Yep, title says it all.. I'm a 17 year old male living in canada about to start my senior year at highschool. The reason I joined PUA is because I miss the times where I had girls, either to talk to, go out with, and of course have sexy time with. I started to withdraw socially nearing the end of grade nine, where I broke up with my first and only girlfriend, and soon enough my friendships started to diminish and I became even more depressed than i already was. I'm still considered 'depressed' by doctors today but I'm slowly getting better and wanting to get back into the life i had more and more. I'm tired of seeing guys with girls downtown having a good time, where me the loner has nobody and it's pretty embarrassing. Right now I can honestly say that I only have two friends, one is an asshole and the other is.. I'm sorry to say it, but kind of a loser, who doesn't do anything and has never even talked to a girl.

I have pretty bad anxiety as it is so approaching girls right now is horrendous for me, it never used to be. I consider myself to be a bit above average looking, luckily i was built naturally muscular but unfortunately I am quite on the skinny side now after being so depressed these past years. The depression really rocked my world, as in I wouldn't even talk to people anymore or try to involve myself in social situations.. I would go home everyday by myself after school and smoke weed until i passed out. It was only recently this summer that I said, this is it, I'm so fucking tired of this bullshit.. I can't live like this anymore because I just cannot take it. So at this moment I find it hard to socialize with girls because I consider myself a loser without any friends, all because I was too depressed so they eventually all started to not hang out with me anymore.

I remember when I did have a girlfriend, it was the happiest time of my life. And then I completely fucked it up, long story short I lost everything because I'm an angry idiot. I want to experience those feelings again, with a girl.. sex or a relationship it doesn't matter, its been 3 years since I've been laid. I'm willing to do and learn anything if it means I can re-obtain that swagger and coolness I used to somehow have. Hopefully this website can help me. Where should i start? and thanks for reading this far.

If you've been diagnosed with depression, I assume you're receiving some sort of SPAM for it. If that SPAM isn't working, you need to communicate with your doc and find something that does help. You need to deal with this hurdle first before worrying about your Game.

As for anxiety approaching, that's normal. Your goal should not be to rid yourself of that anxiety, but rather to be aware of it, accept it, and still approach. Even top PUA's get approach anxiety. It's a normal human reaction to meeting a new person. It's part of the survival instinct that kept our species alive and thriving. Be grateful for it. Without it, some other species would be running this ball of dirt and we would just be exhibits in their natural history museums.

Welcome to the forum.