| Thanks for everyone’s input and Its heartfelt. Its rare that you meet a girl that you truly like, allot of women have allot of potential but to really go to that next phase for me anyway is a big big call! Unfortunately this time I found myself crossing lines I usually would not dare to cross, and let myself feel vulnerable in a situation where I shouldn’t be! I thought about it for a while, I even talked to a girl I met Amy on a date and she gave solid advice!
At one point this one itis was so influential that the dates that I did have with women ended up being therapy sessions and advice meetings, for what Ill do with this Sooz girl. Many of them could not really believe that im talking to them about other women, but they were very helpful and supportive. They didn’t understand how someone like me can get hung up over some random girl that I don’t really even know. Amy would get angry and try to kiss me or get my attention away from her.. mind you Amy is HOT!! so she did, she stole my attention at least for the day or a week, Then the same emotional drama, It screwed with my game to say the least... during this saga, Id go up to a random sets as alawys to meet people, and Id run things and they would work, but deep down it was so incongruent and so fake and ended up taking piece of me away. My body wasn’t agreeing with anything I was doing... and was not giving me any validation but the minor validation id get from simply looking at this girl. Did I loose my mind? How can a woman end up having such a ridicules Impact on me, what irony...
My end conclusion was to let her go. I met this Sooz girl ages ago, and she liked me for a long time, especially when I was first getting into the game, but I made mistakes then which cost me, cost my credibility as a man, things which I now have to spend time to repair. Along time ago I decided that this was not how I will live my life, repairing things with women, running damage control, wasting my time obsessed over someone.
This all started when my game first failed on her and at the time over a year ago, I did not know any other way to communicate, I kept pushing and the set kept burning. Then I had another opportunity as a girl I used to sleep with may have told her how I feel, she was trying to initiate me again I didn’t know what I was doing.. I felt so validated by the other women I was seeing at the time that I thought of Sooz as nothing too special, just some chick I had some crush on. Long story short, I burned it. finally now I know what to do, and every time I start something, she doesn’t respond. She’s just very polite and does everything I tell her, she won’t go into a phase with me.. she will just take my negs, and sit there.. as if she’s in a trance.. I look in her eyes, I try to figure out where she’s at with me, I try to look deep, I move my hands over her waist, I give her the sexxy, the confident, the cool, I kino escalate, I try to stir something up.. I was sure.. she had to feel something for me...and I sub communicated to tell her how I feel.. to generate something in her and see how she feels, I held the moment, as I'm sitting right next to her, acting all confident, and cool..... one, two, three, four, five seconds pass...as we look in eachothers eyes, both of us confident glazing at one another.. she has green eyes.. another few seconds pass and she plays with her hair... but I know....... that there is nothing of actual substance there, my body tells me everything, it never lies. I've lost this set!
I refuse to do damage control. I'm worth allot more as a man then to do recovery bullshit, I AM value. I know that a woman equally as good or better looking will be on a clean sheet with me, and none of my past will be there to interfere... I actually realise this in the moment.. it hurts.. I also realise that any guy can go up to this girl and run the most basic of game and he would have higher buying temperature then me.. a sharp pain hits me...and my eyes go all over the place, they slowley begin to water... and I push her chair away with her on it playfully.. I tell her Ill be back in a sec hon.. In a very confident and content deep voice... I was giving her a hand with some work.. for uni! and I walk out of the room.
My choice was made. I rarely ever loose, my mentality is to always win, my past has thought me I can win any girl, any time, just give me 15 min and shes mine, within a hour I can get this far, within a day even further within two days she’s in love. But in this case.. nope.. nothing to be had.
"if you don't get the girl the first time, and if you choose not to seeze her when you have the moment. Then you will ultimately loose that moment and her along with it".
That’s a rule with any girl anywhere.
Again thanks allot for everyone’s read! good to know I have support behind my back! Subsequently the 3 9’s that I was dating, Amy, Rochelle, Tanja became friends because I told them about this, and they saw in my eyes how much she means to me and how little chance they had. And even if I want to persue something, Its now tainted. Ill be back in the game after I get my head cleaned out. Probably a good week or two brake!
Thanks all!
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" type of thing! I still use some structure, I like to.. I had a wonderful discussion with a friend of mine on here called Rye Lee regarding natural game and structured game. I respect his approach to natural game and I think its great that allot of people are heading into that category, however in my opinion, some structure and some preset things for shits and giggles never hurt anyone! But anyway that’s not what I'm here to discuss.
