as i started gaming i was open and new to it all. i am starting to realize how open everyone is to meeting someone new. there is nothing bad about it. when it comes to opening it is really just nothing the more you do it.

right now i only have a problem keeping the conversation going but im getting better.

now i have been practicing mm2 and what ever i seem to find on the forum. i am trying to get a feel of everything but i baleave i am getting it down. approching is easy, i can get to A2 fast but i keep forgeting about getting her to qualify herself to me.

i am able to talk for a little bit but i cant really keep it going for to long. i need help with the proccess of A3 and am trying to get to comfurt after that. i know i can do the cube after bouncing after A3 then there is the sence of connection. then there is just playing babysitter for a little while. you know it isnt that hard not that i type it out.

i need to biuld the balls to kiss close mroe often and look for the right time to kiss. i think ill start working on that soon.

i realized i am at peace in the arms of a women. i took a picture earlyer today with one and she was smilling and if you looked at me, you could see i was at peace with myself. i was smilling warmly and i actually did feel at peace when we took the picture.

well that is all thats on my mind right now peace.

update

it is alright to drop the pua stuff for a while but it kills. i have been neglecting to keep ym inner self in check. i need to and want to come out of my shell. i see times when i could be socializing and "fluffing" but i dont. for the past month i am quite. i have good responses to those that i talk to. i am able to have a good 2-3 miniute talk but it never goes the way i want it to. i have dropped the ball on pua right now because my life is catching up.

school is going back in order. i am catching up.

when i see a chance to have a conversation i always stay quite. i have yet to learn waht to say in some situations and i know i am willing to learn and at the same time i feel myself coming out.

i am not alone, i need to learn to tool people in pick up. i can aproch now. i know that.

i have finaly figured out what that agrenalin feeling means to me.

it is an exciting feeling. it gives me butterflies, and i feel lighter. i see it as a test or nature. the feeling is produced becuase you are jumping out of a confurt zone, i mean leaping out, and hoping nothin negative happenes. it conflices with the self you are, and threatens who you are at the core. the true you.

the feeling is then adressed and aside an emotion. you can assosiate it with any feeling but most common is fear or anxiaty.


i am getting bord bye.