I'm fairly depressed and pissed off for a # of reasons.

Imagine your with some of your friends, your walking through the woods, and you trip & fall into a hole thats 20 feet deep. Instead of them helping you they walk away and pretend that you'r not there. BUT YOU WOULD HELP THEM OUT IF IT WAS THE OTHER WAY AROUND. This is what I feel like.

Most of my friends have left my Town to go to College. My closest friends are a few states away. I tried calling a couple of them a few months ago. I taught some of these guys when I started getting good & they got their first girlfriends because of me. I haven't talked to a hand full of them in a few months.. I never blew any of my friends off either. We all kind of lost contact.... I was focusing on music & my career while they where away at college. Now i try to contact them, through the phone & Facebook and it's like I don't exist.

Two of my closest friends, one was a virgin and half the girls the other guy got where from the skills I taught him.... They act like they are above me now it's so strange. I got out of a long term relationship like 6 months ago and they treat me like shit cause my skills are rusty......... it's so weird.

I've been trying to make new friends at bars in the small town I live. The one guy I met lived in a different state and was complaining about a baby he had. Can't find wings.

The last girl I was talking too. I was about to make out with and asked her age. She said she's 15. The legal age in my state is 16. So I stopped talking to her.

The last girl I approached, looked at me like I was crazy. As soon as I said Hey she walked away. (My body language was non threatening, I smiled, was walking the opposite direction, had good clothes on, & brushed my teeth) So i'm planning to go to NY to get away from this small town of bad luck. It's not like i'm a horrible dude. either I USED TO KICK ASS AT THIS STUFF.


The other problem is that I live with my mom and I love her but she is so negative and all the game I learn is forgotten in a few months because she is a very pessimistic negative human.

And THE LAST 3 GUYS I TRIED TO CONTACT THROUGH THIS WEBSITE TO WING WITH DIDN'T RESPOND.
I was talking to xjedix, the dude gave me his # and said he'd sarge with me. I called him up & someone picked up asked "WHO THE FUCK IS THIS?" I told the guy my name and asked for the guy by stating his real name. The guy said there is nobody who lives at his house with that name then he hung up. I triple checked the # he gave me.
The other guy in NY wanted to improve day game & said to txt him. I txt the dude and he said what's up? then he stopped replying. WTF?

My careers gone to hell. I was playing in a rock band for 7 months 4 days a week to save the world from autotune & techno. We finally start getting gigs and all the other members tell me they don't like playing gigs and that they'd rather just jam. All the other members where also in Highschool and never had a real job before. The only good thing that happened lately is that one of my songs played on the local radio station but I don't have a drummer or bassist to play any gigs with. I went through 30 drummers and Bassists before I found people that would actually jam and have drive. THEN I GET SCREWED OVER AGAIN 8 months later. I found out the guys that where jamming with me now are doing a shit load of drugs and skating...... :-/

I'd like to go to a seminar but I'm broke as it is. I have all the PUA videos, books, and audio to last a life time. I really hope this move to NY works, and I can find a job and some positive people because i'm in the sea of hell right now.

Basically My life has been like one big nightmare the past few months

that sucks man, but people will do that to you. most people aren't out to repay or help others. and if they get helped they immediately move on.

Also the thing with your mom, i can TOTALLY relate to, for sure, my parents and step parents are all the same way and somehow it seems to sap the positive energy right out of you.

To bad you in NY man, i was there a month ago and we coulda jammed, i want to get into a band myself but nobody is that talented/skilled, or serious about it.

You seem to have a lot of good social skills right now and i would suggest either renting a room or being away from your mom the most of the time that you can. Fly solo and let the wings come to you. also check out the sticky by stormy in the beliefs section, its great for motivation and positive thinking.

Good Luck man

really appreciate the words. it really feels like there has just been an evil domino effect in my life lately for reasons that are out of my grasp. I'll check out the sticky by stormy right now.

That's incredibly evil and cold what your so-called "friends" did to you. Seriously mate, it sounds like you're better off without them!

As for the parents thing, I can't really relate to it so much but it definitely sounds like you need to move out and get your own flat (apartment) or something.

I guess we're in a similar situation sarging-wise though. I'm just starting out but I'm very insecure about how I look which is causing major AA. Unfortunately I have developed an ego through knowing I am good looking and because of this I worry far too much about how people perceive me.

Either way dude, I guess things always work out in the end. There's a saying..."things get worse before they get better" and I firmly believe that.

If you're ever in England dude, I'd be happy to sarge with you.

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Yeah man, know the feeling. A quote that i really like is "No matter what happens in life, blame it on yourself" Now this only means that when something happens you think "what can i do to make this better..." other than "man this sucks, why does this happen to me?

now of course things can just suck for a long ass period of time even if your giving it your all, but you gotta keep pushing. Like Edison or whoever made 1000 light bulbs that didn't work, but he kept trying and finally got one that did.

And like it says in Stormys long-ass post... Eckart Tolle, the power of now. Get an audio copy it works wonders.

I feel you man well i have no one to wing because most of my friends are selfish bastards like me i have to do alone which i cant even do openly because i live in a muslim and backward country there is no gaming here if anyone gets caught people beat the hell out of him i know i will be forever a loser i have to rely on porn because i cant get the real flesh i dont have the skills for that so dont lose hope

I feel you. I guess I'm in the same boat. Really hope that things will get better after they've been so bad recently. Completely understand that everything is about mindset and about YOU but honestly sometimes can't understand what's wrong and why things are just not going right. 8 months ago I just started doing pretty well with girls going out on a dates almost every week, having a lot of social contacts, meeting different ppl and more importantly girls. I was about to have my first time with a girl the week before I left to England, unfortunately didn't work this time. And I didn't leave for some busy place like London but a small shit hole in the middle of nowhere. This really destroyed my social contacts and worse all my contacts with girls. Last 8 months were like hell for me. I hooked up with only 2 girls during this time. Apart from that: no girls, no social contacts, very rarely fun... the place is so small that even if you want to go out and try getting girls sometimes it could be literally impossible due to the fact that there are almost no girls around. So I'm left with the options to find a girl in a club or on the street. I'm going very often clubbing and recently have been talking to at least couple of girls every time I'm in a club. I even pushed myself forward and went straight to one of the nicest girl in the uni and spoke with her. Even though I do everything right (being funny, enjoying my time, acting cool, etc) something doesn't work at the end. Last week I left a club with 2 phones. Waited a couple of days before texting them. The texts were funny and cocky related with the conversations we had in the club. Guess what? they didnt reply. A couple of months ago a girl in a club was giving extremely obvious IOIs the whole night (looking at me, etc). I went to her asked her to take a picture with her, we hugged I took the picture she was enjoying it apparently, smiling and giving thumbs up. I took her fb of course. I added her and after waiting a couple of days for her to accept my friendship i wrote "its a shame that u dont want me tag you on our nice picture i took this night in the club" or something like that and guess what was her reply? she told me to fuck off....seriously, WTF? I'm really missing the point... why are the girls acting good and giving their phones and fb and then act like I'm trying to rape them... should i review my gaming or just accept thats a part of the female sex being extremely confusing?
Also something else. Being foreign in UK is really the worst thing for your game. English girls just doesn't accept foreign boys. Not even a single sign of interest from an english girl (except from some drunk chicks in clubs.. and what happens is that they usually are attracted physically until they understand that you are foreign..) seriously whats this discrimination? afraid to mix the royal blood or what?

so here I'm sitting here trying to boost my positivism but its really hard when the facts are against everything. really dont know what to do, never felt so lonely in my life....