...

Pulled myself back a bit, and took a deep breathe.

I lost myself for a second. I know why I get mad.

I'm scared to be sexually assertive with a girl. Whenever they say "no", I listen to them. I don't push.

...I don't have the confidence to be confident with girls. I take their "token rejections" seriously, and don't know the difference.

I know now...other guys simply just ignore her when she says "no, don't...", and keep going WITH THE VIBE until she gives in.

I get scared. I'm not ballsy enough to close the deal and pull the trigger.



...I lack inner game. I either have it or I do. If I did a self-appraisal of my own inner game, from 0% to 100%, I'd say I'm at 65-70%. But, that doesn't matter.

I either have inner game, or NOT have inner game.

As of now, I do NOT have inner game (yet).

I acknowledge that I attributed my lack of inner game to my previous understanding that only assholes push past a girl's defenses to fuck her. Truth is, she wants it, even if she says she doesn't.

Even my brother said the same thing, and told me "Girls WANT you to grab them, and slam them against the wall, BUT, ONLY AS LONG as the situation is appropriate. Anything else is statutory rape".

I am missing something. When I find that something, I will be one step closer to winning. As of now, I am not; I must become.

I dig that. .

Well, even though, as we speak, I myself do not identify as a "PUA", but rather a man trying to become THE man, Planning is planning, and we'll plan.


This is where I was before I joined, as a person:
-KNEW everything about getting girls through "mentors", friends, and the brother.
-Somewhat believed in myself, but lacked awareness of other aspects meant to get me what I want.
-Master of intellect. I always strive to learn more, but I can narrow down a good majority of life's workings to it's root, and relate on many levels.
-Outward appearance of a Wall Street Tycoon, and an in-progress inner frame of a Wall Street Tycoon.



This is where I am now:
-I can talk to any girl I want, no problem.
-I know how to vibe well, and know what is appropriate, when.
-I can set the tone.
-The most I can pull is a date, then maybe a kiss.


My current disadvantages:
-Scared to pull the trigger with girls.
-Afraid to confront AMOGs; I'm not scared of THEM persay, but the only mode of retribution I know is of the fist; I struggle with comebacks (2 reasons; I'm a nice person at heart, and I've never really practiced making fun or instigating others).
-I get really mad; I start wishing violence on others, when in reality, I'm refusing to solve an internal problem.



What I can work on right now:
-Develop a frame: "Rune" as an Alpha male. I am "Rune", but, am I the alpha? How can Rune be "Alpha Rune", while still being "Rune"?
-Stop giving a shit about other people's lives; they don't care about mine (Well, maybe they do, but they have to do them first).
-Even if I don't HAVE the physical, I must assume, by attitude, that I have it. I must brainwash and lie to myself to generate the outward attitude that will make me win.
-Do what works.
-Acknowledge that it is the dominant force that wins, BUT, dominance is relative to the individual. "Be Dominant Rune". He is Dominant him. She is dominant her. BUT, if you want something, you must be more dominant than that something. If you want someone to shine, make THEM dominant, while being more dominant that others. Dominance isn't about competition, it's about being in the frame to generate results so EVERYONE, even recessives, can win.
-Stop wishing violence on dominant people. You want dominance, be dominant. As Antithesis said, nature has it's way of dealing with sociopaths, and likewise, nature rewards those who promote it's law.

Do and get
Do NOT, and get NOT.




Summary:

Back then, I was 50% alpha
Before I typed this, I was 65-70% alpha

After I typed this, I realized I can CHOOSE my percentage of Alpha. I can be 100%, or NOT 100%.

I already knew this, but I didn't feel it; I didn't live it. What held me back was my fear of being dominant with women. It's not about being a dick; it's about being you; the ALPHA YOU. That is all there is.

It's what made all the men in history famous. ALPHA THEM. They did them, dominantly. They were right, others are NOT right when it comes to them.


So, what is the direction now?
It's a 3-part path; one part must be complete before the next part

1)Acknowledge and make the decision to LIVE ALPHA, FOREVER, TILL DEATH. No excuses

2)Make being alpha a habit. When you feel like saying "no", do it anyway. Keep doing it until it's as routine as eating food, or pissing.

3)Once I'm alpha by nature, I will start making moves. After all, I am the dominant force. I will be a winner.



So, become alpha, internalize alpha, go about life as ALPHA.
(Alpha must stem from Rune).

How's that plan sound?
(And thanks for the time Hobbit. Much appreciated)

No, I caught it.

Ironically, moments after I replied, It hit me.

Simply be Rune.
And stop "thinking".

You can be you.
But be 100% you.

Yeah, this thread, on my part, was a waste.

I actually just went into work today, not caring about past or future, and just did whatever the moment required of Rune.

2 girls flirted with me, I escalated the situation, the girl at work I liked got jealous, went over to my area, and, out of nowhere, started fixing my shirts with this emotional fervor. When she left, I called her name. She looked. I said "Thank you", then looked away, because that's what I felt at the moment. She smiled, then looked away and went home.

As of now, that doens't matter. The mere fact I posted this thread was a sign of weakness.








The above of what I just said is useless. Right now is what matters, and right now is me being Rune, and I, Rune, deem my own ranting of PERCEIVED struggle pure bullshit, and I'm about to go to the gym in two minutes.


...I no longer wish to give up, nor do I wish to hurt others, nor do I wish anything. I am here. Who shows up in my life is who shows up in my life. Others told me this; I ignored.

Today, I listen. It worked. It will keep working.
The end.

(Thank you Hobbit)

In the Words of Alfred Adler

"It is the individual who is not interested in his fellow men who has the greatest difficulties in life and provides the greatest injury to others. It is from among such individuals that all human failures spring."

Just take your time bro, just remember its not your fault man.

heres a few quick tips

#1 - you cannot control people, whether you like it or not people have free will. You can scare or persuade people into doing what you want but ultimately it is up to them.

Personally i want to know ASAP if a girl is a twat or not, why waste more time and investment into something that is bound to fail?


#2 - no risk, no reward. if it was easy, everyone would be doing it

#3 - pickup isnt just about pickup, its about becoming a better person, enjoying yourself and having fun. You are taking the right steps on working on your inner game but don't blame the world for things you cant control.


to about the nervousness of approach, try to do it within 3 seconds (3 second rule) the longer you wait to approach; the worst your anxiety gets. After all, what's the worst that you could happen? If you accept the very worst that could happen - as it has - anything else is a win.

Keep plowing, believe me; we ALL have our peaks and valleys


=)

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no risk, no reward

Ive heard that you shouldnt compliment a woman, but i have a problem with that. I talked to a girl online and she said she fell for her ex because he said all the right things.( probably complimented her?). This guy on montel williams show who slept with many girls told the audience " just tell girls what they wanna hear and they will fall for it" (possibly compliments?) Ohter tv shows i ve heard the male characters say make a women feel special( wouldnt that mean using compliments of some sort?)

So what gives? Need help in california, thanks.

2 possibilities:

1- The OP (original poster) trolled everyone
2-dude's fucking bi-polar

Either way, crazy post is crazy

Nah, I'm not bi-polar, thank god.

It was Me vs. Me.


I won.

I have not failed, I've just found 10,000 ways that won't work. Thomas Edison