iam only 21, I have never asked for an advice on this form but im pouring my heart out to you guys and need your advice...

i meet my ex GF on christmas day 2 years ago, the connection was very strong both phisically and emotionaly. she is a HB9 and a very nice person with good morals. we started talking on the phone mostly because it was a LTR, so we build a strong connection which wast all physical. she lived half hr away from me (i live in US and she lives in CANADA). i went and saw her few times a week but mostly on weekends.

we had alot of fun together and before i knew it we were in LOVE, which was not planed at all. we LOVED each other and actually cared. this girl gave me so much love that it got edicted to it and in return i loved as well and made her feel safe and took care of her (i was there for her financially and emotionaly).

we brokup once at the end of the year in september because her mom didnt aprove of the relationship. but evntualy we got back together without her mom knowing (moms always know tho). we were together until this september. this time it built up over time because she met some guy who goes to the same college that she goes to (she lied and told me that he goes to a different school). they became friends mainly because they have the same circle of friends. if she was on the phone with him she woudnt tell me who it was and jus relied "its a friend from school".

i started to have suspetions which never happend before. one time she caame over to spend the weekend with me. in the morning i went through her phone which i never felt the need to do before, and this is the tex msgs i found... 5 o' clock in the morning on a saturday

(i dont wana use thier names)

guy-"hey wat r u doing"
my ex-"tossin and turnin" (she was laying in bed with me while doing this)
guy-"i cant go to sleep, cant stop thinking about you"
my ex-"oh cute me too hun" (dont know if it meant that she is also thinkin about him)
guy-"i wish you wer in the bed with me"
my ex didnt reply to this but she didnt reply that i have a BF or why are you sayng this.
there was another one that i cant remember...

i fliped out and started throwing her stuff out and told her to get outa my house (now i think about it, i shouldnt have done that but i felt so betrayed that my girl was talking to another guy while laying in bed with me).

i called the guy and left a nasty voice msg and deleted his #

i told her that she has to gain my trust back and i told her not to delete any tex mesgs or any calls so i can see if he called her or texed her again (i was gonna see her the following weekend). when i did see her. some calls and mesges wer gone and she made some excuse. i asked to be honest with me and tell if he contacted her or she did, she said no. by now i could feel that somthing was wrong.

we were together for another month or so. not going into too much detail we eventually broke up but it sounde more like a TIME OFF. she said that she needs time off to think about things, mostly her mom not being happy with her. she said that she doent know what she wants and she is CONFUSED (i felt like such an AFC that my girl was feeling that).

she lied to me the whole time after i found that tex mesg on her phone and denied it completly that she does not talk to him anymore. i mean how can they not when they have a class together. just to remind you that the time we were in a relationship she always chaced me until last 6-7 months, i got really attached to her... may be that was my down fall(but what could i do i was in LOVE).

afetr we split she started hanging out with him more which i found out recently and which she denied most of the time. she told me that she loved me and cared about me while she was hanging out with him at school, park and even went to her house after school (which she says that nothing happend and they are jus friends). i felt so STUPID so PLAYED and so DECIVED. i feel SORRY for myself. i told her that we are done for good and i cant have a girl who is not sure about what she wants and she cant keep me hanging in the middel. we didnt talk to each other for a week almost until yesterday... plus she called my sister, my uncle to tell me that sheloves me and all that crap. she also sent a msg online to this girl ive been hangin with saying that "we love each other and to stay away from me and not to come between us".

then she called me again yesterday, i was mad but eventually i called back and we talked and everything seemed fine and it seemed she wanted me back. i told her that lets work things out and it will be ok but in end of the conversation i asked her "so, what do you wana do now", her reply" I DINT KNOW". i was chrused and told that its not cool what she is doing to me, jumping in and out of my life as she pleases. i called back later and told her not to ever call me again.

its time to end this and please help me get over this because i still LOVE her and cant imagin her with another guy.

IAM SO SORRY THAT ITS THIS LONG... ALOT DEPENDS ON YOU GUYS ADVICE.

ok so here is a reply to a break-up post last week

ur break-up is SCARY how close it resembled mine
if u need any further advice or help - feel free to pm me

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ACE

thank you and that does inspire me...
i ended things for good by texing her that she a confused and imature little girl and not to waste my time
thank you for everything... untile my next bump in life, laters

p.s. i hope that some other guys out there goin through the same problem can learn and know when its time to let go and move on life to bigger and better things
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The only thing you can do is to let her go and tell EVERY other girl that knows you and her that IT'S OVER with you and her. So, if she tells them something different, they know better.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=01Ry5kZCeps

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holy crap
that was the most inspirational video ever
holy F
i need to go sarge NOW

kb thanks for that post man
that was tight as hell

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ACE

that video was amazing and it will help anybody going through the same kind of LIFE REALITIES. iam moving on and relizing that there is more to life that being stuk on one person.

THANKS GUYS

you’ve assigned to much value to her, and you’ve forgotten your true path as a man, get on it and over it. No big deal, this world is massive with alot of girls, time for you to pick and choose your options and have fun.

Don’t try to end it on a bad note, i don’t think your sincere with it, you’ll just end up hurting yourself. This has already happened, shes cheated on you, shows you shes not the one.. its no big deal man. Be friends with her, have benefits, but let her live her life and you live yours!

Do that

Admit that you love her but understand shes not the one. Nothing wrong with loving girls, why not eh? we are only human. Talk to her about it, maybe you both love a certain vibe between eachother, you can recreate that every week or two, whenever you feel like seeing her! while your doing that just sarge girls, meet and find people you dig.

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Back, starting over as of 2012.

iam not 100% sure if she cheated on me. ive asked her if she did but she denies it like everything else that she lied about. i have no intensions of keeping in contact with her at least for now. iam jus glad that it is over with and now i can focus on just ME

thank u IMPACT for ur input

Hey Kai. I just went through a breakup of my own. Like you I went through a phase where I was angry and lashing out and she became the focus of it all. Needless to say that behavior only made things worse.

Don't let all those negative emotions and thoughts run the show. Cut them off now before they seriously warp your personality. If you carry them around long enough, they will taint you. And we all know the guys who've been tainted. Bitter, cranky old men who haven't gotten laid in twenty years. Just imagine that guy and actively avoid becoming that guy.

Aside from listening to Ace's advice (which is gold), just drop your attachment to this relationship. Really at this point, nothing you can do -- whether it's arguing or persuading or anything -- can turn the clock back or restart the relationship. It's tough, two years is a long time, but you have to just force yourself to move on. Make yourself busy, make new friends, and realize that there's a huge world out there for you to explore.