So heres the deal. This is almost more of a field report but its about relationships so Im posting it here. I just graduated from high school. I went to a pretty small school and I dont know how the hell i never met my GF until senior year. But damn as soon as we met we really hit it off. Basically, I fell in love in a matter of days(say what you want but it does happen) and I still feel the way I did then. She was in a relationship for a year and a half previously which gave me a lot of resistance because she didnt want to start something that was going to have to end after summer. Very understandable but at the same time, I could care less about how I was going to feel then, instead I wanted to let this get as deep as it could, no limits. I have created an extremely strong bond with her and she truly is my best friend besides my sister. I talked to her about everything. Her dad went through two separate cancers in a matter of three months and I was with her every step of the way. I am VERY close with her immediate family (her dad will call me up and have me come over and help me with things without going through her) and I view her little sister as my little sister. This is not some summer fling, its a real possibility at something lifelong, which is where the confusion comes. We have always talked about how we are each others best friends and no matter what happens with our relationship, we want to be friends till the day we die. We wernt officially dating untill about three months ago but weve been together for seven months. We became official because we talked about it and decided we were going to stay together when she left for college (she decided to go to a school 2 hours away so it was possible). Thinking back I shouldnt have pushed for a relationship because its not about the title anyway and it caused some turbulence down the road.

Theres the background, now heres where I am now. We got into some bullshit fight because I want to start working now and travel with no intention of going to college (bold move but I have plans) She has been taught that you need college so she was trying to get me to reconsider. I saw it as her not being supportive but she was just trying to help. Anyway she got mad at me which she had no reason to and basically i laughed at her for being mad and said if she wanted to be mad then go ahead, and I left. After this, I didnt call her for three days and when I did she was more upset than I imagined. She came over and told me that before she met me she wanted to go into college single. So i asked, you want to break up? and she said no. this left me pretty confused. We basically just blew it off and went back to being us. It came up again and I had time to think about it so we had a good talk. We agreed that its not a good idea to try to make it work and have it end poorly so we would be single. Now were single but still in love so we kept hanging out and enjoying the time we had together. In my eyes I couldnt have played this better. She was happy i understood her and we were still close and kissing and all that. She was goin away for the weekend and wanted me to come hang with her before she left. We were on her bed kissing and I could feel her started to get horny but resisting it. I asked what was wrong and she said she was confused. We just broke up but literally nothing changed. She seemed really upset so I told her that being in a relationship means more than the title to me. I want to keep in contact with her and come visit her and this and that, but i respect that she wants the freedom while shes meeting all these new people. Im completely confident she wont find someone like me in college so I said if she wants to hook up with someone that I dont care. She was really upset but agreed to an open relationship. I left but I knew that it wasnt goin to work. She came back that sunday night and I didnt talk to her until tuesday because we were goin to a baseball game on wednesday and i wasnt about to miss that. We went to the game, I didnt treat her like my GF (kissing holding hands this and that) I was probably the loudest one in our section, talking shit to the other team just cracking jokes and having fun and I could really feel her attraction. We went back to her house, she cooked me dinner and me her and her sister watched a movie. She fell asleep and I woke her up and said I was leaving. We hugged goodbye and I didnt talk to her for three more days. To be honest, this was a sort of test for me. I wanted to see if I didnt talk to her, if she would talk to me. She gives me massive IOIs when were together but will never call or text me first. So i just said whatever. I saw her at a party three nights after the game. She got there after me and walked downstairs to see me behind the bar making drinks for some girls, laughing having fun, just being the life of the party. Two girls asked me if I wanted to go away for the weekend with them, both of whom Ive been gaming for a while but Ive had a gf so we were just friends. I really didnt want to go with them but I was like yeaaa! thatd be sickkk! but really like whatever. So towards the end of the party, she pulled me aside and was really upset and we talked. I was really drunk so Im not sure what was said but I remember talking it through and kissing her( just once) at some point. My ride was leaving so I had to go. I looked in her eyes said I really gotta go but well finish talking about this gave her a peck and was gone in a flash. She texted me later about some bullshit she heard about me talking shit about her bellybutton piercing that she just got and i didnt even respond. I texted her in the morning like Idk who told you that but i could care less..lets finish talking. She was upset and I didnt talk to her that day. The next morning i called her. She answered and was like i gotta get in the shower bye and hungup. I was pissed and texted her telling her to call me back when she had a minute cuz i wanted to talk. She texted me back saying she didnt associate her self with people who wanted to get with *kelsey* one of the girls who asked me to go away for the weekend. I guess she saw some facebook message I sent her saying heyy im gonna have to take a rain check on the trip but were still on for surfing when your back she doesnt like this girl for some reason and i knew that but idk she wanted to be single so shes gonna have to witness a lot of that.

Anyyywayyyy I didnt think this would be that long so for those of you that have stuck though this is where it stands. I still love her because I always will and I KNOW that but she is acting extremely immature about this whole thing. She couldnt even talk on the phone and had to resort to texting. We had some stupid argument over texting and she was trying to turn it on me saying if you want to end all we had over this then your loss. when i was the one who wanted to talk in person like a mature adult. I sent her one last text after many sayin the same thing: when your ready to talk let me know and we can handle this in person. I havent heard from her in two days, she leaves in about 12 and Im curious what your guys comments are. I plan on holding out until she contacts me, whether it be before she leaves(i would prefer this) or thanksgiving when shes home. Either way, Im very confident in the security of the relationship I have set up and I know she wont be able to live her life without talking to me every again

It's a long story for someone to read before he goes to bed.
A lot of irrelevant little things,please make it shorter next time. There is no confusion,she doesn't feel the same way about you You try to make the relationship work,you had to push it(i don't blame you),you initiate contact always and you write on forums.I doubt it was all as good as you describe it,maybe just apparently.Isn't what i have to say obvious ? So was I You made a decision,there is no reason to argue this with her if you don't want to.Upset ? I doubt she cared so much about you,that she was upset because of your future education.She was upset about how you handled the conflict itself.
When she told you that she wanted to be single,that's Red Alert,usually you can already pack your bags.Or you can drag her like a zombie couple more months let's say.You can shift a lot of shit,but neither you or her are going to change instantly,so it's not worth it. You had a lot of choice,did you ? How happy were you ? If you still kissed+were so good friends,why didn't she want a relationship ? Nothing looks odd,had it not ring a bell at that time?Or do you take any shit she says for granted ?
You cannot understand her at this point,because she doesn't know what she wants.Her feelings are changing like the wind.If you went to fuck another girl next day,she won't smile back to you.
Look,my personal advice,is don't talk to her for couple of months.After feelings go away just keep her as a friend,if you really want to.You will never fix this like you want

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Yea well this aggressive style will go away as i grow older.However if the guy's here to learn he'll take it constructive,no worry.

YungHoudini,

Besides the massive paragraphs I really enjoyed reading the story. I also would enjoy hearing possibly through a PM your plans instead of going to college.

Back to the problem.

At this point if she calls or doesn't call you back everything is incredibly unstable between you two. It might be different if she wasn't about to leave for college. But, in college she is about to experience a completely different world. A world full of excitement and mystery.

When she's not in her classes or studying she'll be hanging out with new people(guys and girls) and the last thing she will want to be doing is dealing with old drama back home 2 hours away.

But, before you quit listening I believe you still have a chance to make this girl yours.

I want to hear more about your "plan". But, your going to have to do something drastic with your life. If your wanting to travel, you need to travel. Like not to another state either.

To another country if possible. By means of Green Peace or whatever way you can get over there.

Learn new skills, hobbies, make new friends, and etc. Basically change everything up.

I know this sounds extreme. But, truthfully if your back in some small town doing small town things your going to be old news after that 1st year of college. Actually, you will probably won't even be relevant at the rate your going.

Give her up for 6 months. Write her a long letter thanking her for all of the memories and later down the road blah blah blah. And then do your own thing.

She'll be back for Christmas break from college. Come back as a man and much more mature than before. Then start the texting/calling again if possible.

Good luck man.