Firstly im new here my name is Manic ( from computer game quake3rocketarena3 ANYWAY)

i learnt about the game, after being on an dating site, some guy told me about it, that day my life changed, iv been reading e-book's and video's for the last 1month, iv been been out to a club's over the last month, and one night i sorted my self out, and approached a few girls 8-10 i was quite drunk, i got rejection from all, but still had fun...

Then i went out clubbing the next week, and got a number close, from playing the game - no game she was onto my opioner openr, so i just bailed it with, hey im just asking you a question, if im honest, im the kinda guy who would run you a hot bath, and let you slide in after a hard day at work, and give you a massage, and way i used false time constriant, got a number close in about 2mins, and left, i was on a high, then i managed to open a set of 2 outside when i was having a smoke, i negged her beautifuly (with some home made negs) she was attracted to me, i did the best friend's test, and i heard them whisper to each other, "didnt so other guy say this to us" so i just bailed it with some gernal i can tell the way u talk and giggle and look at each other, then they went and got a drink, and she took my hand, i kino tested by squeezing she squeezed back, i then starting rubbing her hand slowly, and letting my hand loose, she grabbed it, i cant remember what was said, but we hugged then out of no where there was another girl, who took them away, and i just felt like a compelete cunt, like i really did, i never felt so much failure in my life, so i went to the bar, and ordored 4 shots, and 2 pints, lets just say it was a messy night after that

but that isnt what this story it about, its about my self, iv seem to have gotten WORSE than i was, i'm sitting in the club the other night, i now in my head NO ONE CARES, i NOT going to SEE any one here again, and if i do so what? but still im sitting there watned to approach... but i cant iv gone like a fucking quim...

if any one has any idea's what to do, i would really like to hear about it..

Manic.