Hi

I met a girl at my gym lets just call her J she was the most beautiful girl ive ever seen we are not talking 10 out of 10 more like 12 out of 10. She was half philaphino and had eyes like J lo and long black hair and a smile to die for.

Yeah im stupid but also lonely so when she flirted with me I new she only wanted my money and to get me to sign up for some personal trainning lessons.

The last 3 months have been a roller coaster for me she did tell me she had a b/f soon after i started my seeions i never really got over that fact.

Even though i new she had a b/f i wanted to win her over...i started martial arts lessons, dance lessons, mountain biked more, tried to look cool, ..

She split up with her b/f for a bit but im not sure if they ever got back together but i think they did as her facebook profile pic has them together.

I live with my twin brother and its like we are married i hate it but im too insecure to move out and get my own place.

I found out today that J has handed in her notice at the gym and wont be coming back. I cant sleep now its nearly 4am her UK time.. i feel that im on the start of a downwood sprial and going to get very depressed.

Why do beautiful women flirt and tease with us guys its almost evil, i just feel i cant be arsed anymore with anything..

When i go back to the gym it wont be the same not seeing her there. She gave me this confidence and power ive never had before i feel its been taken away.

I sent her a txt saying sorry to hear your leaving and thanks for all the PT sessions im trying to be cool but i just want to tell her how i feel, but i almost know 100% she only sees me as a client and has a b/f from her facebook photo. she is following me on twitter but what does that mean? she wont add me to facebook.

Sorry to emotional dump i dont know why im so sensative to women they always seem to f** me up this way.

I will bounce back but i know ill never stop thinking about her thats why scares me

u know part of me wants to laugh ....but the good part of me will try to help..
OK
LOOK WOMEN USE THEIR SEXUALITY TO SELL SHIT ALL THE TIME, its nothing new..
U r pretty typical..i mean i started to go to this new bar a few weeks ago and i know every guy who is a regular there goes there to drool over the barmaid..they wont ever dare to hit on her..and if any of them did they would have to be really drunk to summon up the courage...plus there is the chance of loosing face infront of everyone at the place u always hang out in...
first night i went into this bar...i got her into a little convo..asked her name etc...and from then on i ignored her, see i know she is fine but she knows it too..so u delibratley ignore women like that...and the result is to see repeated ioi's in my direction...ive picked up women in front of her witch is all deliberate on my part to push her buttons and make her question "why is he not hitting on me???"..and i will fuck this girl within the next month...and i only go to this bar once a week...so ive got a specific time window in mind to fuck her...i aint gonna spend a year there thinking about it..get me.
I know this girl will have a boyfriend..probably the nearest alpha male..the doorman no doubt..the lookers always do have boyfriends and if they are single its only for 5 minutes...women cheat u know...just like men..so boyfriends dont mean shit to me and shouldnt mean shit to you either...a boyfriend or husband for that matter means little in reality...thats why i fuck around and wont settle down..i know women too well.
also fuck facebook...really does being on facebook come accross as being masculine???No it doesnt..even questioning why she hasnt added you...puke...Oh and twitter is even fucking worse...yes let everyone know exactly what ur doing all the fucking time...its a complete turn off...unless ur james bond, for fuck sake...most people live mundane lives but u ought to atleast act like ur fucking interesting instead of promoting ur mundane life to women ur trying to attract hahahahahaha...i understand where ur comming from..im human too...but puke haha.
u dont want women to get easy access to you and facebook is the kiss of death for that shit. Once a woman thinks she knows who u are..your attraction level will fall through the floor...always keep em guessing.
u sound like u built a whole lifestyle around this woman in hopes of attracting her...and the sad truth is a pua could probably pick her up and fuck her all in the same day..boyfriend or not...
u need to have a mind shift and understand the difference between your desires and how to actually attain them.
jumping through hoops for a woman will never work..ever..infact its a massive turn off...women say a lot of bullshit about what guy they want then fuck the other guy instead...your the guy they say they want and im the guy they fuck..
there are a million fine ass women in major cities like london..so get out of the fucking house and hit the street or the bars..u think 1 woman is worth getting depressed over...especially one u never fucked..look your gym angel will not be such an angel..as they say some other guy if not 12 other guys will have got bored of fucking her..see in your eyes she was an angel..a man cant fuck an angel and woman cant stand men ahving fantasies that they are a perfect women..its a turn off and you projected that image onto her and she smelt it...i mean u cant ask an angel to suck ur dick but u can ask a woman to do it...and woman like to be treated as woman not some perfect being...cos they aint perfect...they may look it but thats as far as the perfection goes...but call her up anyhow and tell her u want to see her tonight..what have u got to lose..afraid she might reject u???and what happens then...does the sky collapse???does it fuck.
Get over yourself man..and get on with it. and good luck..if u have been hitting the gym as much as u say im sure it wont take much talking to get some panties to drop.

Think for one second.

She probably knows you have a crush on her. She probably knew all the things you were doing was to call her attention.

Unfortanely, flirting with guys, is her way of telling them, that they are still in the market and when they want the can comeback and lose her failure of b/f. Also is a nice way of boosting there ego. You are means to an end.

Accept this reality that girls love attention and love to manipulate man. Is not evil, its was her way to evolve on a world where she had no power.

Also she broke up with her boyfriend so she need it some reassurance of a male (she probably has a lot) that she still hot

The Twitter and face book who cares probably doesn’t mean jack so stop wasting time on those silly little details. Maybe she has a ton of people on face book and rejected by accident. Who knows?

You will never forget her?? Did she helped you in a time of need, did she suck your cock, did you have sex? Did you spent years of relationship where you divulged your life and your secrets. Do you have memories of the wonderfull life you had while dating no?

You are in “love” with a girl you don’t know her, yes you don’t know her. She can be probably the biggest bitch you ever meet. You are in dream land.

You know her on professional way

She is just fantasy; please don’t take this the wrong way but go out and try to have something real with a girl that loves you for what you, and a real story.

So trust me it will pass.

Don't be a victim of your useless thoughts.

thanks for the reply i dont know why my emotions get the better of me with women.
I m going to try to do some meditation courses and see if this helps clear my mind.

I'll try to move on well ill have to but its alot easier to write this than do it.
Ive always considered my self as looking old and ugly i had cancer as a child and was bullied very badly at school one really hot girl i liked said i looked like an old man that hurt so much it was un real. I am alot more confident then i was back them i just need to get my first date then ill be happier .

It’s perfect normal, so don’t sweaty we are humans here.

Until you have experienced something real you will grab on to those fantasies.

Remember looks don’t matter, trust me on this. I’m no liar. You can do it.

Fuck that people they belong in the past, you are more strong than any of them, you beat cancer, its a matter of will to succeed with women, you did a much tougher challenge.

And don’t focus on happiness getting girls, they are important but be happy in life girls will pick that right away.

Girls doesnt deserve the way you treat them.

Thanks dude i was a bit down on that last post ill bounce back ive got a lot planned to do this year and going to keep going out having fun!