this is my first post on this site. I really hope to continue posting on this site. I've posted on a few other sites but then I stopped after a month or so after real brutal crash & burns or an LTR.

Not matter how bad I fuck up, or how many missed opportunities I make I want to document them the best I can & get to where I was at 2 years ago then surpass it & never stop then transform into Hugh Hefner but with a guitar:) (I remember running a huge 17 set & going on dates week after week learning & getting one step closer to f-closing. Then I went into a 2 year LTR & forgot most of the techniques & personality traits I integrated into my life. slowly I mutated back into a slimy average frustrated chump again. I also hope to help someone out every time I post a field report.
NOT MATTER WHAT I HAVE TO STICK TO IT THIS TIME!

I've been listening to a shit ton of the Harbingers free podcasts that are pretty good btw. but I went out tonight to watch a cover band play & What's interesting about this cover band is that the lead singer owns the place & he's having me play there next week with my band. Not only am I stressed out that my bands not going to be able to fill 2 hours because of how inexperienced my bassist & drummer are, i'm starting to get one-itis for this girl who is in another band that came to see the show & it's really pissing me off.

Here's the dilemma with the girl, to me she's the hottest girl I've ever seen in the area where I live. I did open mic last week and the whole audience clapped extremely loud when I was done. She went up and sang a love song & she looked at me 85% of the time she was singing it. I go up & talk to her when she's done & 20 seconds in... she runs up to some much older relative looking guy about 8 feet away, hugs him like crazy and starts talking him up. SO I leave to preserve my value. The girl seems totally into me but every time I start talking to her, she runs away & it pisses me off so much. the past 3 months, every time I find a hot chick some bizarre thing happens & I lose the set.

around 3 months ago I was at a party & I was gaming this pretty cute brunette, kino escalating, isolated & just about to make out, then all of a sudden out of know where this girl cock blocks me so hard & takes my girl by the arm & runs away with her. I was trying to game the cock block way earlier & my one wing at the time thought it would be fun to not tell me that the cockblock was a lesbian. Well he is not my wing any more but man, I feel like I've been extremely cursed lately. I kind of don't even want to go out of my house anymore, hopefully I have the strength to get my ass out of bed tomorrow & sarge.

Good post.

It happened to me also that I reverted to AFC'ish after getting into a 2-year LTR.

As of late,I got my mojo back(lol).

Good to know that you listen to AJ & Jordan Harbinger's pick up podcasts interviews.

I've been downloading their free podcasts for years now.

Lol,I feel your pain.

Lately,I've been flaked on like there's no tomorrow.

Every girl I meet turns out to be a flake.

But damn,you have the potential of being a social-rockstar since you're a band member.

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I understand how you must feel . . . I'm also going through this 'pain period' myself. I can't consistently close, but it happens once in a while.

You are the one deciding how you feel. You gotta keep that motivation up all the time! Remember that everytime you fail, you're a step closer to success. That's the honest truth. Experience is what makes you good.

I suggest you work on changing your mindset into something more positive. You're here for a reason. And every rejection reminds you of that.

The more you stay in the house, the harder it's gonna get to actually get your ass out of bed and go out sarging.

Maybe this challenge is something you should go for? valentines-day-field-report-challenge-vt85125.html

Start TOMORROW and keep up the pace. Either you're in this, or you're not. There is no in-between.

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I really appreciate your posts & positive words K-lok & Little Panda. Part of me getting into a negative mindset has a lot to do with the person who I live with (very negative Person) MY MOM DLV lol....

I remember my last LTR was so hard to keep a relationship after 2 years. Then we broke up cause my mom was such a bitch & her parents where getting a divorce & there was so much stress on us.

i need to find a way to escape from this house it's like being stuck in a pit of mud that goes down 100 ft. with a your favorite material items and no girls. What I mean by this is my mom helps me out hardcore with my Music Equipment, but right after she buys the stuff for me she starts Bitching, sometimes for 4 hours straight & it sounds like nails on chalkboard. look i'm pretty damn young. I'm 20 but that doesn't give her the right to give me a bed time when I make sure I don't bother her when she's sleeping.

I remember David Deangelo saying that you can have all the Game in the world but if you surround yourself by negative people, you start to act like them. & living with my dad isn't much better.A Very stubborn, prejudice, man who has told me my whole life only fit looking guys with lots of money get girls.

I might be able to promote the shit out my next show next week so I can have enough money to rent an apartment. & i'm fucking scared as hell hoping that my band mates are ready, & hoping atleast 1/3 of the people i'm giving fliers to show up.

Good post to initiate yourself into the forums. I definitely feel bad for the situations that you mentioned. I will say though, I too think that your situations were bizarre and coincidental. I just have never delt with situations like that on a common basis, and never back to back. Go and give it another go, maybe try girls from a different mold of friends. Good Luck!

Will do psychx, I really appreciate the positive feedback coming from everyone. This gets me into a better state by having these kind of people on here, I like that this translates full circle as well.

I never thought of going out just to pick up with out them turning into girlfriends either. I remember dating a few girls at one time a few years go. But it would be different to go out just to pick up with no multiple LTRs. Theoretically that would improve all stages of the game faster with no LTRs. but i'm not sure if that's the route I want to go. I appreciate all the options, so far this forum is very awesome with a lot of positive feedback:) I'm definitely going to keep posting on here.

I understand part of your problem is your mom...
This would be the most weird advice you've ever recieved.

Sarge your mom!

Dont judge quickly, let me explain... Ususally moms are very appehensive and tend to be too controlling. But they have a thing for you.

Instead of arguing with her, start adopting tactics as you would do in the field.
If she screams at you or if she's mad, is a shit test.
If she has a closed body language, open her up and build comfort asking personal questions, she will appreciate.
Compliments her earings, her glasses, her new jacket, her shoes.
If she says "you have to get back by midnight", look ino her eyes, lean into her, open body language, touch her shoulder and say "Come on, ma. I love you! Let me have some fun today!"

Her heart will melt and she will let you do ANYTHING you want.
Satisfaction guaranteed.

I experimented this myself and also a friend of mine. His mom was actually AWARE that he was just playing with her and he didnt care about the shoes or the purse or whatever, and the statements were kind of fake. But she LOVED the attentions so much, she didnt care it was fake!

LOL

I know I'm bumping a really old thread here, but I just wanted to say, "there really is 'truth' in this post."