Will being able to pick up women satisfy me?
Hmm, you know that's a tough question. I'll admit that in the moment, it truly is satisfying. The more I work at this, the more I'm starting to understand the PUA paradox... the hole that's never really filled by conquering your fears/whatever with women. The fact that the more women you go through, the more you see they're all the same...and the depression that comes with it.(No, I'm not depressed! And neither should you be!)
I'm becoming a very strong believer that Pick-Up isn't just about filling that hole with women. It's about developing the confidence, character, and way of life that you find satisfying. I said that I'm discovering the PUA paradox to be true...but on the upside, I've never ever felt better about who I am! I once felt that the only thing I couldn't do in life was pick up girls. With the ability to do this now, I feel like there's nothing I can't do! With this big obstacle out of the way, and the things I've discovered about myself along the way... I realize I can conquer any goal in life using some of the basic inner-game stuff I've learned in the community.
So essentially, yes this path is leading me to a life of happiness and fulfillment. My hope is that one day, when I've cycled through enough women I will be able to better pick out the needles in the haystack. The needles being the women who I truly desire, the ones who I can find a true loving relationship with. My fear actually, is that I've already found one. It's not affecting my game with her, but I'm afraid of not being able to pick-up anymore...it's something I just don't want to give up right now! Fucked up, isn't it?
Oh well, drug addicts have heroin...we have girls. Pick your poison.
~Muse