So where to start, I’ve been doing pick up now for years I’m actually quite good at picking up women I desire. I’ve learnt so much about this art of meeting and picking up women but now I have the woman I’m learning many new ways on how to better myself. I’ve heard many success stories of PUA actually help their personal life so what I’m saying personally I’m in a dark place I’m turning 20 in February and I have no carer and my goal I have seems too far out of reach. I can’t drive due to having hardly any money and the only thing that makes me happy now is getting drunk on the weekend and spending time with this girl I’m seeing so I base my whole life on both of them it sucks and I’m getting rather worried about my life I woke up this morning and I felt empty no idea why just felt really down.

I’m in a dark place right now and nothing seems to be helping me I’m not looking for sympathy I’m looking for people that’s been or is in my situation and their doing something about it because honestly I have no idea what to do or where to start. This may sound stupid but I have this strange feeling I’m meant for something better than this. I just really need to hear from some people like me I want to feel normal because all my friends are on track with their carer and goals. You might think why not ask them for help but honestly I’m too embarrassed to tell anyone so now the only time I go out is to do my football training, getting drunk on the weekend or going to see this girl, or looking for work but I don’t want to go from job to job I want a carer something I can be proud of. Well thanks for reading will be great to read comments of people.

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The Edge... there is no honest way to explain it because the only people who really know where it is are the ones who have gone over.

First off, are you spending money to get drunk? Cut that shit out right now. That is an expensive habit. I'm old, I don't really have a career, but I know exactly how you feel. I felt like there wasn't a place for me in this world. I wasn't living up to my purpose. I know now that my purpose is to make art and enhance the lives of the people I meet by giving their lives color and excitement with my personality. I can't say what's going to work best for you, making a list of your options, keeping track of your monthly expenses, or just making a CONCRETE plan for your future. Either way, you have options, you can become a useful cog in the machine. Stop feeling sorry for yourself and doing the same shit every week, it's WEAK.

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31 and still figuring it out.

Well said! Do something about it, make a small change and see the difference.

How about taking up a course or something? It'll put you in a new/different social environment too, keep your brain going good.

There must be something you love to do, start working towards that.

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Been there, done it, oh and still doing it!

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