Went out to hollywood again friday night SUPER PUMPED, because I have now sarged there a couple times and gotten more comfortbale there. Not to mention wednesday went so well for me. I'm like off the wall getting pumped, yelling, jumping around. you get the picture. My buddy and I show up around midnight and as were approaching a the bar I see a two set leaving and opened.

Within a couple minutes i got the number and went inside. (Gorgeous little hispanic chick) my buddy said it looked like it was going really well and was surprised i ejected javascript:emoticon(':x') so i start txting her right away.
We get into the bar, and i'm not sure why but the vibe was off, I dont think I did a single set in the bar, met up with some friends that had been sarging already they weren't doing to hot either. They decided to stick it out, me and my buddy go up to hollywood blvd (we were on sunset previously) and decide to do some street game.

We see a 3 set, and open they were eating hot dogs and we just started talking about them buying us food. It was a fun convo but it wasn't really going anywhere, but I plowed just to get my mouth running, and after about five minutes we leave.
I start opening sets left and right, but none of them really sticking, and I'm dissappointed that I haven't kiss closed. I also got a missed call from the cute hispanic chick, but whn I call back no answer.

Its about 2ish now and we've been on a dry 20 minutes. Me and my buddy see this two set hugging, so we hug eachother and I said something to the effect of can we join your intimate moment. I stumbled on my words, and she said well if you came in smoother, so we retrace our steps back up two feet then go back in and I repeat it haha so the four of us start talking. I have a tendency to juggle two sets by myself so my wing can nvr really tell which my target is, i have to get better at that. So the girl I start out talking to is going good but again my vibe is off and my sarcastic comments aren't sarcastic, i'm just a "bullshitter" her words...ouch!!

I notice the girl my buddy is talking to isn't going to well but i hear an accent so i turn my attention to her start chopping it up (half hispanic, half french!! AHH!! I've never gamed a 10 before, but i think she was close) and realize why my buddy wasn't doing to well. She's really cold, but for the sake of not ejecting i plow and plow some more. I'm going no where but its late, and I'm trying to get better at not ejecting. At one point she ssays something like its not working, or i'm just tired or something like that. But I tease her for being anti social and I'm just making small talk, and plow some more. A little sign of life in this girls eyes, but I know its not going anywhere, there ride comes and we leave.

One last three set that didnt go to well, when the girl asks me "why are you asking me so many questions?"
ouch again, am I really THAT off tonight.

So I'm realllllyyyy down at this point, because at the beginning of the night, there was no doubt in my mind that i wasn't getting laid.
I'm a fast learner, and I hate losing. I've only been doing this for two weeks (reminder i'm fresh out of a 3 year ltr) but I felt like if I got all those numbers and makeouts wednesday I should easily be able to do that again on a friday.

My energy was off, and my verbal game wasn't fire. It sucks when one night everything you say hooks, and the next your trying to hard.

so a bitter night, yes?
BUT THEN
I realize, i OPENED AND KEPT TALKING TO AT LEAST 15 SETS
that is not something I thought was possible two weeks ago, so sweet? YES!
I realized I was WAYYY to outcome dependent. I have a tendency of expecting way to much of myself, and setting my standards really high. I did not go out to have fun with the homies on friday, i went out to fuck. and its a voided feeling driving home by yourself when your outcome dependent.

So is this something I should work on? I feel like setting mini goals like makeouts and numbers is good, but it fucked up my head. Where's a good balance and how do i find it out in field? I don't want to be a downer when i'm chasing goals that aren't realistic, but I also don't want to be the serial opener that ONLY OPENS.

couple things

-because of high energy and expectations i came in to hyper, talking to fast, and acting needy. People came up to me asking me if i needed a snickers because they said i looked hungry lol

-reitterate whats above, i was not cool, calm, and collect. I was a 12 year old at disneyland for the first time.

-social momentum is so crucial

i know this is an extremely long post, but i would greatly aprreciate your feedback.
thanks

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