| (Sigh.) Fair enough. Still, I'm trying to get looser, and am looking for positive examples. As for your #3 reason, well, I honestly thoght raising tension with just your eyes a good thing, so I suppose the context wasn't the best, but I gues you're saying the situation called for "going under the radar," yes?
As I wrote elsewhere:
I attended a college graduation, and greeted a lot of people, which made sense, under the circumstances, but I really don't know what I'm doing, other than feeling a flow of sorts.
The next day, I was walking in downtown Olympia, and greeting everyone that came near. I saw this attractive young woman coming out of a bar, I saw this a nice opportunity to do this to someone attractive, apply the 3-second rule, said hello, and patted on the shoulder, which I handled awkwardly, and walked on. SHe called after me, asking why I did that, to which I smiled and just said I was being friendly, and walked on. Probably thought me a strange variety of groper in the end, but still she must have been impressed on some level with me, because she wouldn't have reengaged if she just deemed me a simple creep.
It still takes effort to push myself to practice, and frankly, when I do, I keep being afraid I'll get busted by cops, which could be a self-fulfilling prophecy, in my case.
Hey, I'm making effort, but I need to associate with winners, or examples thereof--at least.
I'm now looking into nervous laughter from hired guns, seeing what can be either done to trigger, or exacerbate it, and my big problem seems to to serious, in general when I do try, though...
There was an 8 at the front desk of of the gym I work out at, who seemed to be noticing me to talking to other staffers at the station instead of her, so this was a pretty warm approach, I figured. Before leaving, walked up to her, and referred to her confidently, and playfully, as Jessica, to which she gamely enough replied that her name was Chelsea. Me, I responded (jokingly) that her last name better not be Clinton, or else I'd have to kill her. SHe laughed, but not as much a much as I'd like, and more awkwardly than desired (Democrat, probably). Spent an awkward moment of silence smiling into her polite face, before wussily retreating.
Didn't ask premission, that time, wasn't being a creep, but couldn't keep the conversation going, overthought, and stalled, even if having achieved the objective of inducing laughter. _________________ If you ever get the idea that I'm a crazy contrarian, just get a whiff my blogs:
http://noitartst.com/
&:
http://thevanitymirror.com/
(I think I'm provocative in a good way; see if you concur!)
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