I used to be a pretty successful PUA. For 3+ years I was picking up gorgeous women, pushing myself to get my standards up, I ended up ignoring most women, who weren't "good enough" while my friends were imploring me to fuck them because they couldn't.

I was looking for Mrs. Perfect.

I ended up finding her, which led to my first REAL relationship (i'm 21), since 15 I had not been interested in one and the ones I have had never lasted because I didn't care for these women.
I fell in love with Mrs. Perfect, as you can guess, and it led to me turning into a simp, and eventually getting heartbroken after a couple months. She said it, and I agreed "you changed, you used to be this badass that didn't give a fuck about anything, but you changed".
She was right.

So after 4 months of mourning (that and the fact that I had major finals), i've resurrected.
The best I can do is re-read all the material and information that helped me be this successful, except that this time I now know EXACTLY how everything works.
I was the master of pick-up, but I wasn't an expert in relationship's, I didn't have a clue. Now i'm 100% bulletproof and I know the blueprint.
My friends used to call me "The Coach", they would come to me for advice on how to get girls. That changed once they saw I was vulnerable just like them.

I hadn't cried since I was 7 years old, my girl knew that, she saw my cry when we broke up.
I've made HUGE mistakes in that relationship, but I have learned lessons from it, i've evolved into another level, and my mind is back and ready.

Thursday 1st September 2011 (date my exams finish and I can get a normal life back), ChristmasWish 2.0 will be locked and loaded.
I have seen desperation, depression and sadness and i've looked them into the eye and flipped them the finger!
This is my welcome back post, a letter to myself, a reminder that there is no going back, that the worst is past and that the light will shine again.

There is no Mrs. Perfect, only a collection of individuals that all try to reach that ideal in each persons perception. All slightly different like a deck of cards.

Thank God i've only seen the first one.

CW 2.0

Rough shit, dude. I can't believe how much you were affected by your relationship if it was only a few months long. I went through something similar, only I sarged very intensely for less than a year, taught formally and then landed into a 1.5 year relationship. Only unlike you, I bounced back quickly and had my first full close around 4 days after the break-up.

I'll be watching your progress with interest. We're both in more or less the same boat, so it'll be fun. Maybe we can even make a challenge to see who gets their mojo back faster .

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Haha yeah, the relationship was intense aswel, we saw each other every day, lived together for a while.

On the mojo side, i've hooked up with about 25 chicks in the past 4 months, 4 of which I had sex with. Could probably have doubled that number, but i'm very picky so I don't like to hook up with any girl, might be my biggest flaw, only wanting top notch quality, when sometimes I wish I could just close my eyes and go for quantity!

Joseph Stallin once said, "quantity has a quality all it's own." But he was probably talking about tanks at the time and definately not talking about women.

The key is to engage women that YOU find attractive and interesting and not use societies standards or your buddies standards or anything like that. Your bed is your private sanctuary and you invite into it who you want under your conditions. If some fat chick in coke-bottle glasses and gapped teeth catches your desire over some hot slender blond for whatever reason one day, go for it. But on the other hand if you are only attracted to chicks with washboard abs and a model's face and you aren't into any of the rest there is nothing wrong with holding out for what you really want.

If you are attracted to someone and into them, you are being real true to yourself and noone can point a finger. If you are banging some chick that you aren't into just because you can then you are just being a douche.