| This is an incredibly long post so I'll understand if no one reads this haha.
Well guys, I think I'm experiencing the negative side of the game. It's obviously no one else's fault but my own... but I feel the need to rant and get this off of my chest. Maybe some of you have experienced this as well... What am talking about right now? I'm talking about greed. You get a taste of success and you want more... so much more that you do what it takes to get more and you become ignorant of other's feelings.
Here is my story:
I met a really cool girl at the beginning of this college semester and we hit things off right away. After meeting her at a party, we hung out a few times after that and before I knew it, we were sexual involved. She developed feelings for me, but I was not looking for anything serious and I made the mistake of not making that clear and in the end I kept leading her on.
I threw a house party at my place about two weeks ago and she was there. We'll call her "GirlA" from now on. Some other friends showed up later on and brought some girls with them. There was a girl in that group that we will call GirlB. GirlB and I have hung out a few times with everyone and I've always flirted around with her but nothing serious because she was "my roommate's girl" even though they just recently met.
As the night progressed, I was casually flirting with both girls and eventually GirlB asked me to be her beer pong partner. We started playing 'distractions' where you try to 'distract' the other team by doing raunchy things with your partner. Things started heating up and we won the game. The other team left the table and no one else was in the room. We started going at it in the kitchen and mid-makeout GirlA AND my roommate walk in at the same time.
GirlA storms out of the house calling me every name under the sun and her friends start bitching at me. My roommate walks out of the room and confronts me about it later that night about how he was a little upset.
I admit I felt bad about it, but as a single guy in college, I tend to party and go with the flow. My roommate and I were cool shortly after that night and GirlA's friend told me to call GirlA in the morning. I did and we talked on the phone a bit and got on good terms. We started hooking up again and things were fine.
A week later we have another party but this time only GirlB is there. She comes onto me again, and being the prick I am, I let in once again despite what happened before. I ended up F-closing her that night. It was my roommate's birthday too by the way (not that I needed to look like more of an ass) and afterwards she said she wanted to be fuckbuddies. Girls tend to talk and GirlA found out. Well let's say she won't speak to me anymore.
Oh, it gets worse on my part...
I have a third roommate who was not involved in any of that until now. He also had a girl he was "talking" to until last night. You guessed it, my fault again. We all went to a house party last night and mid-way through the night, my third roommate's girl pulls me aside. We talked for a good while about her situation with guys and granted I had no interest in that or her - she was just giving me beers that she had in her purse to listen to her rant. We were now isolated and on the side of the house sitting on a hill. She tells me she is done with my roommate right now because she just became single and wants to have fun. Things start getting touchy and flirty. Before I know it, we are making out.
Up to this point, my first roommate does not know I banged the girl he likes and my second roommate has no proof of last night and she keeps denying it.
So in a matter of three weeks, I lost a girl that liked me and it wrecked her. I banged my one roommate's girl on his birthday and then I hooked up with the other roommate's girl last night.
I also have two girls who want me to call them to hang out soon, and quite frankly, I feel stressed the fuck out. I got greedy and I had my way despite it hurting other people... not just other people but the friends that are closest to me. I plan on talking to both of them about it tomorrow.
I have a devil and an angel on my shoulders right now. the devil is saying, "Hell man, it's college. You're single, all the girls you hooked up with were single, so there is no problem and who ever cares should suck it up." The angel is saying, "Tell your boys what's good and tell the girls you don't want to continue hooking up." I know what I should do, but I mean there is no actual "dibs rule" and if no one has commitments and everyone is single, then why complain over unreciprocated emotions between parties.
Sorry for the novel, guys, I just have a lot on my mind and I needed to let it out. To make this on topic, my sticking point is that I don't know when enough is enough. It should be obvious but when you're in the moment, sometimes you just go with it.
Has anyone here ever experienced anything like this? I'm tempted to just calm down for a bit and see if things will just die and blow over and never have to bring it up, but I know that's not right.
I want to apologize winning the biggest asshole award, I really do. I sincerely hope no one here losses any respect for me. I have an idea on how to handle it, but I just wanted to see if anyone has ever had anything like this happen before and to see what they did.
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