| Okay guys, here’s the story. (sorry for the long post)
Ever since joining the community I had my first major breakthrough this weekend. My first official kiss close since having pickup knowledge.
I drove up to the boulevard were she lives and joined her in a classy club on the beach. She is this 38 years old HB 8, and has this stylish natural self-secure beauty.
She invited me after meeting her in Amsterdam on Queensday (national holiday) two days earlier. The evening was like a dream: she was really kino-hungry on the meet up already, she immediately took me to her own seduction location in the back of the club at the bar. I thought to myself: “this is it! I’m gonna kiss close” and that was my mission for the night. That was all I came for.
Strange thing is she told me that her mother was very ill and would probably die that next day. I asked her why she had insisted on the date, (since we both already knew this on Thursday) but she told me not to ask, her eyes turning watery. She used the age issue (I’m 26) on me like a major shit-test. To pass, I told her that I was not there to ask her to marry me, but just for a nice night out with her. After I passed, it got really intense: K-close which must have lasted about 45 minutes. We were actually scaring people in our vicinity away by making out.
The emotional connection that took place, was just too much for me! I never felt so connected to someone, especially not just after an hour of being together. Every routine I did worked, everything she commented about me boosted my ego and confidence. It was great! I know Mystery once said that a women needs at least 7 hours of social interaction with a man before going to bed with him: I started my date at 22:00 hours and was in her apartment by 01:00 and at 1:30 she was ready to go!
In the apartment things got more romantic, she put on some spiritual music and we made out for another hour. I didn’t want to turn this in to a one night stand, also because I was bothered by her motives (the next morning she would have to get up early to take care of her mom WTF?). I also didn’t wanna drive back home so we agreed on me sleeping over and I told her:
Buccaneer: I would love to stay, but I don’t think having sex is a good idea
HB 8: hmmmm, I’m going to cuddle you to death then.
Perhaps you guys think this is lame, but my feelings were racing, I never felt so much love pumping through my brain. I was afraid that I either could not perform due to the stress that I was under, or that sex would be the least fun part and would give a bad taste to the night after all.
The following morning she had to leave early because of her mother and she left me alone in her majestic apartment overlooking the ocean. I left her a note with a poem and that was that.
Last monday I received the following SMS:
Hi Buccaneer, thanks for your note, very sweet of you. Tomorrow 12:00 a clock wil be the final hour(her meaning her mother being put "to sleep")…on Liberation day (fifth of may is the day we celebrate Hollands liberation from nazi-Germany) . Bizarre. I will contact you, but only when I’m feeling ready for it. I will definitely not forget you. Big kiss
Now you’re probably wondering: WTF is the point? You had your successful night, you won’t see her or speak to her in at least a month or two. Use the experience and move on up that ladder!!!
Well, that’s exactly what I wanna do, but she’s in my head. I’m going to sarging anyway, but I feel there is no one out there who can touch my soul in the same manner. But the main problem is I just can’t sleep, eat or concentrate at work. This sucks! Am I in love? Are there PUA’s out there that have had the same experience? And what can be done? I just want to keep functioning normally!
Thanks in advance guys. And thanks for those who have already helped me with this breakthrough. You guys are the best!
Buccaneer
Last edited by Buccaneer on Wed May 06, 2009 1:52 pm, edited 2 times in total.
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