Ok maybe you should hear the background story before you call me selfish. He had broken up with 3 times before this!! Like i said, i had to go NC for my own sanity.

He ignored me countless of times, i only did it once cos i was absolutely heartbroken and upset with him. The last time he broke up with me, he ended it after a DAY!! He made me believe he wanted me back but then ended it after a day!! I know he sounds like a complete asshole, and why did i ever go back to him??
Before we broke up, we had something really special, he is just younger than me and cant really handle relationships.... (Everytime he ended it he said he cant be in a relationship) i considered him the love of my life, i dont know... he had a huge impact on me.. never had this type of connection or these feelings with anyone before. (he always used to say the same about me too)

But he really did break my heart. And i thought when we made up in july, we had put all the crap behind us and were getting along great again.

Anyway the fact of the matter is, that he has basically used me these past 4 months for sex cos he knew i still had feelings for him (although i thought we were just seeing eachother, and seeing how it goes)... and when he withdrew, i panicked as i thought i was losing him again and asked him what was going on, he felt suffocated, i told him i felt used, he got angry with me, so i sent him a long message apologising that he felt suffocated but i felt i had the right to know what was going on... and here we are.

He just called me and i dont know whether to call back or not, im worried that whatever i say may suffocate him. But if he doesnt care for me, then it doesnt rly matter right?? and the thing is, what is there to end?? we were never 'oficially' back on. so i cant say to him this is over.... i think by not calling him back just shows him im not interested anymore.