I got my girl back, until i fucked up again. I started acting like an asshole one night, she didn't react until she got on msn and started telling me that she hates me etc... I started arguing back and negging her, not calling her. Then i started apologizing, and she made it really hard on me. I'd like to tell you guys that i have a mental disorder that hinders me from interpreting social cues properly, and i get highly oversensitive with people i'm close too, which makes it all the more difficult for me. Anyways, she calls me one day all flirty as if nothing happened, and wanted to c me, but i ignored her. I Showed her dissinterest. I think i apologized too much, and she started having a lack of respect towards me. So i tried reversing it, by calling her one night while i was drunk to tease her. My plan succeeded since she sent me a msg : u call me to tell me u're drunk, how inconsiderate, good night. So I call her back, telling her that i called her bcoz i missed her, why else would i do this in a middle of a party ( in a dissapointed voice)..she started asking for forgiveness, and was about to cry and shit. Then i felt she wanted to c me, but i bailed and told her i wanna sleep i'm tired.
Finally the next day, i call her up, she told me we should have seen each other ysterday. We planned on seeing each other at night. I c her on msn, and she starts giving me crap about how she's going through a rough time, and that she's uncomfortable around me and she needs a friend right now more then a bf and that she feels lonely, since she can't talk to me about it bcoz i'm her bf ( most probably crap).
Anyways i made her feel guilty in a respectful manner. I told her basically that i hate her for doing this on msn after all i did for her, and asked her many times if she wanted to be friends (coz her friend told me she told her this), and she kept saying she wants to b with me. She sends a msg on facebook as an apology, telling me that it was wrong of her. That she has feelings for me and that i mean to her alot, but that she doesn't have enough feelings to make things better between us..and she doesn't want me to say that i don't want to do this anymore, and tells me that she's gonna miss me.
I ignore, she tries calling the next day, i close in her face. Then basically, i say its over, she says she doesn't care its not over, and that now she knows that either i wanna be with her or not so i don't love her, and if i loved her i would have been more understanding. So i tell her that i'm sick of her on and off games, and its not bout bein with her but bcoz she dragged me through all this although i put her on the spot many times. So i'm shutting her down bcoz i need to move on in my life.
I used the love word here as a last resort thing to escape the friend zone..I think it had a positive effect, but now that i think of it, it wasn't the best approach.
Basically, the next day, i msg her that i'm call her in the afternoon and that i don't want any fuckin drama anymore or some other stupid stuff she does. She tells me she's so happy that i'm gonna call her, and that she thought i was never gonna speak to her again (bad bad sicne she didn't do anything about it).
I call her, tell her that what i'm gonna say requires me to put my pride on the side after all that happened, and i told her my feelings for her. Then i asked for an explanation of her part bcoz i want closure if she wants me to respect her...so she tells me that sometimes she felt it, sometimes she didn't...but she said that its not the end. So i told her that maybe u need some time to figure out your feelings and i can understand this. We started talking about something else, told her i'm going out with my ex tonight ( true) and she told me that its gonna hurt her if something happens bcoz she has feelings for me. Well, i tell her that we're not together, but that my heart goes for her. Two days later, i get a msg from her at 3:30 am, that she can't sleep, and she's asking me what i'm doing..then she tried calling, then another message telling me what she's gonna do through the day etc...
The next day, I just sent a normal message...tease her a bit about something she got curious off. I made her wait a bit, and called her..we talked formally, and she asked me what was I doing last night, I told her she asks to many questions. Her response was that she was worried about me. I think she was freakin out about me having sex with my ex. The conversation went smoothly..and thats it. Not talking to her or anything..i'm gonna ignore her and forget about her..I started flirting with a chick who's been posting on my walla alot, i had a threesome with her last year. And tonight i'm going out with her..and i'm gonna get laid, i already know it. Do u guys think i still have a chance with the other girl i told her i love her? She did hint friendship..then backed off, then hinted it again. Etc... But she hasn't been acting like a friend really...i have though, being cold, firendly on the phone, etc...
Its either:" She's figuring out if i'm the right guy...starting to miss me, doesn't want to lose me and the love word struck her"..or she just wants attention. Which i told her clearly..I didn't act desperate at all after the fight..that's all i know.