I hear ya man, I was an AFC for my first two years of high school so I know what it's like. We learn through observing those around us and unfortunatley for us most of the male population is AFCs so most of us don't get a good role model - thanks to the internet however we can easily find some.
I can remember when I started attracting girls interest when I was about 16 and they all finally started moving in on me. The problem was that after a couple of years I found myself bored. I could have any HB10 I wanted because I had unprecidented preselection and social proof and began acting the same way around 1s that I would around 10s and I even questioned whether or not I might be gay. Nothing was a challenge anymore - I could have any woman I wanted and all the women I didn't want (they were hot I was just bored) were trying to hook up with me - I couldn't help it either because it was now natural for me to do things like hold alpha eye contact until a woman looks away so I was naturally making all the right moves. Eventually I found even sex routine and felt like that wasn't enough.
Is it possible in your case that your past experiences with women such as the lack of control, the nutcase women and your lack of total satisfaction with your love and sex life left you with an emotional void and your simply worn out and perhaps a part of you doesn't want to bother trying with more women because you simply don't want to wind up with another nutcase and would rather avoid the risk of that?
- Chris
