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I guess this goes beyond PUA, so I'm not sure if I should be posting this. But I started a new Spanish class a week ago. First week was OK, there even was this girl who I liked and spoke to.
This week, bam! All out of the window, because when I'm in a social scenario I go all paranoid... I know this stems from my guilt of sleeping with hookers. I know these people don't know a shred about me, but I start to get panicky and I know I project this! ... Or do I?
I know this is just an emotion. Nobody there knows me, yet despite this, every fucking time it's the same story. This is seriously, blocking any progress I could potentially make.
I've seen my shrink, and I still don't have really any real way to move forward.
Maybe it is just a case of keep going with social situations. The thing that irritates me is when I go back to my house, I look in the mirror, and I know I look good.
And one girl who was sat next to me didn't seem to notice... I know this is just an emotion in my head, but I'm wondering what to do.
I've got another 'going out' event as I'm driving to another city to celebrate my cousin's birthday. I can already feel that it is going to be one of those, I'm going to get weird scenarios. Hmm, how to deal with this negative/destruction thought processes?
I guess that's my next hurdle.
Lmao guilt from sleeping with hookers. . .
Ive never done so as it doesnt seem like an interaction where i couldn't get a boner.
But i have friends who have and just turn it into a funny story (seriously, its the funniest story ive ever heard in my life).
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Here are my tips, i was once like you (i havent come far though).
here are my pointers:
you have too many dreams, most of them dont have anything to do with pick up.
You're trying to jump into the deep end. I did this, trying to have full PU's when i could barely open. Learn to Open, then hook, then vibe, then close. Bit by Bit.
Too many excuses. Enough said.
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Im not criticising, ive been there. Took me 6months before i could properly open an attractive girl, that was from approaching everyday to w/e people.
Just start at page 1, forget the rest, dress good, learn about resistance vs acceptance (make this one of your main thought threads).
People talk about 'this' girl and 'that' girl but you have a whole city of women to learn to be good with women.
Posting about anything none-chick related in your journal is a complete waste of time.
Focus is a beautiful gift, use it wisely