| So... I sit at my desk drinking a beer nervous as fuck.
I've been invited to this girls birthday party tonight, and I'm leaving as soon as I finish this post and take a shower.
This is the first time I'm going out since the split between my ex and I. Just saying "ex" is something I need to get used to.
I met this girl, at an acting class that I've recently attended.
She is, and I say this bluntly, one of the top 3 most beautiful girls I have ever seen.
The reason I am nervous, is 1) She will be the ONLY person that I will know at the party. 2) well....that's about it.
So I text her this week saying...
Me: hey you wana come out sometime with me and a friend to a club... don't worry, I promise not to hit on you.
Girl: Yeah! Come to my birthday friday.
Me: How old are you turning?
Girl: 25
Me: So you're an oldie now...congrats How are you celebrating?
Girl: Having some friends over.
Me: Ok I'll let you know in the next day or two if I can make it...if I don't see you then, make this year the best yet!
(At this point I'm thinking that I'm not really going to go, UNLESS, she asks me again, by Friday (today))
Today
Girl: Come tonight!
Me: Possibly... where? what time? Are you staying at your house or are you going after... I can't make any promises.
Girl: My house 8pm then probably going to the (Bar).
Me: What's your address if I end up showing up... I need to know that (girl's last name)
Girl: (her address)
Girl (again): Come on Come!
So I sit here nervous as fuck still drinking my beer. This has to be so much harder than going to a club. I WILL ONLY KNOW HER. Fuck. I need to talk to her friends (guys first obviously) I have no idea how these people are. BUT FUCK IT!
THIS IS WHY I'M ALIVE GODDAMIT!!... to break down my fears and face them head on. What's the worst that could happen? Her friends don't like me. Screw them if that is the case. There is something in me that whenever I see a fear of mine, I HAVE TO OVERCOME IT, and make myself fearless! I"m......
HAHAHA...
She messaged me as I sit her
Girl: R U coming?
FUCK YA I'm coming! This is a new me, a stronger me, a better version of me, I"M A FIGHTER!
Me: I should be over at 930... is that cool?
Girl: Omg yes! I LOVE yOU!
Girl (again): I'm tipsy lol
wish me luck!
More to come...
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