Hello everyone this is my first post.

I figured I'd tell you a little about myself:

I'm 17 years old. Junior class. Never Kissed a girl,been on date etc. Just to tell how my social status is at school, I haven't eaten in the cafeteria since my freshmen year (we have outside picnic table as another choice, but I never had the balls to eat outside or in.) Up until recently, I just ate in the library out of everyone's view.

Between 15-16 I struggled with what I think is Borderline Personality Disorder. I'd cry my eyes one minute the next I want t kill everyone in my school. I was smart enough to thing deeply about all this and got a little better but became more cynical because of it.

Just when things were looking bad, I saw the first season of a little show called VH1's The Pick Up Artist.javascript:emoticon(':shock:') After thinking this was too good to be true, I discovered the society of Pick Up Artists.

I read everything I could find. Through file sharing I downloaded and read everything from The Game to Double your Dating. After that I knew this was the answer I was looking for.Since then I hardly approached any girls, but my understanding of them grew and so did my confidence. After a couple of months of on-again off-again intrest I came back full time.

But now As I write this my Spring Break has started and have no idea what to do.

My plans so far are these:

Next Friday on the week I get back to school I have a field trip to Discovery Place for Chemistry class (our class isn't "Advanced Science" so I'm in with C+ Students). The surprising thing is I have three VERY attractive girls in my class (ones a 9.5 the other two are solid 8s). Two of them are with the "Popular Clique" and don't talk to anyone else. Partly because the class majority is dimwitted black students with a couple of whites. My Goal is to open the popular HB9 on the field trip. I feel good about this since we have never formally met and there won't be a large amount of people there that would make nervous in front of her.

The Reasons why I write all these things is because:

(1) Writing this provides me with somewhat a kind of therapy. I have never told anyone these things and even as I write this I feel so much happier for letting it all out.

(2) Now I have to approach her because posting this gives me an obligation to do it (Its helps me stop being a procrastinator). And next Friday I will give a full report on what happens.

If you read this entire post thank you. Writing this has helped me greatly.

Comment are greatly appreciated.


---- Michael (Mr. Clockwork)

well pua is an answer to many things as it is too many before you, and yeah writing really helps get things out so continue writing, and ofcourse make sure you have fun, your missing the point if you take lifes social interaction too serious, good luck

With this stuff I'm always having fun. But one of my problems before was that I took stuff TOO seriously and I just needed to lighten up......

Good luck man!

It's good your starting to figure things out in high school; I didn't start figuring it out until freshman year of college.

Dude! Good to know your better! Keep it up bro.

good luck man howd it go wheres your report?

Are u sure your ready for this? if i was you i would just hit on the girls in the mall or someplace so i can better my social skills plus it wouldnt matter if you got rejected because your not going to see them again. By the sounds of it it looks like you have no social skills at all since u hang out in the library all the time. If i was u i wouldnt game that girl in your class just yet because your suicidal what if she rejects u or something, i dont know if youll get deppressed and suicidal again or learn from it but if you really want to game her i suggest you get some experience before u do it, just so u dont go killing yourself bro.

Its always great to hear of people overcoming something as debilitating as depression. If you feel you have the confidence to go for the good looking girl in your class by all means give it a shot. Remember that the less focused on the outcome of the interaction and the more you focused on the actual situation the more your confidence grows and the less effected you are.

One thing i might mention, because i faced severe major depression and understand the process. Not saying you are, but make sure your confidence is in yourself, as a person, not in the community and the idea of the abilities is has. If your confidence is only focused on the community as a distraction, the moment hope is gone, you will fall even harder then before.

Depression is a stepping stone process to overcome, and myself, i would distract the real issues with other stimulus, when those did not work, i would crash and feel even more worthless. Something to keep in mind.

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"The greatest mistake you can make in life is to be continually fearing you will make one."

outcome?