Dear all,
I have had a couple of drinks already and looking back on what I want to be and what I want to do. I have tried to sarge a girl this night which haven't gone well. I know that I have could done a lot better, but I will talk more about it later in this post.

First, read this post (Not nescessary for the story though):
field-report-a-night-out-number-and-kis ... 46417.html

I texted that girl (Thanks for your input Walt!) and she said something like "Ohh, I am sorry. I have been really busy as a I have been travelling around Sweden!" bla. bla.

I have texted this girl a couple of SMS:es and I need to make a move by phone or SMS soon but enough about that.

Now let's go down to my life changing descision. My friend have just had his birthday and he is having a little party and it was mostly guys but a couple of girls and I was talking and hitting on one of these girls. At first, she didn't say anything to me but for some reason we got into our jobs and noticed that we had pretty much in common so and dialog was opened.

The opened was not that hard because it is a home party and you introduce yourself to eachother but when the conversation envolved she talked a lot and I didn't say much and when it was my time to speak or she looked for confirmation I was like "Mmm", "Yeah, of course!" and "Yeah, I agree ..." She lead the whole dialog.

My friend started to hit on this girl at the sametime and I felt "Fuck, I am so pissed!" and I was pissed. I was pissed at this girl and my friend. The little game which I know was so affected of my anger instead of picking her up more.

However, I didn't gave up but when I was in the group I didn't talk to her much nor confrontated her. When she was out smoking I went out and talked to her but didn't through her any negs which was so wrong. I just demonstrated that she had higher value, sent IOI etc. but not approved my self.

As mentioned earlier, I am still a newbie in the PUA community, but the thing is that I think of all the things I do but I do not approve them (maybe very little) and now that my eyes are open I see so much issues in my game that I can't improve so the anger really lies there instead.

Alright, I will keep it short and this is probably not an FR (or a really bad one) but it is time for me to make up my mind:
* Envlovle your game you whoss!

Thanks for your time!

/Restared