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My day normally begins with me waking up. Then I sit in front of the computer until I feel like I'm about to pass out. The only time I would ever get off the comp is if someone else needs it or if my mom gives me a job to do. most of the time I do a half ass or just don't do it at all. -.- The only time I would really leave the house is if I HAD to. Like if my friends were getting into a fight or my sister was doing something retarded but other than that I was always home. and ummm this has been going on for about 3years.

I did try to fix myself a few times, but nothing would really stick. Sooner or later I would fall back into this hole. times when I was really gonna focus and step up my games lasted about 3days tops. I can only remember one time when I really felt like i made improvement. I went on a trip with my church and found god. When i came back I felt refreshed and actually started to hang out with my friends again. before this trip I felt uncomfortable even around people I knew for years... some my best friends. Some how I instantly was able to control the set just like I was able to do before this change. the problem is I couldn't maintain this. after about 2 weeks I was back to the norm.

I'm putting my self out there in hopes that someone will be able to help me. cause honestly I don't know where else to turn. most of my friend and family have given up on helping me. I'm tried of living the same day over and over. I want change it just that I don't know how to do it. or I don't know how to stop falling back into this pattern. Please if ya have any advice for me or wanna talk to please repond to this post, send me a PM, hit me up on AIM (cabuss555), or Email me (caudnaispro@hotmail.com, Cabuss555@msn.com). thanks if I get any type of reply.

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"more coversations = more interactions = more confidence = better game"

-The Wonderful Ming

sounds like you're suffering from anxiety, depression and possibly ADD the only real advice seeing that you've been in this state for over 3 years would be to go see a psychiatrist as soon as possible. Even if you don't have health insurance you're probably going to be eligible for state assistance. Good luck and keep us posted.

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a good plan today is better than a perfect plan tomorrow

Get a baseball bat and smash that computer to Hell!

lol I thought about it but that's a HUGE waste of money. and I wont be able to talk to u guys <3. and to f0nx I actually saw one for a while but it got to the point that we would say the same stuff every time we met. I figured out that he was just waiting for me to figure out what to do but the problem was that if I knew what to do I wouldn't be seeing him...

Some guy told me working out and eating right will work wonder for me so imma do that

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"more coversations = more interactions = more confidence = better game"

-The Wonderful Ming

get a job.

Did your therapist(s) mention anything about Social Phobia or Social Anxiety Disorder? If that's what your problem is I might be able to help you out.