Annnnnddddd here comes the sucky part.

Well I've had a good run. It's been fun, and I've had a blast, the short 22 days it lasted. 22 days ago I met the girl of my dreams. I'm talking every single box ticked on my rating scale. She was even bisexual for gods sake. We had a great emotional connection. At times you we could feel the start of a love coming on.

But I fucked it up. Like I always do. It's done. I asked her out to prematurely, SPAM all the cards I had saved this whole time. Now she knew all my AMOG alpha bullshit was, well, bullshit. No more attraction for me. And gone just like that. She won't answer my phone calls or messages, so fuck it. I'm done.

I had everything for 22 days. She was the fucking package deal. Everything I wanted. And I had to bend myself over and fuck myself in the ass. I killed the most perfect thing I've ever had, now I'm a fucking wreck. I'm actually balling my eyes out right now. Call me a pussy. I dont give a fuck anymore. I don't see how I will ever find another girl like that. There is no other girl like her.

Just had to get that off my chest. Like I said I'm a fucking wreck right now. I always just ALMOST make it and then I fuck it up, and idk how to change.

Oh well. That's that. Time to go get wasted.

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In order to get something you've never had, you have to do something you've never done.

That's the only part of your post that matters.

It's not game over at all.. i've been in the exact same position as you twice before, full on fell for a girl who also "ticked all my boxes".. but guess what - there are thousands of girls in this world that can tick all your boxes, it's just finding them. The only way to find them, is to go out, sarge, meet girls, rule out the time wasters, and find those that you connect with.

Having a negative attitude will get you nowhere mate, you know that deep down.

I was in Orlando, Florida for the last 2 weeks, and I was walking through Universal Studios, and you have no idea the amount of times I thought to myself 'fucking hell.. how did I ever get oneitis, there are SO many gorgeous girls in this world'.

Take it on the chin. 22 days is fuck all mate, honeymoon periods end, and things, aswell as people, change.

You will get a better girl, mark my words. Deep down you already know i'm right. To end on a harsh but fair note - feeling sorry for yourself will not help, nor will drowning your sorrows with alcohol!

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Behind the lady who dances and the man who madly drinks, i'll show you the truth about love.

Imho, bisexual girls are not reliable dates. Why date someone who is not sure if she even likes men? And it might be my personal opinion, but bisexual girls are more emotionally unstable than straight girls. Just my experience.

Better than alcohol is... more women! Hahahaha. You just need to get out there and go find someone else that can fill those boxes. Don't worry, it's bad now, but you'll be fine later.

Thanks guys for the support. I'm doing a lot better now but I still miss the fuck out of her. I posted a facebook status quoting some John Mayer lyrics that was very obviously intended towards her that said:

"I understand I wasn't part of the plan, but I'll assure you early that I am your man. It's not about you now, its what we are."

Her latest facebook status reply was:

"Don't waste your time on me, you're already a voice inside my head."

So I guess it's really over. No chance she will come back is there?

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In order to get something you've never had, you have to do something you've never done.

I know it's hard, but you gotta move on man. Work on your inner game, and I'm sure you'll find a chick better. Sounds hard to believe now, but it's true.