OK you know what man. I'm proud of you.
Coming here today and telling us what you did takes guts and you've taken the first steps down a long road to success.
Nobody is laughing at you for crying. I once cried when someone called me pizza face because I had spots. We all go through shit and we all come out on the other side.
Write this in your phone:
I am a sexy, attractive and interesting person. People like me and want to be around me. I am a socially fearless cool, calm and confident man.
This is called an affirmation and if you memorise it and repeat it to yourself often - particularly before sets you will feel your confidence start to grow in leaps and bounds. If you don't believe me, just try saying the opposite and saying that you're shit and you'll never get anywhere. Believe in yourself and you'll succeed.
Go and read the WYWH opener in my field report and try using it. Also, work on your peacocking and body language. Simple examples - when you're holding your glass of beer, chances are you're gripping it in a fist in front of you. Instead of that try holding it down by your side lightly from the rim (practice with a cup in your room - seriously!) or, rest the beer on a surface, your elbow also resting on the bar (etc), lean comfortably and survey the environment with your hand loosely around your glass.
Think about each part of your body individually for now. Reposition your head to feel relaxed, then your shoulders, arms, legs etc. When you feel relaxed you'll look relaxed. When you look relaxed, you'll appear confident.
Good luck my friend and keep on gamin'
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