Introducing

I'm AFC Bacchvs (20yo) and man I'm facing some obstacles on this road. So I hope the leap of faith I'm gonna take is going to be a great ride.

[Day 01]

I just got back from the gym and I've been working out for 2 years now, the results are great so all that is fine. I'm not too buffed, just plain healthy.

My problems are overcoming my insecureness and start to think positive about myself. Tomorrow I'm facing quite the challenge, a girlfriend of mine is trowing a party. She hasn't seen me for weeks and there a lot of girls coming to this party.

I really wan't to show her I've changed and I hope I'll achieve that by doing things like ESP or 5 Question game. I hope you guys can give me some tips to really feel present on this party and maybe meet some interesting new people.

Things I've come up with so far:
- ESP like The Cube
- 5 question game
- Storytelling (don't know what yet)
- Basically listening to Isley Brothers - Shout and Matthew Wilder - Break My Stride before hand

[Day 2]

Didn't do much today, after dinner I'm heading out to gym. After that I'm going to hit the party, boy I'm pretty nervous.

But thanks to Stabilo.Boss I'm definitely going to do the Chicken Phone joke.. Furthermore I changed my hair, grew somewhat of a simple beard and I'm gonna wear jewelery. These should show I'm on my way to a new person.

Update

Just got back from the gym, Damn I was insecure about my new hairstyle..

Goals for Party:
- Meet at least 2 new people.
- Do at least 2 games to fix the attention (hard one for me). check
- Start a conversation with one of the parents. check

Update

Just got back from the party, man in some ways i booked success but in other ways I've failed.

I picked up another girlfriend of mine, who wasn't in the mood for anything I had noticed. She is a 9 but I know her for 2 years now (yep I always pussy out with her).. A well we reached the party and the SPAM was great. I hadn't really had a good talk with her parents before and I started something simple about the cake being great and some small talk about presents. But it was really high value in my opinion.

Next up came sitting at the table, seeing these other relatives freaked me out, what should I do introduce myself to all of them?? I didn't.. Heck they were going after 20 minutes. I sat down with the other youths and I did the "Drawing of a chicken - phone joke" with the birthday girl. -> problem was when I was talking I could hear the stutter in my voice. The attention was fixed on me. Two girls really laughed and the little brother was impressed (this guy really helped me out) when I picked up the paper and said "hello".
[you can find this joke on youtube and at stabilo.boss' post]
But then some girl who had a swollen face because of an allergic reaction took the attention, I didn't mind though. Later i did the 5 question game and the Coin through the table trick.

I was gaining my calm back( man why was I shaking and why was there a crack in my voice). After a while her mom came and offer me a mix (pasoa with orange juice) so I started a conversation about liquor that way I included a guy who was talking about JD on the rocks.

I really noticed how more attracted I was to the sister of the birthday girl. But I didn't gave her any attention. Because I used to give her a lot. At the end of the party I purposely forgot to say goodbye to her XD and she yelled as I was walking home:"Goodbye Bacchvs!" I yelled back:"Goodbye ****". I felt okay about that minor win

[Day 4]

I'm now omw to the city to buy clothes with my wing. We're in the train and on the Berry.

Goals:
Greet 5 different people.
Open 2 different girls.
Have a conversation with 1 girl.

Goals:
Greet 5 different people. check
Open 2 different girls. opened one
Have a conversation with 1 girl. check

I had a conversation with a girl who works at the Chasin store, she was the typical hyperactive shop-attended. But hey she helped me out with trying some blouses. And it was ok I think...

I greeted 5 different people and that went well and all, I don't think that's my biggest problem. I mean I work at the post office on Saturday. On the street you greet people regularly.

The big problem for me was opening in the middle of a mall or shopping street where there are so many people. I have to accept and learn not to fear a bit of attention...

[Day 5]

Yesterday with hit one of the bars in the city. My wing brought a friend of his with him and we didn't want to share anything about the Game, since this guy was pretty confident. I saw him as major competition, but in the train I began to like this guy much more.


At the bar
As we entered the bar I heard Linkin Park - In the end, man I love that song. That resulted in some energy.. But after an hour I didn't approached anyone. Suddenly two girls walked towards us and we recognized them from last week. They shouted and hugged us --> man we were gaining attention! I did some small talk and I hovered towards the DJ to request a song.

I saw a nice set of three girls. I approached horse whisperer style
Me: Darn it, I have literally requested this song for like five times and they still haven't played. What am I supposed to do?
HB8: *smiles* I don't know.. What song are you after?
Me: Well Isley Brothers - Shout.
HB8: What?!
Me: (I had to repeat louder, goddamn loud music) The Isley Brothers! Shout!
HB8: Never heard of it!
HB9: *who was leaning in a bit* I have heard of it!
Me: Well this is a girl, that I can communicate with!
HB6: *was dancing mainly because she couldn't hear me*
Me: Well time to request it for the sixth time...
HB8 and 9: Well good luck! *they gave me the thumbs up*

So i drew a smiley or two on the piece of paper and wrote Isley Brothers - shout pls pls pls. And I returned to the HB9.

Me: Will this help any?
HB9: Yeah.
Me: Well okay, If they play it I will return to you..

DAMN!!! Now why did I ended it right there hell... I really need help on that sort of thing. Cat string theory is what I should have used.

At the club

[Day 7]

On my way to school. I still have to update Day 5 at the club but it will be done in the afternoon. I have only one class today and I am visiting the school -psychologist, because of my social anxiety and pale expressions.. and what not..

I'll keep you updated

good on ya mate,
maybe should have said

"if they play it, you have to dance with me" or some variant of that. as if you simply expected it, not a request

Thanks I haven't thought about it that way. I am not a good dancer but there are some moves I know who might kick in a laugh *cough* Lawnmower *cough*.
But this is much appreciated, thanks.

dancing can be a good ice-breaker, it could benefit you to take some classes but thats not necessary.

keep up the journal i love them =)

[Day 8]

This day is great, everything is right so far. I did my extreme best during the classes and I actually enjoyed school and the interaction between me and my fellow students. Normally this isn't the case (they are much older then me and mostly girls, so you know my sticking ).
Yesterday I had a great talk with the school psychologist and she is planning me for individual training and group training. This will help me with being more secure, more assertive and direct.

Although I didn't really set out goals for today, someone or something wanted to test me . Cause when I entered the train I saw this girl who used to be in my class. I hadn't seen her in 3 years and I remember her as the annoying little girl who sometimes made fun of me, but there sat a gorgeous HB8. Whatta ya know, I didn't hesitated since she also noticed me and I sat down opposite of her. I opened with It's been a long time. During the conversation/ interview (we had a lot of catching up to do) I saw her really checking me out and smiling a lot. Maybe we both noticed how much we have matured and changed. I gave her smiles back and didn't want to lose the eye contact we had. The only wicked thing is she has a boyfriend and they are together for 2 years now (though she did not mentioned it during our conversation). She told me also she really wants to travel the world but felt stuck to her education and fears she might never accomplish it. I told her she was young and she definitely has to go for it. Don't lose track of your dreams, we walked towards another platform and took both different directions. Then parted..

Update
This evening I'll be roller-blading, the weather is perfect. And I'll be getting a new haircut. Furthermore I want to thank everybody who reads into this and everybody who share there stories and give feedback. I always re-read my posts and try to work on my English.

[Day 9]

So today I don't have school, but this doesn't mean I can spent this day chilling in the sun or behind the computer. There are things I plan to do. First a note to myself.

* note *
I have this girlfriend that I'm stuck in the friend-zone with. I read this article about getting out of the f- zone and I see it as somewhat of a challenge to apply this theory into practice. Basically it advices me to put my contact with her to a halt. It's been a week since a have spoken to her (last time was on the birthday party [Day 2] I believe). And I am wondering what I should do when she contacts me via MSN or Phone?

Furthermore I am going to work on Inner Game today, school and sport.

New Goal
- I can get my girlfriend out of the friend- zone, within a month.

Minor Goal
- I can kiss my girlfriend with whom I'm in the friend- zone with, within three weeks.

How to accomplish?
- Read the article again about getting out of the friend- zone and apply theory into practice.
- Read other forum posts about it.
- Ask for advice about it.

Update

I did some meditation today via Youtube and I did some tapping Inner Game. If there are more things I should try please feel free to tell. I really enjoyed meditating much, I totally lost my feelings and stress in it and I did it for only ten minutes. I can really recommend this!

New Goal
- Meditate every day for twenty minutes.

[Day fucking 10]

I've had it... My cousin (yea people) my own fucking cousin got away with the girl I was friend zoned with. THIS WAS THE FREAKING PHONE CALL FROM FAITH SAYING YOU'RE INEPT, YOU SUCK BACCHVS GO CRAWL IN A FUCKING HOLE AND DIE HORRIBLY!! BASICALLY SHE FUCKING CALLED ME UP FOR AN APPROVAL THOUGH SHE DIDN'T ASKED IT DIRECTLY... I don't know anymore, this was maybe deep from within the girl I was after... I'm gonna listen Lord of the Rings Soundtrack and sit outside...

Update
Tomorrow I'm going on a suicide quest, talk to at least 10 HB's on school.

Don't they say what only hurts you will make you stronger, read through your entire post liked it I've only just started haven't even read through the game yet but, the whole game thing is the most interesting thing I have ever came across.

You're right Red, I have to deal with this shit. Leave it behind me start fresh and see it as an experience. She will eventually notice how valuable I am. Thank you for reading.

[Day 13]

Okay so basically I haven't been to school Friday I was rotting away inside my room. On the other hand I discovered new music.

Yesterday I went to the casino with my family and a friend and I had to work. Same for today > work. But hey I can finance my new lifestyle in progress.

Okay back to day 13 which is today. I've been reading into 60 Years of Challenge's and man this guy is inspiring. This may as well be a goal I'll set out for tomorrow on my school. It's maybe something I'll try on an HB9 in my class. It's nice to be in a class with only one other guy. It's something I have to be opportunistic about. Tomorrow is going to be epic field report day I'll start of fresh and try new things. I kinda suck at day game and it has to improve.

[Day 17]

So I'm back after 4 days of negative ville. Listening to Keane right now so you might know where I'm at. What did I do these last days I hear you wonder. Well I began talking to this girl (HB9) in my class and worked some "60 years of challenge" on her.

In class last Monday

*the class was over en she was walking towards me (I was sitting near the door, so no way she could escape me )*

Me: Hey ****, do you know which subject they gave me for Casemanagement?
*I was keeping eye contact and I stared with my dark green eyes in her sweet blue eyes, I felt really good and this helped me a lot*

HB9: Well, I'm not sure. **** and **** haven't filled me up yet. And they're not here right now.

*She was standing in the doorway*

Me: I see, well do you know when we will be starting this case which the client put us up with. ( I made like a jesus christ expression on purpose since this was only a simulation case (if that makes sense)).

HB9: *Laughing* Hey but **** and **** will be here this afternoon.

Me: You're honestly think I am going to that lecture.

HB9: *Laughing*

Me: But hey you have to go and print stuff right? I won't delay you *giving much stronger eye contact*. Good luck with that and I'll see you Friday!

HB9: Yeah you're right, I'll see you Friday.


Reflect
So this is for me a big step, this girl is an HB9 and I really closed on her a lot seeing her as hostile. But this time I saw that maintaining strong eye contact made her venerable. I had the feeling I was penetrating her defenses.
To be honest I really like her more. It's pretty hard for me to go into routines since I'm bad at day game and I need advice for "the girl in class context".

P.S. I bought a notebook so that I can write things down as I am out there.