I have searched my diary I used to write for myself while I was improving myself in PUA and in life in general and found an amazing article that inspires me and motivates me. I decided to publish it for people who might be in same situation I was not long ago. This really helped me a lot and I hope it will help others. This is beyond just pickup and girls this is about ones life ones happiness ones success. I read this even now that I am behind all the problems I had because every time I read this article it gives me inspiration to improve further whether it might be in business, girls or anything else. I hope this helps others as it helped me.


"Just 2 days ago I came back from LA vacationing with my family and I started to think my about my life and I am writing this now to follow myself and to see later on in my life what I was like now. It is now summer and my
college is pretty much didn't start. Most of my game is in college since I can easily build up
a social circle easily there and have an easier time gaming. I have the looks and the personality.
But one thing I am missing is the true confidence, relying on myself on my beliefs on my values. Remember looks and social value can only get you to a certain level.
Alpha male is the male who does what he believes, not does what others
believe of he should do. It may be hard to go against your bad values which you think are your real
values of being shy and non social. Your real values are a man who does exactly what he believes does not seek approval from
others and knows what he does is his own choice. He does not seek approval from public his
family or anyone but himself. He does value others opinion and considers it but only if he
thinks its beneficial for him. He does not rely on anything outside of himself including his success his looks or
his approval from others(social value). He relies on his beliefs his values and his will to carry out his wishes. If unexpected dramatic events that he never had before come before him he does not panic.
He knows that whatever choice he makes had to be done
whether he was right or wrong. If he was right he was right if he was wrong he learns from his
mistake but understands that it had to be done to move forward and not repeat it. When I read
this I start to imagine myself feeling the power within myself because this is the ultimate man
that I want to be. These thoughts make me shiver from the cold wind blowing on me but also make
me feel warm as a young infant in a crib to even imagine that I can be this one day. I
refused to go to a party yesterday fearing my own self. Fearing what will people think of me.
Thinking "will I fit in?". But at the end only one person lost out not the people who might have
thought I was weird not the person hosting the party they both were at the party they both had
fun and were not affected by my opinion but I was effected by theirs. If you choose to do what
you believe and and not what others believe of you you might be wrong and at least have the opportunity to regret what
you did but by doing what others want you do and not doing what you want and not following yourself you will never even have a
chance to regret. You will always think back and say to yourself why did I bind myself to the pressure and not follow my own wishes. Never compare yourself to other people. You are your own person. There might
be a big bolder separating you from the real you just like the wall separates those outside the
fortress and those inside and this bolder the wall is anxiety, lack of confidence, approval
seeking, needy, fear, and past negative experiences and you might try to break this wall by hitting it
and plowing it and be exhausted because the wall is so thick and your energy is so limited. The
way to get to the other side of this wall is to ignore the wall and climb over it with a
ladder. You take step by step climbing towards the bright sky and fighting against the gravity
as you take a step up the ladder you get closer to reaching the other side. Once you climb all
the way you have reached the other side and that side is the real you. Once inside the walls of
a fortress you are protected you are where you belong you are you. Same is true with us we try
to break this thick wall by improving our confidence learning methods to pick up girls trying
magic tricks but we have to understand to be above this. We have to understand that rather than
fighting our weaknesses we have to climb above them. We have to ignore them and disregard them.
We have to focus on improving ourselves rather than fighting ourselves. We have to make sure we
climb the ladder step by step and not jump 5 steps at a time. After you climb the ladder all
the way you will finally see what is behind this wall behind this anxiety,fear and the lack of
confidence and that is the real you the ultimate you. I was at one time outside this wall this
fortress but now after many years of trial and error of hardship of building this ladder of
failing of being exhausted I have finally climbed over this miserable wall and enjoy my life as I
want to. Now I am a real man that I always wanted to be I feel comfortable in my life knowing I
will not have regrets later in my life that I didn't make my own choices. It may as hard as
rolling a big boulder of the well it might be as annoying as being in a forest full of
mosquitoes biting you all over but it for sure will be worth all your work and effort. It will
be worth your lifetime. It will be the best thing you ever did in your life.

-Joe-

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"Experience is the teacher of all things"

Indeed very inspirational man !!

good work !

Thank you so much for your inspiration Joe!
I think I will start writing a diary about my life soon, so when I'll become famous my biography will be easier to do (dreaming is always good )

Haha but seriously, I think it's good to look sometimes at the past and to see what we did wrong, see how we became better and stuff.

Thanks again!

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No more excuses, make it happen.

Thanks guys. i can't believe I wrote this myself it was so long ago. I have few more in my diary. If you guys want tell me I will put more stuff on.

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"Experience is the teacher of all things"

Could you parse that block of text into some damn paragraphs please.

Very good, very inspirational! Thanks man! Post some more please!

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In order to get something you've never had, you have to do something you've never done.