| Ok so where to begin.
3 months ago I ended a 3 year LTR. This was because there was an imbalance in the relationship that would never correct itself.
I think we were both dominant people so we clashed alot and there was a very firey and volitile element to our relationship, so I got out.
The plan was to stay single, pick back up on my PUA game and adapt back into the dating game 3 years after I left it.
Then I met Jade.......
I walked into our local bowling alley with a friend of mine, we intended to have a few frames of pool then head off to a near by bar and club etc, standard boys procedure.
When I went to take a pool table I saw this girl, looked into her eyes and though to myself she is probably one of the most beautiful women Ive ever seen.
We preceed to chat and flirt and I escalate kino with the old, let me teach u how to hold the pool cue trick. We ended up inviting her and her friend with us to the bars etc.
I spent the night dancing, flirting and kissing etc. After this we met again for a day2, which went really well. I couldnt get the girl out of my head, and before I even knew what is was, I started to develop severe oneitis.
We dated several nights a week, chatting inane bullshit and telling our life stories highs and lows. Things were good, infact too good. I started to get cold feet, I worried that these feelings I was starting to feel were just displacement from my prior relationship. I was feeling very AFC and I thought I had just invested my emotions into the first half decent girl to catch my eye.
Things started getting a little heavy for both of us and we freaked out, we had both only recently become single and this was both of our 1st attempts back into the world of relationships. I could tell that she wasnt overly comfortable around me and was a bit edgy whenever I expressed some sort of emotion, basically I did every AFC thing wrong possible and drove a wedge between us by doing it.
I called a meet to basically put forward the motion of steping back from being a couple and just being more casual and seeing other people etc. She seemed happy with this and so for the next 2 1/2 months I would take myself to the top of my game, if you've read my blog then you will know that I have been living the PUA life to the maximum.
Maybe a month ago I receive an email from Jade telling me that she is worried she is pregnant and shes sure that if she is its mine, she then goes on to explain that yes shes been with other guys but since me she enforced condoms and moved onto the pill. I know the girl pretty well and she isnt the broody type to try and trap a man with that, after all we both wanted to be single and sleep about a bit.
Now that moment is the moment every guy dreads, and u know what, I didnt. I thought to myself how great it would be to be able to secure Jade back into a LTR, actually start a family with her and properly share my life. Id slept with about 10 girls since her (the cure for oneitis) and I was still thinking about her, not only that but I was seriously contemplating the possibility of us having a family together as a good idea. This was an odd experience, I had been in the potential pregnancy situation before with an ex-LTR and I was scared shitless of being stuck with the girl forever and her being the mother of my child.
Jade and I spoke and I expressed that if she was to be pregnant and baring my child I would be around to look after the kid and asked her if that was the case then would she get back together with me. She said that she was so glad that if she was pregnant it was mine because she did genuinely like me etc. Ok so for now we can pinch of salt this, but I believed the girl and I have no reason to not believe her.
I went out 2 weekends ago to the town where Jade lives for my mates birthday, alot of us went out and we partied and ended up in a nice superclub. Low and behold who do I bump into, none other than Jade. She see's me, I see her and my heart melts. We chat and I tell her to come to our VIP booth in a bit. She does, we danced, we kissed, I get lapdances and we generally had a great time. And now I cant stop thinking about her lol.
Cue this weekend, I probably had the ultimate PUA's weekend, I slept with my first stripper, I managed to get a girl into my bed by telling her I was going to get her into my bed as a chat up line, I got me and my wing invited out with 100 girls to go raving and generally I spent the bank holiday weekend in the constant company of beautiful women. But I was still thinking bout Jade. So monday comes and I decide as its a bank holiday and I have no work, Id drop her a txt seeing if she fancied coming to my new flat to check it out. She instantly replied yes and she would be in my town in an hour.
We went for a drink and up until this point we had never really been on our own together since we were a couple, we had chatted via phone, txt and email but no face to face other than bumpin into her a couple of weeks prior. Now heres the weird part, she came to mine, we layed in bed, we kissed, we cuddled, we did all the things couples do, we talked bout the potential pregnancy and she explained why she was worried but also why it appealed as well. I think she was thinking the same thing I did, well if I am pregnant at least its someone decents.
So the evening draws to a close and I really have had an amazing time, Ive had sex with 10 women at least since her and we didnt have sex that night, and you know what, I enjoyed this night with her more than all 10 of those lays. Seriously!!! So I text her, just saying that Ive had a really great night and that I cant get her out of my head.
She txts when she got home saying that since she saw me a couple of weeks ago and especially after tonight etc she cant get me out of her head and she didnt realise how much she genuinely missed me.
I suggest that maybe we meet up in a couple of days, have a sit down, thrash out what went wrong the 1st time round etc and maybe plot out a viable way for us to be together.
Now heres where I know, and when I mean I know I mean I know as a PUA, as a man, as a human being, as a mere mortal that she is THE ONE.
We went to hers and started talking, I explained the fear that came over me when we realised we were getting in deep, I explained my cold feet, my swift exit and my closed down lines of communication, and you know what, she was going through exactly the same thing. The more we talked the more we realised that since day 1 we have both been in the same place, we both been worrying bout what the other is thinkin when we were both thinking the same thing.
Essentially we agreed the problem was communication, or lack there of. But over the last couple of months while we hadnt been spending time together, we had essentially been opening the lines of communication and building strong bridges to eachother, obviously with the potential to have a child its a good idea to be talking and in contact with the mother. The whole evening was surreal, its like we had jumped back 3 months ago into when the relationship was really great, but instead of being worried about it, we both were enjoying it, we realised how comfortable we were with each other and by seeing other people outside of our relationship we realised that the bonds with these people really drew no comparison to the intense feelings between us.
Fortunatly for us, we have always been on the same level, its just taken us 3 months to get to a point where the communication is good enough for us to realise this. We have both been telling eachother all of our adventures and exploits over the last couple of months, no holds barred and it was fun there was no jealousy or spite just 2 people sharing their stories and taking genuine interest in eachother. I liked hearing about her partying and enjoying herself and she admitted herself the casual sex was fun but like me she was starting to get a bit bored of sex with no emotional attachment. Infact she had started to go off of sex because she wasnt satisfied without this connection.
So we talked of a potential reconcilliation, and decided the only way it would work is slowly but surely. The first step would be to break off the other parties involved with us, I think we had both managed to get about 2/3 regular FB's so we would need to break it to them that we are getting together etc.
Mine actually took it really well, one of them even said she was glad Id found someone special enough to make me happy. Which I thought was kool.
So yeah this is the story of how I went from a total AFC and losing the best girl Ive ever had, to getting her back and being in one of the strongest and happiest relationships of my life.
This is what PUA is all about, how to get the woman you want. Without this community I dont think I would be so emotionally secure and have such belief in myself. I wish all of you the best on your journeys of discovery and just wanted to close this chapter of my book.
I was at the top of my game flying the PUA flag highly, women loved me, men despised me but damn did I do it well. But like every good PUA knows, one day you will meet your match. Ive met mine, her name is Jade and im absofuckinlutely over the moon with how life is heading.
I am still training my wing, still helping on the board and I will still be sarging, I just have no need to #,K of F close these girls, they mean nothing to me compared to the genuine, true and honest relationship Jade and I are developing for ourselves.
Namaste.
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