other guys, maybe i came off a little creepy because i didnt approach right away, or maybe shes just a stuck up bitch that saved me lots of time and harassment from her hulk of a boyfriend. Any which way Im not going to assume anything, because thats not what matters what matters is the lesson learned.

Once again I reiterate, the bark is much worse than the bite. In other words what you make up in your little inexperienced brain about what could happen and blah blah blah truly is just mental masturbation. This was about as bad of a blowout as i can imagine within reason and it ended up being funny and making my night. When i pictured something like this happening, i figured id have to walk out of the gym with my head down and suffer embarrassment every single time I ever saw that girl again. Now every time I see that girl (which is going to be often, ive seen them there at least once a month for the last 2 years) a humongous smile is going to come creeping over my face remembering what happened. Life is good, and I need to start approaching more, its so fun once you go in and afterwards!

Peace,
Marky Mark

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I had to comment on this topic as it just popped up in lecture today. The emasculation of men in the last decade or two or three. I honestly didn't notice the rampant push for men to become more "feminine" throughout western society until just a year or two ago. I think it was so prevalent in my life I didnt notice until part of this community brought me to my senses. Comparable to a fish not knowing hes in water his entire life.

Anyway I had an hour lecture today on teamwork, and the moral of the lecture; men are arrogant assholes who get nothing done in a group because they are all too pig headed to admit theyre wrong. While women are absolute angels cause they nicely communicate and all get along peachily. He even went on to say, women make better teams because of the fact none of them try to lead. WHAT BULLSHIT!!! YOU KNOW WHY NONE OF THEM LEAD??? Because most women arent natural leaders, so nobody wants to grab the wheel and take the risk of making decisions. While on a team of men usually someone is down to do this. A team absolutely has to have a leader, i cant believe a educated doctor of humanities would be so browbeaten throughout his lifetime by feminists to believe this.

He them went on to give example after example to try to beat his point in about how in all these competitions he went to, all women teams dominated all male teams in academics and how stupid the men looked while doing all this. He even went as far as to say that the most passive person in the group would almost always make the best leader, and especially if it was a woman.

The sad thing is, this isnt the first time Ive heard this kind of bullshit in the last month and this isnt even the first time Ive heard this kind of bullshit out of an doctoral educated grown males mouth. In fact, ive had multiple professors like this. WHAT A BUNCH OF PANSY ASS BITCHES!!!

Unfortunately, this kind of thinking has absolutely permeated our society and it was a central cause, if not the only cause of me finding this community. I also believe this negative propaganda spewed by feminists mouth against masculinity is a central underlying cause for most men that end up finding this community as well. For better or for worse, idk. One thing i do know for certain, those guys i mentioned and any who fall for this sort of bullshit, Ill never have to worry about a single one of them as competition in the survival, replication, and attraction ring that controls every single underlying meaning in everything we do.

Peace,
Marky Mark

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Haven't been on in awhile, just staying busy. Seems like I like to get on here when I'm drunk and pissed off the most, almost like a venting situation, so i apologize and I know it's not good to be negative. But anyhow the venting for tonight deals with my fagget high school friends. So they came back for thanksgiving and they're all either addicted to drugs (marijuana mainly) or pussy ass faggets. I got ditched all weekend because they THOUGHT they were going to hook up with the high school girls back in town. (So far I havent heard about one even getting a make out) And one of my best friends in high school, who never ever ever wouldve done this back in high school, just pulled off the stunt of the century the last night he's in town. After planning on chilling, he contacts me 5 minutes before and says, "Ahhh dude i think im just gonna chill with a girl tonight".....wtf are you serious??? And when I questioned him about it, he wouldn't tell me anything, sooooo shady and weird. This kid was soooo dope in high school too, he literally use to ditch girls to come party with me and now this shit happens??? And guess what, when he use to ditch girls to hang with me was when he was getting the most pussy...ironic???.....i think not! Moral of the story, i need to find some real fucking friends and always always have the abundance mindset, even if you don't actually have an abundance, itll bring you more in the end. Shit never stays the same, so enjoy it while you can and strive to make an even better future than your past. The one constant in life is change.

P.s. (On the positive note, at least one of my best friends from high school was still cool)

Peace,
Marky Mark

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