i caught an std. i went and got tested and im waiting for the results but im pretty sure its herpes. what should i do to the woman who gave it to me? she had to know she had it and she insisted on not using protection. i want to slap the shit out of her but im hiding my anger until i get the official results from the clinic. this shit is incurable. i can never go bareback again. this is fucking bullshit. im going to see her tonight and its just going to drive me crazy inside because we've been nothing but nice to eachother and this has the potential to ruin everything but im not even sure if i care. anyone who can do this to someone else is fucking negligent and gross, and if she knew she had it, downright disgusting. this is easily the worst mistake ive ever made. now i gotta look my future-wife in the eyes and tell her im carrying a fucking SEXUALLY TRANSMITTED DISEASE.. see how well that goes over. im boiling over right now. you spend your whole life making careful decisions, you make one careless mistake, and its over. what am i supposed to do? be happy its not AIDS? fucking shoot me

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There's a good chance she didnt know she had it. Some people dont display any symptoms of STDs. You shouldnt do anything to the girl you go it off considering it was your decision to go bareback

yep. some people carry herpes and don't even know it. hell, i think like 1 in 3 americans has it.

a stripper-bitch gave me an std once, thank god it was the cureable kind with a shot.

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i realize that.
i know its common but thats no sigh of relief. having a scab on your cock is neither fun nor attractive. i cant be certain its herpes because i dont have the results but from everything ive read its either that or syphilis but syphilis doesnt scab. i got pain in my lymph nodes too i can feel when i walk. this is awful.
why so high and mighty? i know its my fault i took the risk. sometimes you take risks with people you trust. if i knew this was going to happen i wouldnt be so damn hurt about it. im not shifting any blame but if you had a disease and infected a woman do you not think she would be upset? would she not have a right to be? im not gonna go and ruin her life i just dont know how to handle this. im not gonna nod my head and say its ok because its not. i have nothing else to do BUT deal with it. the part about going bareback is just my future. im not gonna infect my wife with this shitty disease. its not going away. im gonna be 40 and still have this and if theres even a woman who will say yes to being with someone who has herpes that doesnt mean they are gonna risk infection. sure i might be back to my old self in 3 months but now i gotta live with the mindset of a fucking carrier. i work in retail where all i see are hot women, my entire state of mind is turned on its head. i feel like the scum of the earth on the inside. people joke about herpes but its not so fucking funny anymore. i dont even know who i gotta tell. i told my best friend that i got tested and thats it. i dont think i can keep it from my family forever. thats gonna be a fun convo with my dad who gave me "the talk" many years ago. total let-down. yea im probably over-blowing it right now but its not just a couple bumps on my dick, its my life. its gonna follow me like a rap-sheet. if she doesnt know she has it, shes gonna be in for a treat too. i feel bad for her because she already has to deal with type 1 diabetes. shes had to monitor her blood everyday for her entire life. thats part of why i believed she was clean. im not gonna see her tonight, maybe tomorrow night. if she really wants to know why im not gonna have sex with her, im just gonna have to tell her before i get the results back.

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Can't blame you bro, I'd flip if there was a wart or bump on my dick, i'd probly go crazy and try to cut the bump off, or soak my dick in some kind of ointment

alright alright that gave me a little chuckle..

i remember when i first saw it. i had just gotten home from a night at my coworkers. we were all pretty sloshed. i take a piss and notice what looked like a bug bite on the side of my dick. i finish up and go to my room, undress, sit down and take a closer look. i got so bummed immediately. if i were a tad more sensitive i wouldve cried. now it looks like someone put out a skinny joint on top of my shaft. thank god for the local clinic. free STD walk-in testing on thursdays. came in, filled out 2 papers, super easy. waited maybe 30 minutes. had a doc ask me a few questions, she had a partner there with her. then she takes some blood, and shoves a qtip in my dick. honestly its not as bad as it sounds. got some info and a bag of like 20 condoms, walked out feeling slightly accomplished.. but im still super anxious. im just not looking forward to dealing with this pain chronically.. my dick doesnt hurt, its a little ugly, but theres no pain.. its these fucking lymph nodes.. it feels like a balloon is inflating under the muscle where my leg meets my groin causing it to feel like a bruise. you dont appreciate wellness until you're sick.

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to be honest, i would seek vengeance if some chick gave me the herp and she was aware beforehand.

it would be proportional, but it would be vengeance.

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well to put a finisher on this, its definitely herpes and she knew she had it. she is a fucking airhead and i stopped talking to her. i didnt end it badly, after we talked we went out to eat lunch, and then i just cut her off. havent talked to her in 3 months, and i dont plan to. i dont know how anybody can have someone do this to them, do all the research, know how shitty it feels, and knowingly put someone else at risk. its beyond comprehension and i feel like less of a person just for ever letting her into my life. its maddening but i feel like i earned this fucking disease by not catching the signals and doing better quality control, but most of all, by trusting someone else. a snake in the fucking grass...

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It's disgusting that she didn't tell you she had it. You deserve the right to make decisions about your own health and she didn't let you.

That said, that part is behind you, gotta keep looking forward. Sorry about the situation, I don't put much stock in prayer, but I'm definitely hoping for a cure!

That's why we don't grab coal, we grab a spear!!!

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ewwwwww

thats the problem. nobody really gives a shit about herpes because nobody talks about it. nobody admits they have it. its stigmatized. therefore its going to take that much longer to get a cure. the truth is everyone has herpes, just in a different form. if you've ever had chicken pox, you got herpes (and you still have it). 90% of the world has herpes, but mostly the oral form. see what happens, once something affects you, you start to care about it.

those of you still into "pua", keep in mind that 1/5 women have herpes in their cunt. if you dont want your dick to look like resident evil, the best thing to do would be avoid those easy airheaded ass women, if you are too weak to do that, use a condom. if she says shes on birth control, DEFINITELY USE A CONDOM. lastly, if you meet a girl who you really like and she tells you she has this disease, don't judge her. she has balls of steel, and its easier for women to get this disease than men. if she trusts you enough to tell you (BEFORE you get the fucking disease), then trust her enough to know she actually has your health in mind, rather than most of the population who don't realize they have any disease at all.

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Hi Tundra,
I also got genital herpes in Jan 2010. I am a BAFC that ALWAYS used protection (intercourse and oral) but still got herpes through skin to skin contact in the pubic area around the shaft. For the 1st year I had non-stop symptoms, then went on Valtrex daily and it's much better now.
I haven't had sex since then (almost 2 years) it is already extremely difficult for an BAFC to be confident with women but a BAFC with herpes is even better!
went through a depression in april and am seeing a psychologist right now.
I want also to remind you that having Herpes increases chances of getting HIV not only because of open sores but because of the high concentration of CD4 that is present in the area to fight the herpes, unfortunately CD4 is what HIV attach to to penetrate our system.
Having to fight my BAFCness, fear of contaminating someone and fear of getting HIV is just unmanageable.

A little bit about my background: 35 year old, good looking, intelligent, had a girlfriend for 3 years and slept with 5 women. My girlfriend was beautiful hated players and loved my sensitivity. Sexually, it was excellent. Suddenly, a mediocre older player started hitting on her and she started giving him space which humiliated me. I decided to brake up with her. I hated to be so dependent on her actions.
After reading PUA concepts, I'm definitely a man that refuses his virility and she is a women that refuses her femininity that's why we've been together. But, because she is still a women she was attracted to this guy (who ruined her later financially)
I hope to find a solution for my future cause it is extremly hard on me right now.

Good luck and be as safe as you can

i was on valtrex for a month, it was actually HER leftover prescription that she decided to stop taking because "she didnt see any symptoms"... she told me she would get me more if i needed it, but the whole idea of calling her to get dick medicine just irks me. we're not talking anymore, and i'm not about to call her up for more valtrex. being dependent on that airhead would only make me more angry. and yes, it is depressing. i felt like damaged (and unrepairable) goods for nearly 3 months. ive gotten over that part, but there isnt really a recovery.

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Hi Tundra,
I know it's tough

Did you see an ID specialist? why don't you get your own Valtrex prescription?
How do you react in general to the virus without Valtrex? If the outbeaks are spaced in time, take it only when you feel the pre-symptoms (tingling, itchiness, pain), otherwise if outbreaks are too frequent, just take Valtrex everyday, it worked very well on me. I would also mention that the generic Valtrex (valacyclovir) was not efficient on me.

Regarding your girlfriend, she acted extremely in an irresponsible way. Being infected she knew for sure that even without symptoms herpes is contagious so she should have never stopped Valtrex during a relationship and she should have never let you have sex with her without a condom. Even with these precautions (valtrex and condoms), there are still chances of contagion but at least she would have done everything in her power (other than telling you) to protect you.

I got my herpes through a fully protected sex with the only girl I slept with since my breakup (Nov 2008). She had no symptoms and told me she doesn't know about herself having it or not (she lives abroad now, I can't verify what she's told me...)
Condoms are very efficient against HIV but not herpes. In some forums, they suggest using a condom with a dental dam with a hole in the middle where you insert the penis in... that might have saved me
Anyway, a lot of people have it and live happily, there are ways to manage it. The key is to find our own way to deal with it

Good luck