Hi everyone!

I've been thinking about joining Gold's Gym. I think one thing that will permanently boost my self confidence is getting my muscles big. Of course bitches dig it and less males will challenge you as an AMOG when you appear strong. I've been thinking over my position in society and I realized I needed to get big in order to achieve goals that my ego expects in return for confidence. These goals are looking good. I'm not being cocky or hypocritic, but I'm not a bad looking guy, I'm just always fucking shy and my face sells it lol. I'm not a coward by any means, I'd say I risk a lot and being the skinny fucking guy that I am that's what's making me shy (realizing that I'm not big muscled in almost every situation). I have ambitions stuck in me since elementry school when I remember I AMOGed through grade 3 and enjoyed the shit everyday, then the bigger kids started fighting back lol and I kinda stoped being successful socially in middle school.
I really can't help it but I keep thinking I got this awkward smile on my face and most of the time I don't but everytime I think about it; the awkward smile appears it's like a self fulfilling proficy. I can't concentrate on anything else when this happens and only think about how lame my face expression is and the more I think about it the more obvious it becomes. How can I get rid of this? It's been bugging me for years.

Oh and also the question about Gold's Gym: Does anyone here have a membership or know how it works? I've been working out (mostly push ups for about 6 months now so I think my body is ready). I'm thinking about getting a personal trainer at Gold's because I don't know squat about body building. Well anyway if you guys think I should read/know anything before begining to build muscle let me know I would really appreciate it. I'm mostly interested in arms, chest, stomach in that order.

Thanks for viewing!

P.S. I learned to analyze my problems after getting involved in PUA community and all these PUA recommended books helped, I just don't know how to fight some of them. This awkward smile thing is bothering the shit out of me, shoot anything that you think will help me get rid of it. I've been brainstorming it and I just can't get to the core of what the problem is, it keeps interfering, very very very gay.
I also need permanent motivation and confidence improvement, tips, book references will help.

I'm glad to be a part of this community and thanks for viewing once again!

My other passion in life happens to be bodybuilding. The first thing you need to do is learn about proper diet and supplementation. Then focus on proper lifting form and technique. It sounds simple, but if you really want to get good it will become an obsession. The good part is that, like PUA, it is an obsession with rewards both immediate and long term. I suggest you check out this other site www.bodybuilding.com. They have info on everything you’ll need. They even have their own version of myspace for bodybuilders called bodyspace. Lot of cute girls there, the best of both passions. Good Luck!

first off your smile is never awkward, its the rest of the world that does. The mentality you must have is one of comfort, you must be comfortable with yourself and before being comfortable with anyone else. Muscles do matter but they won't give you what you are looking for. Find your inner peace work on yourself wake up look in the mirror smile laugh and tell yourself you are beautiful on a daily basis just after brushing your teeth for 30 seconds a day. Lemme tell you I don't know you but you are ACE, MONEY, GOLD F***ING BULLION. beauty is in your own perception women perceive you differently when you yourself feel beautiful and love yourself JUST LOVE YOURSELF ENJOY BEING YOU AND THE WORLD IS YOURS TRUST ME

Go to the bodybuilding forums the poster above linked.

Bodybuilding has been the absolute most rewarding thing I've ever done in my life. Really, bodybuilding has given me the confidence to accomplish everything that I've accomplished in my life. It really has.

Now with that said, just having a great body won't cut it. Bodybuilding gave me the CONFIDENCE to pursue and learn about PUA, attraction, etc. But I still had to learn about it.

I'm still on that road. Right now I'm 195lbs with 6% bodyfat. I can't count the number of times this semester I've had girls look at me and giggle to their friends, or people come up and tell me that "so and so thinks you're hot".

But. I'm still single. It's 4am on a thursday night and I'm sittin here on the computer.

Why? Because I have not mastered these subjects yet. So, bodybuilding won't fix all your problems, but combine it with learning about confidence, attraction, etc. and you will be unstoppable.

Thank you my friends!

I'm not advertising this, but will mention it anyway.

There's a program called the Adonis Index which links the two things you are aiming for currently. Both attraction AND body building/exercise. It's based on the Golden Ratio.

http://www.adoniseffect.com/

Whilst not having bought it, applying some of the tips and stuff.. I've noticed a definite improvement, small but noticeable, in my success rate with girls as I get closer to the Index.

Might be worth a look.