I'm not sure if this is the right place to post this but I was driving down the road the other day thinking, and when I'm driving is when I get some of my best thinking done.

I was thinking about PU and I got to thinking,

"God damn, what am I doing? This is wrong, somehow, I'm doing this wrong. It should not be this hard... It's not this hard. This game is supposed to be a natural flowing thing." Then I got to thinking,

"Why is it not natural to me? By all reasons it should be; if it's hardwired into animals, then it's hardwired into me. Society has just messed me up so much that I have suppressed my natural instinct, urges, understanding, and seductive abilities."

"And while I'm at it, what do I really - I mean, really - want? What do I want in women, in my career, in my friends, in everything? This is something else that I've learned to suppress and ignore." To be honest, I'm still working on this one.

I know what I want to do though, I want to take a good long break from PU, from school, work, from everything, and go on a spiritual journey and rediscover who I am, what I want, my sensual nature, and I'm convinced that when I get back I will be much more natural at this and at life in general.

What kind of spiritual journey? I'm thinking one where I go off into a forest or the desert, do some peyote, meditation and some real soul searching as well as contemplation about what life is to me, what it means, and what I want out of it.

Anyway, I feel like I'm running stream of consciousness now, so I'm going to go and do this and after I have I'll let you guys know how it went.

- TD out

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This is something I think we all need. Good luck brother and let us know how it went.


Peace

Yea..I hear ya..

I had the same problem myself. I didnt knew who I was anymore, what do I want out of my life.. How do I want my life to look like etc..

I took a break, two weeks break and found that I know who I am, but Im not giving myself permission to be that guy because I was affraid of what "others" would react.

And the reality is, when you give yourself the permission to be the man that you want to be, everybody else treats you differently. Only you get more responsibility.

So solitude is the answer. Go and explore whats out there.

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Whew, well, I'm not finished with my hiatus from PU but I just wanted to drop in and give everyone a one week update. But first things first. I broadened the scope of my hiatus to: doing the opposite of what I normally do, with the exception of PU, from which I'm abstaining. So that means, little to no TV or books - especially anything about PU, with the exception of Ross Jeffries' "Fear into Charisma" which I just got sunday.

Here's the thing, the first few days weren't really all that special or anything; I didn't have any epiphanies or such. I just spent them meditating and chilling.

So Thursday morning me and my buddy drove to Oklahoma for a fight (we're fighters), but the fight was canceled so we couldn't go to the Skynyrd concert so fucking a girl I met at the concert was out, then we left friday morning so meeting and fucking a ring girl was out, we passed through Austin and my bud called a girl he knew and asked her if she had a friend who wanted to hang out with me while they, uhm, you know... she said she'd see what she could do, but didn't call him back until we had given up and already got back to San Antonio; so fucking a stripper was now out. That's right, her friend was a stripper. I face-palmed when I heard that; I was like, "hey, it's only like an hour drive to Austin, you know? Let's go..." but we didn't, we just went to our usual friday night restaurant/hang out.

Saturday we went to Hooters and all the girls were dressed up cause of Halloween, and my brother embarrassed my friend by asking the waitress to take a picture with my friend. It was classic. My bud taught my brother that payback is a bitch and then they both practically tripped over each other to embarrass me with one of the waitresses. Now, there was this one waitress in there who caught my eye ever since I walked in, so I let them know it. As soon as she walked by again both of them said, practically in unison,

Guys: "Excuse me, would you mind taking a picture with this guy here?" (pointing at me)
HB: (looks at me and asks me) "Is it your birthday?"
My buddy: "No, he just thinks you're like the most beautiful girl in here."

She kind of lit up at this, and it was true, I did think that. And she had the most beautiful eyes I think I have ever seen. Anyway, she throws both her arms around me and holds me close. Which surprised me, my brother, and my buddy because their waitresses only did the like half/arm around the shoulder pose, but I returned the embrace.

You know those moments in your life that seem to last forever, and seem surreal? That was one of them. After the picture, and as she walked away she kind of lightly and slowly dragged her hand across my back. Intriguing, no? Anywho, I'm going back and going to game her as soon as possible. Cause I'm pretty sure she already wants me.

Lastly, today I notice that I'm moving differently. More confidently. I'm catching girls checking me out, I'm smiling/grinning at them, and I'm fighting to keep myself from approaching because, I really deeply want to approach them. Here's the thing I've been leading up to: it felt natural to approach and flirt, and get her number, then fuck her this weekend, if not lead her to the bathroom and hike up her skirt and fuck her right there.

Something in the past week has changed me I think. I don't remember what it felt like to be shy or timid, helpless and lost, unattractive and repulsive.

I'm now outgoing and bold, I know exactly what I'm doing and where I am, I know exactly just by looking at a girl, what she wants and what I should do to approach her, I know that I'm attractive and irresistible to women.

I really wish I could explain everything better, but it's not a conscious thing. I just know that I began to strip away everything I thought I knew and believed about PU/seduction/dating and now I just instinctively understand.

We're all naturals, we just know too much.

Sorry it was such a long post, but it's been a long week, haha. Talk to you guys again next week.

- TD out

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Alright, guys I'm back.

Not much has happened since last week so this will be short and sweet. I realized some great things about PU, and to be honest, it's amazingly simple, I don't know how to explain it really. PU is just giving a name to what we naturally do, and the routines and whatnot are just something to fill in the gaps when our brain stalls and we don't know what to say or do.

Well, that's it I guess,

- TD out

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Send me a brunette,
Send a blonde to me.
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