| Hey guys, new to the forum.
Pretty tired right now, excuse my crappy writing.
Anyway, didn't really have much to post about until now, and now im posting just because I'm excited.
So heres the story:
I just broke it off with my longest relationship of two years and felt so crappy. I went out to bars and clubs telling myself to meet new people, but every time i went out, I realized I didn't have the courage to approach.
Last week I spent some time finishing up the book The Game. As I was reading it, so many ideas came to my head. I was determined to go out the following weekend and try to see where my game was at.
After a week of telling my buddies what I had planned that weekend, they followed along with it.
Weekend came
We finally get dressed up and got out to a club.
The line was around the building. It was ridiculous, we had signed the guestlist to avoid paying a 20 dollar cover. Not wanting to wait, we decided to get out of the line and try a different club.
What a disaster.
We walk in a lounge a few blocks away from where we were standing in line. The place was EMPTY. Alright, not completely empty, but out of two big rooms there was about a total of 30 people. Over half were guys and the girls that WERE there were surrounded by more guys.
Not an easy approach for some newbies. We each bought a drink and left.
I convinced everyone we should give it one more shot. We went to another club in a town nearby. Got in, it seemed alright, but by then we were all so tired. Basically we failed to approach again.
My weekend sucked so bad until just about an hour ago.
I was so bored all day, didn't feel like doing anything. I picked up a buddy and brought him to my house for a little and we just hung out. I took him home because I wanted to finish up some studying and on the way back to my house, I got pulled over and got a ticket. I was already thinking my weekend was shit and this just made it worse.
I got home, so frustrated, didn't even want to look at my homework. Called another one of my buddies to see if he wanted to hang out. We met up with another buddy of mine and hit a donut shop.
Alright so we're in the donut shop, just talking and a girl comes up and asks if she can sit there because there are no other seats left around.
I saw her bust out a book. It was the same one I was using in one of my classes! I thought to myself, oh crap this is my chance.
My friends and I went out for a cigarette leaving the girl sitting at the table alone.
Crap. I pussed out
One of the buddies that had joined my in the club failure was with me and asked, "ey dare me to talk to her?"
I told him that I wanted to because she had a book blah blah.
Went back inside
I talked to her for a bit, but the conversation died suddenly.
"Damn I failed again," I thought.
I am a pretty shy person and tend to over analyze like crazy.
Anyway, my friends and I left and I talked to my friend jokingly about going back there and trying to talk to her again.
A half hour later I drove back in my donut shop.
I paced around thinking of what to say and checked the window from a distance to see if she was still there.
Shit shes still there. My heart started pumping. I turned around and got in my car.
I literally sat there for hours trying to think of something to say. Alone. I was talking myself out of it, I thought I should ask her something like,
"hey did you see a wallet around here?"
and imagined it being something like her saying "no"
and then asking her if she stole it in a playful voice. and then checking out her book and asking her if she wanted to study some time.
I sat in my car for even longer, thinking and thinking.
Finally I got some spare change to go in and buy some coffee. That way I had a real excuse to go in, rather than some crap lie. Im terrible at lying.
I went in got the coffee and as I was pouring it my hands shook. She was right behind me sitting at a desk studying. I put on the lid to my coffee, walked over and said "still studying?"
she kind of just looked at me with big open eyes.
Oh I forgot to mention that she is an international student and doesnt speak english that well.
Anyway she ended up kind of smiling and said yeah. I was planning to say it more smoothly, but I just blurted out "Do you wanna study with me sometime?"
and she looked confused n didnt know what to say. I busted out a post it note stack and asked for a pen. Wrote down my number and she called it to give me her number. We introduced ourselves. I asked her if she had a test and she said later on in the week. I should have stayed there a little longer and talked to her, but I was so excited I just left.
I was so damn happy i actually came through with this. I know..it wasn't that bad and blah blah, but to me it was a huge step. I almost didnt take it.
Anyway just thought i'd share.
Do you guys think I should actually call her? and if so, when?
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