Hi puas and newbies. I have reading the stuff about for 6 months. I learned a lot from them. And finally I decided to begin my journal.

Who I am?
My name is Caner, from Turkey. I am 21 years old and a good-looking guy. My height is 1.71 and I have a babyface, blue eyes etc.. yea I can hear you, it doesn't matter. I am in peace with myself. BUT.. I have social phobia. I am too much a nice guy and too much romantic.

What else about me:
I had lots of GF but all of them about HB6. I don't have a huge social circle. Just 3-4 good friend.. Yea it sounds bad. My score is 1 lay and 4 foreplays I am not a club guy but I wil..

What do I want from game?:
I want to be a social human being. I want to be build confidence, kill my social phobia. The most important is.. I WANT HOT BABES. But not only for laying. I want to change my life..

Some thoughts about Turkey(not mine. I don't have enough experience):
Turkish girls are so bitchy. They doesn't have humor. It's nearly imposible to pass bitch shield. you have to have much money. You can't kiss all girls in 30 minutes, they need more trust and comfort. It is nearly imposible to lay with them in 2 weeks(girls who lost virginity) etc.. But I am positive at this. Because I am claver enough and I am a fast-learner. I have enough money to make a rich-man illision. It is hard to become a master in here. but not imposible.. I promise myself that I will master this game..

My first sarge will be tomorrow. A friend of mine and I will go to beach. He knows about the game but not enough. I have materials and stacks. I hope, I will found some targets who is friendly. Wish me luck guys.

See you tomorrow..

Sarge day 1

My friend and I went to beach today. The weather wasn't so good so there were a few people on the beach. Every single women was with BF so I couldn't opened set. So I just enjoyed and talked a bit with strangers. no goals..

Sarge day-2

hello guys. Today 2 friend of me and I went to shore, and bought some beer. We were having just fun and planing a camp for next week. We were playing guitar and drinking on the grass.

Then I saw a 3 set. Although I didn't expect an opening today, I wanted to open them for just fun and experience. They looks like about HB7 and two UG4-2.

I had too much AA when I decided to open them. My friends don't believe this MM stuff so their thoughts give me power and I stand up then.. my fear is gone.. great feeling..

I opened with Jealous GF opener which is best suitable for that place.

Mapkap: Hi girls..(they giggles)don't get any ideas.(i giggled)I want to ask a quick question, I don't want to make you unfortortable but.. My friend had a girlfriend for 1 mounth(suddenly I cut the topic because my target had really wonderful eyes) hey are your eyes lens?(but I noticed that she is about HB5or6 she looks better from away)

HB:Yes they are lens, and your eyes lens too..

Matkap:(with smile)No they are real. Lots of my friends ask me this question so I just want to know why they are asking this. Are they want to be kind or compliment etc. hmm I can say that they just want to be kind..

Let's let me explain. My friend..(HB cut me)

HB: Let me gues, your friend date his ex's friend.

Matkap: No, it is not that easy.(I sit down a little and told story)

HB: bla sit down. bla bla my boyfriend is also want to keep his ex GF's messages etc. bla bla but it is normal. I think there is no problem with keeping photos..

Matkap: So this is not a typical girl behavior hmm thanks.(Body rocking then) you know what, your eyes really looks fake (with smile)

UG4: I told you(to her with smile)

HB: (smiles)

Maptap: My name is Caner. (shaked hands UG4)

UG4:my name is bla bla..

UG2:bla(I couldn't hear her. She was looking her phone, looking like a shy one)(target and UG4 laughed)

Matkap:is she always like this(they laughed again)

HB: bla bla..

Then I just thanked them ask for nuts-they are eating nuts) they give me lots of nuts and left them, I didn't want to game them more because I took what I want.

Result:

Available sets:1
Opened sets:1
Hooked sets:1
N-close:0


see you next sarge day..

woohoo go get em tiger!

Update

I am recently busy about making avatar, hair style etc. Also I will go to doctor for acnes today.

And also I have started diet and workout. I have nearly %16 fat I want to bring down it to at least %8.

I am a perfectionist, all the things I do, must be perfect. I know it is not good sometimes but if I feel not ready fully, I feel so uncomfortable and low confidence. So it will take time to change this and build confidence. But I know, I will change.

See you next FR.

sarge day 2

hi guys. I was at camping on an avarage beach for 5 days but it I came with bad news.. Unfortunately my friends sulked each other in the first day! then 1 more friend had came and we were 4 friends.

But also there was a few people on the beach. I can say that I saw around 7 or 8 set which could be opened in 5 days. I couldn't. My motivation and energy leves is incredible low. There was no enough HB, my friends nearly got fight, there was no fish(I like fishing) so I didn't enjoy the camping.. And I see my first sticking points..

Sticking Points


-Approach anxiety
There was 7-8 set could be opened but I cound't open. I found an excuse each time I see them such as "there is a boy in set. They will think I am hitting on them. Her parents with her and they will see me.. etc."
I think I don't have fear of rejection. Rejection is a way to learn. I am anxious about what other people think. Totally beta-male behavior.

I also noticed that, I caught some eye contact deeply but I didn't open because I saw them with some other boys. This is more from rejection.. this is social phobia..


-Controlling energy level and motivation
I was like a ghost. I was too quite. My friend which knows about noticed that I was too low energy. I am not always like this low energy, I just don't know hot to control it.

-Beeing talkative
I know I am a quite person. I never speak much. I have things to say but I just choose not speaking. I think the sentence whick I am about to say isn't have enough value to say.

-Beeing dominant
This is clear. I am totally like a little brother. I am curious about what other people think.


Soving the problems:

I think I need just confidence and experience. One of friend told me that, when I drunk, I was beeing more normal person. This is true, when I drink 2 beers I am turning into talkative mood and having fun. Making jokes, telling absurb things and interesting stuffs, beeing high energy and ALWAYS smiling. But not beeing alpha. beeing alpha is totally diffirent i think. It is all about my social phobia guard. When I drink 2 beers(no more) the guard goes down, that simple. I have to learn killing this guard without beers..

Update

Hi guys. I have been busy lately and I wanted to update.

I lost about 5 lbs in 3 weeks. I am doing a diet and interval cardio. The results made me happy because I am a short man and fat on the stomach looks terrible.

After reading and searching for fashion and style, I decided to be simple. Just fitted dark skinny jeans and nice both v neck and pop t-shirts, button shirts and leather accessories, boots, jecket. And also a nice black blazer. I will keep it simple and I one of accessories will pop up as peacocking.

I still looking for best suited hairstyle. I have a round face so I don't have many option. But also my top head is narrow so I HAVE TO have medium long hair. I don't know what to do with it. Shaggy hairsytle best for round face but it seems childish to me because I have a babyface. Maybe a messy hair I don't know both of this work for club.. any opinion?(I hear you, I know this doesnt matter so much.All about social value)


After several months reading stuff I noticed something. This is not for only chicks. Dude this is the secret of the life. Before I am into game, I have incredible social phobia. I am always a quite person. After reading the all stuff I feel the power inside me. I feel different. I am looking hopefully to my future. Not about chicks. I know secrets about women. I know, the problem wasn't at me or chicks. The problem was confidence then, inexperiencement. I feel more confident after just reading. I can talk to anyone now. I am not a quite one, I am now afraid of losing my friends, and tease them playfully too. Dude this is great to talk about. I am totally different from last year.

Thanks to pua community; my life is in change.

I will put myself out of comfort zone and after taking SPAM, I will make some friends which I can go club together(all of my friends is nonclub guy, they are great people and friend but thats all. They don't want to go out of comfort zones.

Update

"Hey guys I want to talk about waht happened recently. I pick my pivot-HB8 and 2 more friend guy and girl then went to the this club party. I was in mood and talkative as usual. After entering the club, I was confident, having fun, holding court, telling stories. I firstly opened a mixed group and have fun. An HB8 was giving me IOI and I gamed her. Then I roll off because I see a 3 set a guy and 2 HB7 and HB9(totally my type) Then I took my pivot and gamed them smoothly. This girl was tough but finally she showed some IOI then I used my favorite plotline, jelaous plotline. I introduced previous HB8 and everything was going well. I isolated HB9 and when telling stories from my childhood, got ejected. But who cares? I love telling about myself and fun staff.. Then I back to friends and made some guy friends too. And gamed more sets. I make up the HB8 I met first. Then a guy asked me "how do you dothis. Everygirl make eye contac you, You met The hottets girl in here. Made up with a hot girl. What is the secret" I smiled. My life has changed. And I told him if he wants to learn. He said yes. And I will teach him, will change his life too..."

Well actually, you are right. This is not what happened last week. This is what I want. This is my goal! I want to imagine what I want and described it! I want a life like that. Having fun, not care about closes but also if posible do full closes. I want to be a social guy who wants to meet. And I want to change my best friends life to..

Today I went to an eye doctor. My eyes are fully red for 27 days. Doc said I have very strong alergy to sun. and gave me a glass for computer, and 2 medicine drop. Then I went dermatology for my acnes. They are alergy too. both natural and alergy acnes. %3.5 fat has gone form my body. it was %16 and it is %12.5 now. I want it around %8. I will keep cardio and diet.

I made a more natural stack for daygame last night. Opener will be asking for direction and transition will be natural things. I choosed materials that looks more natural. Such as eyebrow routine, eye direction routine. The girls in here are willing to say "that was a good way to meet me" because of the culture. So I want it look natural. I am fan of stories. I prefer small DHV stories for attraction and comfort. Looks natural. I am a musician so I will use it..

I will begin a new chapter these day. It is time to change everything. Setting up mindset, getting out of comfort zone, test meterials and find out what fits me and also practice calibrate!