| i just started reading the game by neil struass a few days ago, studying and cramming as much knowledge i can obtain from it and other internet sources. i am 21 going on 22 in aug and am still a virgin. the last time i even kissed a girl was my girlfriend from my senior year of high school. she was an honest 8.5, and my first true girlfriend. i loved her and i still do, however i now realize i had entangled myself in the thought of her and what could have been. consciously and subconsciously creating a lot of negative feelings; developing a lot of cynicism over the years. i hated my friends and family for not being able to recognize and help me overcome. i hated her for just leaving me the way she did when she knew how i felt about her. mainly i hated myself for letting my emotions get the best of me, not being able to bring them back under control, and not being able to make her fall as in love with me as i was for her. discovering this community has instilled a breath of life in me i have not felt in a long time, opening my eyes to a new world and a cure to the problems plaguing me.
tonight i went to a hotel party at this hilton suite with my friend and his gf. as soon as we arrive and were walking toward the suite this beautiful black haired 8 was walking behind us. squeaking with each consecutive step as she just left the pool, so i glanced over my shoulder deciding to throw a slight neg at her. i simply said "your quite squeaky" she laughed and stated because she was all wet. i laughed and said "its all good", thinking this girl wasn't even going to the same suite as us. turns out i was wrong and she followed us right in lol, so i decided right away this was going to be my target. let me back up a sec and tell you this wasnt much of a party it was my friend his gf 4 gay dudes 3 straight ones (myself included) and three girls. the 8, a 7.5, and a cute petite 6.5. we sat down and the 8 her name was Francene, said "your Brandon right". i took it as and ioi and corrected her then asked her name, but instead of talking to her for a bit i went straight to the kitchen to grab a drink (i didnt want to start talking to her right away afraid she would lose interest). so when i returned i began talking to the 7.5 alexis she just got a boob and nose job done so i began making small talk for about 10 min ending with a compliment on her new nose (i didnt want to say ne thing about her boobs cause i didnt want her to think i was creepy lol). i tryed to talk to francene after her but moronically started by saying your names Francesca right lol at the time i felt like an idiot but now i realize it really just put us on even playing ground she got my name wrong once i got hers wrong once. instead of saying that i muttered at least i was partially right. whatever i thought i may have blown my chance, so i struggled to keep the convo alive for all 1 min before i decide to stop before i looked foolish and i moved on to talk to the 6.5 Kristen or Kristin, something along those lines. i spent about 15 mins talking to her. it was really easy since she was from chi near my hometown and probably knew more about sports than i. after we started talking for a while, alexis kept trying to get my attention, she was actually pretty annoying but i learn that her and Francene didn't like each other so i thought i could use it to my advantage. i began engaging with her again until she asked if i could drive her to get more cigs. while we drove to the gas station i let her just talk shit about francene untill finally i couldnt take it and switched subject i did this jealous cat routine i found it online earlier on her and it seem to lighted her mood. i didnt even think it was going to work i just wanted her to shut up, but it did. i decided to see if she'd let me see her new breast, she flat out denied me, but i didnt care it seemed like a bold and crude statement anyway. when we got back to the hotel parking lot the fireworks were going off already so i just open the sunroof and told her we should watch them from there she rest her head on my shoulder and i kissed her cheek. she ignored it so i waited a sec then gave her another kiss this time she looked at me smiled and we began making out untill the fireworks ended. then went back up to the room. i pretty much chilled on the patio and she would come and sit on my lap each time she came out there, and each time i tryed to make out with her again, i dont know if its cus everyone else was out there and she was shy or what but each time we started kissing she didnt let it last more than a few sec. i wasnt satisfied, but i kept trying, an eventually she started talking to one of the other guys while she was sitting on my lap. even though i know i should have excused myself and gave her a false take-away, i was feeling pretty alpha with her on my lap and getting the merger kisses i could. before i turn this post into a novel. i just want to end by saying she ended up going to talk to that dude and i had to drive my two friends home shortly after she went with him (not before getting her number tho haha). on my way out i told Francene it was nice meeting her, she concurred, and i could totally tell she was interested in me just by her look and the way she actually truly seemed like she liked meeting me in the tone of her response (she was right by the door when we left and i accidentally kinda bumped the door on my head while opening it because i was thinking more about her than actually how far my face was from the door lol) i didnt mind tho i felt so good about myself.
after i dropped my two friends of i decided to go to this poppin bar my friend was bouncing at to test my new found confidence. the SPAM completely changed and it took me down a few notches but i was still good. i stepped up to the bar right next to this petite blond about an 8.5-9, but i had no material and didn't even know how to open her so after waiting for my water from the bar tended for a few minute, the hip hop music blaring in the background going something like "...if your pretty and you know it make some noise..." looping, i gave her a tap with my elbow and told her to make some noise. she looked at me weird and said you make some noise... i failed and buckled letting out a short shout, she said something i didnt catch, but i realized i just failed a shit test so i didnt even attempt to talk to her again. after the fact i thought a good reply to her response would have been something along the line of " baby im screaming right now, i want to her you scream" or something like that. what do you guys think? im open to all and any constructive criticism!
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