| Well, as you may have seen in another thread, I recently moved next door to this chick, not even sure you could call her an "HB".. Body wise she's an 8, face wise, i'd say 7, any who..
I've never really had a girlfriend, never got physical with a girl for that matter, then I get placed in this position, and its fucking with my life.
This chick is 19, and I'm 15, me and her get along pretty great, I basically know she's not into me, yet I still treat every little thing like it's a sign that she likes me, when I'm just being foolish... I know this and yet it still happens.
I find myself thinking about her constantly, and as pathetic as it sounds, I've dreamed about her.
She's not really hot, she had fucked up teeth, and short hair, but something has me attracted to her, maybe the fact that she's the first girl I've really been cool with? so I've attached myself in some way?
I would like to just be friend with her, because I know if I tell her how I feel, then the friend ship might end.
I know she doesn't feel the same way, but I want to ask her, I only don't ask because I know if she says she doesn't like me, I'll feel crushed.
I've told myself countless times to just count her out, as there are other girls that check me out, that I could be approaching, but thinking about her prevents me.
The furthest I've gotten to keeping myself from "needing" her, is not text her, but a lot of the time I end up doing that..
I don't want to completely cut her off, as she is a good friend, and we really do get along, but I can't really go on checking her out every second, and thinking about her in a non-friendly way, while still being friends.
I also found out her dad thinks we'd make a good couple... The other night he approached me and asked me if I liked her.. I said no.
She has already basically said she's not into me, without actually saying it directly, so I keep seeing every little thing as a hint that she likes me, when in reality she doesn't.
She even said there was a potential guy for her, when I ask her about him I don't get much, which has made me think it's me... But then I step back and tell myself that's not possible, which is true.
I don't want to fuck shit up, since we do live next door, and our parents are good friends.
I just don't know what to do at this point.
I actually did something I like would never do, and read her texts?... Which is totally crazy of me, but hey, she handed me the phone, not really my fault.
There was a guy, basically expressing how much he loves her, in text.. She didn't reply much, but I didn't read her replies either..
I doubt she's into him, but it doesn't matter.
I'm thinking I should just ask her how she feels, and if she says she isn't into me, then I can finally let go, and just tell her I feel the same way.
Because I know I shouldn't like this chick, she isn't my type AT ALL, yet why do I keep constantly thinking of her, it's just shitty as can be.
Even whilst sitting here typing up this thread, I'm thinking "Is it possible she likes me?" But I myself know that it isn't possible, but I can't make myself believe it.
What the hell do I do?..
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