For almost my entire life I went from one LTR to another. I spent my life jealous of other men and carefully protecting what was mine for fear of having it taken. My confidence was low and my self respect was suspect. I clung to forced values like monogamy and carried a general contempt for all things fun.
If you had told me at the time that my entire ego was a fallacy that was built on my inability to be comfortable with women I would have laughed at you. I would have carried myself with a transparent arrogance and looked down at you. You would have seen right through it and recognized me for what I was, an incomplete man.
Fast forward to about 3 months ago. I am doing some research on internet marketing for my company and run into some ads from David D. I am amazed at his ability to apply this principles of internet marketing and salesmanship. His work is so good that I almost... almost buy his stuff. I go on to apply his marketing style to my company and see immediate benefit.
There is already a seed planted in my head though and I can't get rid of it. I google PUA and find this forum. I purchase a copy of Mystery Method for kindle and read it cover to cover in one night. Two seasons of The Pickup Artist were over in a flash. I immediately start putting it into practice and within weeks I have completely lost my AA and view of socialization. Hungry for more knowledge I post on here daily and buy everything recommended to me. An entire new language and set of respected mentors are created in a matter of weeks.
I meet another Newbie PUA in my area. We go out sarging and even though we aren't very good it's more fun than I can imagine. My career is taking off beyond my dreams because of my new found confidence and self respect. I finally feel like I am living the life I want and that it's worth it to make it happen. For the first time in years I jump out of bed to make sure I'm a dime before I leave the house.
Along the way there are some negative consequences as well. I am feeling more disconnected from my old friends. The common bond we had was fear and desperation and as mine is fading then relationships fade as well. I try to bring them in the loop but like so many other things they just need to feel the urge themselves. Some follow my lead and we grow together while the rest fade back.
Fast forward to last night. I'm sitting in the champagne lounge of the strip club. I have half a grand of singles and I'm not letting go of a dollar unless it's earned. All the girls keep coming over but it's not for me. They are all eyeballing my new #1 girl who I lovingly named "Dime Piece", giving her free dances and ignoring me because they didn't want to offend her. She starts buying me dances from the girls and we are having a blast. I find a piece of myself that I didn't know existed on a leather couch on my first visit to a strip club.
If you would have told me a year ago that I would be in a strip club hanging out with girls hotter than any of the strippers, that I would be driving a girls suv back to her house, getting road head, and having passionate sex all night I would have laughed at you. I would have carried myself with a transparent arrogance and looked down at you. I would have been missing out.

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You can't forget about me, stupid. Everywhere I go ima have my own theme music.

Welcome to the true life! But keep making reality-checks, and make sure that all the great carefree sex isn't just compensation for lack of happiness other places in your life.

You should enjoy the ride! But keep notice to when a girl actually touches your heart, and don't simply categorize it as oneitis and run away scared

Well here is my payment for living life too well. I have always used protection but tomorrow I have a doc appointment where I will undoubtedly be diagnosed with genital herpes... a little mad but I guess now I just have to adjust my game... totally party pooper.

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You can't forget about me, stupid. Everywhere I go ima have my own theme music.

Don't think this is the end of the world. Things are going well for you careerwise. And you accepted that you may be diagnosed with genital herpes.

There is something they used to advertise called Valtrex, that was supposed to help with genital herpes. Whatever your physician says will be what goes. You can still have a very good sex life. It will just be a more careful one.

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"You can't win, but there are alternatives to fighting." - Obi Wan Kenobi, Star Wars

Thanks bro. I actually went to the doc and she said it certainly is not genital herpes. Apparently rigorous friction with a ladies who shave can do some irritation to the follicle. haha i lucked out man. I thought for sure I caught that shit. phew, for a while I kept saying "pimping is certainly easy" now I get why it isn't.

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You can't forget about me, stupid. Everywhere I go ima have my own theme music.