Friday I run 4 miles up and down the Maxwell Trail, head downtown with MS girl, and we have a raucous time with M bro and Z bro. M bro does his usual pick up shit. MS girl was meeting up with a random bro who she met the night before. Before the night is done, though, the bro FUCKS himself over by having nice guy game and transitioning directly into awkwardness and the out-of-nowhere question, "Do you want to come over tonight?" Roflcopter lolstack. I wonder how many times that works.

MS girl is actually so upset that we leave and she starts crying walking back to the car. I do damage control, telling her I'd be upset too, and empathizing. We start joking around, she feels better. Z bro kept pointing to us the whole night, raising his eyebrows, and saying, "You guys are fucking, aren't you?" Lol. Nope, we just live together and get along well.

I head to a Boozy Brunch event at PDS bro / JS bro's house the next morning after finishing up some lab work. They feed me brunch (amazing!) and we play pong / kings with a bunch of people that show up. Social events are the shit. CY girl gets back, is super excited to see me, and grills the shit out of me about "that cute blonde on Facebook" aka AE girl. I divulge. NG girl quizzes me on that too, she says she sees that I have a gf on Facebook, and asks about her. I divulge again, saying, "I actually like this girl!"

We all head to the pool / hot tub and have a splashy time. NG2 girl, a girl from France, keeps flirting with me in the pool. It's a fun time.

Getting my self amusement and state control back down.

Around 6, AE girl meets up with MS girl and I, we pick up MS girl's friend S girl, and we all head downtown to see New West Fest, an overpopulated festival with merchant tents and music. MS girl recounts her hilarious story the night before, and as we walk to the festival, AE girl takes my hand. DAWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW

We head to the Illegal Pete's rooftop. I run into someone I know. Then I run into another dude I know, who introduces me to some of his friends. I introduce them to AE girl. Z bro arrives, I introduce him to AE girl.

We head to Big Al's Burger to meet up with EF girl. Run into a dude and a girl that I know. They're both excited to see me, and the girl (hot) gives me a big ole hug. I introduce them to AE girl. We all walk over, and meet up with a big Spanish Crew with EF girl. Z bro, mustache bro, and huggy girl leave.

We start cracking jokes and gossiping, and I'm in a grand ole state (and I don't mean Colorado HAR HAR HAR).

We eat some disgustingly greasy fries, and head over to the concert. AE girl again takes my hand as we walk. So damn cute.

We watch the Steve Miller Band, joking around and goofing the whole time. We all walk into the crowd, into the middle, with me leading the charge (obviously). DON'T BE AFRAID TO LEAD, people. It's a GIFT to lead. It's a GIFT to others to lead. They WANT someone to lead them. On the other hand, if someone else leads, don't be like, WAH WAH WAH I WANT TO LEAD.

We get to the middle, AE girl and I stand a little bit off from everyone, and stand all couple-y with our arms around each other watching the concert. I eventually transition to standing behind her, back hugging her, and dancing to the music. So much oxytocin.

AE girl and I head back to my place, cuz she needs to go to the Alleycat to do some math.

Instead of going, however, we end up cuddling on the couch. We have a really great conversation, where we connect on a deeper level than we had before. She tells me she was afraid of volcanoes (lol). We share scary movie stories. I tell her a bit about my childhood, she does the same. We share skiing stories. Then we take a bunch of cutesy cuddle pictures together. Make out a little bit (not a lot). Then we cuddle more, talk more, and I give her another bag hug before she goes. She receives it very well, returning it. I tell her, "aren't back hugs amazing?" She concurs, and says "front hugs are pretty amazing too..." before turning around. We kiss. Make out. I whisper in her ear, "you're making me think bad thoughts..." She giggles. We kiss some more, and she peaces out.

Basking in the warm, soft glow of oxytocin, I send her some of the cutesy pics we took and fall asleep. I wake up and she sent me a text inviting me to watch a scary movie the next night with 2 of her friends, CW bro and AN girl (dating). I tell her I'm down.

State control and self amusement has gotten a lot better since I consciously decided to work on it, especially in front of AE girl. Need to not let up here!

_________________
My Pick-Up Journal

A lazy morning. I sleep in and finally leave the house at noon to go on a run. I drive over to Grey Rock, a bigass mountain, and do 5 miles or so on it. Then I devour a shitload of Asian food, just to prove the stereotype right.

I have a chat with one of my best friends from high school, we talk for like 40 minutes like a couple of girls. I help him by looking at one of his OKC conversations and dropping some advice bombs on him.

He's got a mental block that stops him from really succeeding with women:

As soon as he senses the girl is attracted and interested, he goes into "don't lose the interest mode," where instead of doing less (like he should), he works to keep that interest. The girl should be working to keep HIS interest.

I don't do a great job of selling during the conversation. I want to help him out, cuz he's my homie, but it didn't occur to me during the conversation to use sales tactics. I should've used some tactics I learned in Jordan Belfort's Straight Line Persuasion system, and will next time.

Going to go harder in running too, will push my body harder this next week.

_________________
My Pick-Up Journal

Monday

I run Maxwell again, 40 minutes up a big climb and back down. Did the entire climb without walking, which is an improvement. Woke up today left hip flexor sore. Good. Means I'm pushing it.

Hung out with AE girl last night. State control and Self amusement in front of her improving.

If hip flexor improves, will run intervals tonight with the track club.

Am going to work on getting out of bed faster and harder in the mornings, been working off the sleep debt from the weekend.

Going to work on expressing more sexuality, last couple nights of good night kisses to AE girl have been very platonic and meh.

Classes start in a week. Am expecting a torrent of new girls to enter my life, which will help me practice my state control and self amusement harder, make me feel more abundant so that AE girl isn't invading my brain 24/7. So hard to keep her out of there. Girls, so distracting.

_________________
My Pick-Up Journal

The moment your alarm goes off, open your blinds and turn on every light in your room.

Make this commitment to yourself before you go to sleep. NOT to get out of bed fast - but to open your blinds immediately upon hearing your alarm.

This is important because mentally you are now allowing yourself to get back into bed once the lights and blinds are open. Most likely you won't do it since you have now A) gotten out of bed and B) shut off your melatonin production.

But if you do get back into bed it's now lighter in there so you'll probably just get back up any way.

The important thing is that success is defined as opening the blinds. So you don't beat yourself up if you get back into bed. Subtle difference.

Give it a week and you'll be getting out of bed without snoozing or dragging 99 mornings out of 100.

This is a great example of implementing "Tiny Little Habits" to undergo difficult change.

Works like a charm.

Oooo, I like that! Thanks for the tip, will implement immediately.

_________________
My Pick-Up Journal

Definitely feeling better and more centered today.

Got a haircut, sent AE girl a cute text in the afternoon:

"Hey chica, hope your day is going swell. Thinkin' boutcha "
"PS Your bike is in my car"

She returns:

"Howdy, partner! How are you today?"
"PS Thanks, can I grab it in an hour?"

I nap, wake up, text her, and she grabs the bike. I had to run in and do some lab work, so we just fluff very briefly and I give her a hug, despite her looking fantastic in those short shorts. Damn those legs to hell.

Almost finished with "Richest Man in Babylon". Thinking about starting "Influence" after, instead of "Psycho-cybernetics".

Afterwards, despite being physically exhausted from the last two days of runs and having a sore shoulder and hip flexor, I go to the track club, where we do 4x:

800m hard
100m easy
300m hard
400m easy

I'm exhausted. Gonna take tomorrow off. I'm eating an absolute assload of food every day. And taking protein powder. Leadville 100 in a year, eyes on the prize.

I make some new friends at the club, say hi to some old ones, and make plans to meet up with EF girl and her friends at CB Potts. I go home, shower, chat with MS girl a bit, we tease each other and laugh a bit. I head to CB and Potts. Fluff with EF girl and her 4 friends (2 guys 2 girls, neither attractive). Make them all laugh. Get in a great state.

HS girl calls, I excuse myself and have a 40 minute conversation with her, which goes great. We're both laughing and flirting and having a great time. My laughter is filling up the entire room. Lordy I'm loud.

I come back to the table, one of the other girls says she was telling EF girl that I was cute and that EF girl and I should date. I smile, tell her thanks. EF girl tells her that I'm dating AE girl (they're friends). We start gossiping about AE girl. I tell them that it was my ex-gf that called, not AE girl. EF girls like, "oooooooo I'm going to tell Amanda". I tell her that's fine, I've told Amanda about HS girl (Hannah) and that I had to deter her from getting a plane ticket to visit in September. Then we fluff a bit about healthcare, education, and some other boring shit and we peace out.

I head to Alley Cat, find CW bro there (AE girl's lab mate and friend). We fluff a bit about our girlfriends and our careers (he's applying to medical school). This dude's a good dude. He's funny, confident, and carries on a great conversation. He's also a serial monogamist like me (2x 3 year relationship for him, 4 year and 5 year for me).

We chat some more, bond, laugh, and I do some work. Then I peace out, feeling happier and more centered. I'm infiltrating AE girl's social circle and making friends with all of her friends.

A thought!

I think the mistake I was making the last couple of weeks was I ditched all non-AE girl social interaction. Awful, awful mistake. Made me needier, because she was still maintaining her non-Ning social interaction. I need to at least keep up the same amount, if not more (should be more) non-relationship social interaction. It will keep me sharp, confident, happy, and feeling abundant. So good job on today, Ning. Keep it up.

_________________
My Pick-Up Journal

Got out of bed quickly this morning

Was grabbing breakfast at the corner market, cash register girl (not very attractive) asks me if I'm ready for school to start (I'm a regular there). I make laser eye contact, smirk, and say simply, "No." She giggles. As I leave, I say, "Later gator". She giggles again. Easy.

_________________
My Pick-Up Journal

It's been a whirlwind of a couple of days, the semester starts on Monday!

Wednesday

I organize a group dinner at an Ethiopian restaurant. Z bro, DY bro, NS girl, and AG girl show up. Z bro tells me he loves hanging out with me cuz I always bring hot girls. Lol

AG girl tells us about her Cleveland trip, she's hilarious and a great story teller. We all joke around the entire time, talking about clean wipes, movies, and then playing fuck marry kill over like an hour. A couple of the better ones:

2004 Britney Spears, 2004 Christina Aguilera, and Mean Girls Lindsay Lohan

Scarlett Johansen, Jessica Alba, and Keira Knightley

We down a bottle of wine together (I partake and break my alcohol rule that I started during training). Z bro pays for it all, what a baller. The whole thing is a fantastically fun time, and we're all loud and the whole restaurant is looking at us.

Afterwards, DY bro and I go to AG girl's house and we play ping pong. AG girl is actually pretty good at it! I'm better, obv (Asian). We put on music, and play for awhile, and then we sit down and start talking about love lives. DY bro tells us a story about his first gf, awesome. AG tells us her double British Matt story, absolutely hilarious. I tell the whole AB girl story, also hilarious. DY bro shakes his head in disbelief, at the 19 year old student story... (don't blame him... what was I thinking?)

AG girl gives me a final fuck marry kill to end the night that stumps me solid for awhile:

HS girl, AE girl, and KF girl

DAYUM. They're all so beautiful. And funny. And fun. And athletic. DAMNIT

Thursday

AG girl and I go to the graduate student picnic (free food).

She worries that she's not a graduate student. I tell her to just tell people she's my girlfriend. She laughs.

We see MC bro, and a friend HC girl, and another bro she brought. We all chill. I talk to a new bro I met from West Virginia, he's kind of shy. We all toss a frisbee around.

AG girl and I go to the tennis courts for this doubles tennis thingy. I am HORRID at tennis, but it was still fun. What a white person sport.

At this point I was pretty frustrated with AE girl, but it was my own fault. I just give her too much validation, and then I can't even get her out of my brain when I'm with other people, it's absurd. I need to man up and remember that game doesn't stop even when you're dating a girl. People still respond to the same psychological triggers at any point in the relationship.

I go to bed after tennis, she messages me at like 10:30:

Just watched a little video as tribute to Sugar. I'm dying of a weird combination of laughing and crying.
Hahaha!
How are you?

I don't respond.

Friday

In the morning, I still don't respond. I get a snapchat from her around 10:00 showing me a pic of her on the orientation thingy on campus. I snapchat back and text her back on Facebook:

I'm good, excited for the semester. You?

Her:
I'm both dreading and excited for the semester

Mer:
I actually like the semester better, weird like that

Her
Strange
You
Are

Me:
Yes, yoda

After a couple snapchats, it ends. Girls and their validation *shakes head*. They respond so well to (even small amounts of) invalidation.

_________________
My Pick-Up Journal

AE girl calls me and invites me to lunch with her and EF girl. I accept. Mild flirtation occurs. As soon as EF girl leaves, however, AE girl mentions how tired she is. Gettin' sick of this shit.

At night, I go out with MS girl, my other roommate KB bro, DY bro, JO bro, EF girl, CY girl, and eventually meet up with a million more people that I won't list. Among the more humorous events of the night:

Me busting on EF girl and CY girl about their Spanish accents. Them laughing at everything I say. Them teaching me the phrase "friends with benefits" in Spanish: Amigos con derecho arece... or something like that.

On the way to a different venue, DY bro and I are animatedly complaining about NS girl constantly trying to get favors from us. I'm telling him the bookshelf story when who walks up but NS girl! Lol. She doesn't notice, and joins our crew.

A homeless guy tries to flag me down. I shout that I don't have any money or crack. He tells me, "No man... I was wondering... if you have any friends... that I could hook up with!" Lol. I point to NS girl and shout, "here's one!" Lol.

I spot HC girl, her boi, MC bro, and another blonde cutie on apparently a double date. She's introduced as Hope. I ignore her, than make a "hope" pun. Everyone laughs. We leave.

I merge both parties, introduce people. I can tell this Hope girl is not into MC bro, and laughing at everything I say. Hilarious. We're talking about beer bongs and putting things in the throat. NS girl comments, "If you hum you won't gag." I absolutely die laughing. I'm definitely an extrovert.

We move to Lucky Joe's, where we commence dancing. Two fat girls try to dance and talk with me. I entertain them. Another two girls I know wave me over, I go and talk to them a bit, then leave and keep dancing with my crew. We eventually go outside to chill. I self amuse like crazy, repeatedly making your mom jokes to NS girl.

"I really like this band!" -NS girl
"Your mom really likes this band." -me, straight faced, no emotion

Lol.

She keeps trying to touch me and bringing up things we can do together in the future. Ugh.

We eventually peace out, and MS girl almost gets into a fight with a dude in the street cuz they're both drunk. I'm amused, but end up defusing the situation. Lol

I drive all the drunkards home and call it a night.

AE girl is way too comfortable, not putting in effort into this relationship, and that's unacceptable. I'm gonna bring it up with her, if she's not cool with it, we can go back to just being friends, which I'm fine with. Already wrote down a bunch of notes for this talk, which is good so that it doesn't stay in my brain.

Let's GO!

_________________
My Pick-Up Journal

Saturday. I get my morning lab shit done, and message AE girl. Here's the exchange:

Me:
Hey, are we still planning on hiking today? Trying to plan out my day

Her:
Well, poo. I'm sorry, I just got back from a bike ride with my dad.

Me:
No worries
So... No hike?

Her:
Yeahhhhh... I'm feeling a lay in bed all day kind of day
Unless of course you have your heart on hiking
I'm such a terrible person. I keep suggesting stuff then forgetting about it

Me:
Hm, naw that's fine. I do want to talk to you, though, so let me know when you want to meet up and chat

Her:
Uhoh. Is it serious talk or let's just hang out and have fun talk?

Me:
Uhhh serious talk

Her:
What's on your agenda today?

Me:
A run, and some friends invited me to tubing, so I was waiting to see if we were hiking before responding to that

Her:
Yeah, go be the run, interesting person you are and go tubing! That'll be great

Me:
Ok, I'd rather have this talk, I don't want it looming or in the back of my mind or whatever. Can you meet sometime today or do you want to just talk on the phone?

Her:
I can see if I can borrow a car...

Me:
k k

Her:
When do you go tubing?

Me:
It's at 1, not a huge deal if I miss it

Her:
OK, I smell nasty and look worse from my bike ride. I can leave now and meet you at the alley cat

Me:
Ok cool, I'll see you there in 15

end of interaction

I went fully with the intention of breaking up with her on the grounds of:
She's always tired, and mentions it when she hangs out with me.
She's made plans with me and forgotten about them twice now.
She often would rather stay home lay around and watch Grey's Anatomy than hang out.
She texts less often, engages less often, hangs out less often than she used to. I talk to AG girl and HS girl (the ex) more than I talk to her.

All bullshit, and I was fed up. This all sounds like someone I would have an open, non-exclusive thing with rather than an exclusive relationship.

We meet, and I explain all of this to her, but without the frustration and anger of course. She defends herself, as expected. She IS tired because she sleeps 4 hours a night. She's introverted. She doesn't want to come off as needy. She doesn't think she's interesting, and doesn't think I'd be into doing boring stuff like laying around and watching Grey's Anatomy or doing math.

I ask her if she's still into this, if she wants to keep dating, cuz we can turn it into just friends if she doesn't have the time and energy for it. She says no, she wants to keep dating, she still likes hanging out with me, etc. etc.

She says that now that I've brought this all up with her, she's going to work on it. Ok, we shall see. We both know that we will be busier starting on Monday (classes starting), and I keep telling her if she doesn't think there's enough time or energy we should just be friends, so there's no obligations or whatever.

She keeps saying no, she wants to still date. I'm like okay. In my brain, I tell myself that's strike 1. And I only give 2 strikes.

She keeps saying how she's tired after being social, and how she struggles to keep up with me, she doesn't know how I have so much energy all the time.

We study for 2 hours together. HS calls and excitedly yammers in my ear before I tell her I can't talk. AE girl asks who it is, and I tell her, and she's like, "oh, that's awkward." Then we go to my house and play music until 7ish. Kiss a little bit. The kissing is pretty flat and emotionless. Yuck. She leaves cuz "her parents were expecting her back 4 hours ago". Lol, I feel like I'm in high school. After she leaves, I'm like fuck this shit.

I head over to AG girl's house.

She hang out and play ping pong. She tells me all about her frustrations with RI bro. I tell her about my frustrations with AE girl. We get DEEEEEEEEP into the topic of love, being comfortable in a relationship, and how in a relationship there's always a comfortable person and chasing person. Share a bunch of stories. Laugh a lot. AG girl's awesome. I fall asleep on her couch. I text AE girl:

Me:
Yo, what's the deal with Eli and swimming tomorrow morning, is that happening?

Her:
Let me contact her and I'll let you know when I know
(awhile later)
In all likelikehood, I will be working until 5 tomorrow
But I think that's not too late

Me:
Ok, I'll plan on no morning swim. I've got softball practice at 4
(in my brain, I'm like strike 2, definitely breaking up with you now)

Her:
Okie dokie
Hey, I'm learning a new guitar song

Me:
Yeah?

Her:
*a link to YouTube song Taylor Swift- a place in this world*

Me:
sounds catchy, good luck

Her:
Bahahahaha, thanks. I like Taylor Swift old songs. So good hehehe

Me:
Sleepy time, night night

Her:
Night night!



I wake up to another message from her:

Her:
I had the strangest dream.

Me:
Darth Maul?

Her:
Dead friends, your parents and buffet dinners
Woke up in a weird state

Me:
Hahahahaha
What were my parents like

Her:
Your mom was super nice and spoke English to me. Your dad though wouldn't speak and if he did, it was to someone else in Mandarin
And they were super obsessed with your newly invented 2 year old baby sister and her college fund

Me:
Hahahahaha almost sounds like real life

Her:
Hahaha, it was so weird

Me:
I literally just woke up, don't remember any dreaming. Time to lab it up

Her:
Yeah, same here. Still trying to work up to it tho... I have been laying in bed for over an hour trying to get going

Me:
The trick is not to think, and to just start moving

*end of interaction*

Well, she's trying more. Kudos for that. Her parents are pretty controlling too. I'll give it a couple more days, depending on how / what she does, I'll either break up with her, or extend her deadline.

_________________
My Pick-Up Journal

Okay, I'm mildly impressed.

AE girl texts to meet up for swimming, on her own accord. Okay. We meet, invite my roommate KB bro along, and we all head up the Poudre Canyon to an isolated reservoir in the middle of nowhere.

It's actually called the Seaman (pronounced "Semen") reservoir. Yup, I really want to swim in it.

We park, hike the mile to the lake, shed clothes, and jump in. It's a grand old time, AE girl gets to ogle my bod, and we flirt. Good times for all. She's being a lot more engaging, flirty, and fun. Afterwards on the car ride back AE girl starts caressing my arm.

We go back. AE girl and I grab some quick food. Down it.

I tell her I notice that she's putting in more energy and effort, despite being tired and going against her parent's wishes, and that I appreciate it. It makes me want to put in more effort too. She tells me, "it's worth it." DAWWWWW

Afterwards, I walk her to her car, we hug / make out, and she peaces out.

She's earned a strike back.

Here's what I learned from the process.

There's two ways that people show that they want more from another person in a relationship.

The most common way is neediness:

I really really want you to give me more attention and care, and I am subcommunicating that I won't ever leave you because I don't think I can get anyone as good as you!!!!

The second way is better:

I have standards for relationships and people I exclusively date, and you are not meeting them. I'm not angry, but if you don't want to put in the effort and energy to meet those standards, then we'll have to just be friends or not be exclusive. I'll be disappointed, but I have too much respect for myself to not be treated well.

Yeah. Having standards, high standards, is always a good thing.

Today is the first day of classes! Kicking it off in style!

_________________
My Pick-Up Journal

Fuck yeh man.

Are you dating other girls?

You should.

_________________
Bite of more then you can chew
Then chew like hell

My Journey:viewtopic.php?f=22&t=192265

Not currently dating other girls at the moment. If this thing with AE girl bores me or peeters out I will. Also, if I run into girls that I connect with and sparks fly, I will have to re-assess the situation.

Finished the Richest Man in Babylon. The beginning was great, the end, mediocre. Still good, still learned a lot, starting both Psycho-cybernetics (by audiobook during lab work) and Influence by Cialdini (pdf to read during class or lunch).

AE girl snapchats me cute little puns throughout the day, and I send some back. She texts me asking me if I'm going to Spanish club, I respond positively.

I run there from my house, run into a bunch of Spanish club people including AE girl with my shirt off, drenched in sweat. She immediately makes a flirty joke ("That's a bit too much skin"). We go to Spanish club, I make everyone laugh cuz I'm hilarious. Great social proof. AE girl bikes while I full out sprint the two miles back to campus, she's impressed but I'm not. I shower and meet her at Alley Cat, where we both do some work and play footsies before calling it a night.

In the morning, I meet AE girl again to run. We run 3 miles slowly together, flirt and talk a little bit.

Mileage has been going up, and legs are getting stronger. I'm eating more and more every day, it's pretty absurd. So far this week it's been 5 miles Sunday, 5 miles hard on Monday, and 3 miles so far today (Tuesday). I'm also planning on doing a second run with the trail club at 6. Go hard to go home boys. FUCK YEAH

Also noticed today my bad habit of going into seeking rapport tonality when I'm with AE girl. Good, I'm aware now, and I can fix it.

Gonna start going back through Jason Capital trainings to keep everything sharp. It's good though, feeling on point. Let's go!

_________________
My Pick-Up Journal

Ran into MW girl, a cutie that'll be working in my lab on campus.

I head to my first class of the semester, get there a bit late. Everyone's doing a 5 minute intro of themselves and how they got to that particular graduate course (advanced exercise physiology). I go last, but obviously killed it because of my amazing oration skillz.

In the middle I notice SE girl, my TA from last fall. I didn't recognize the back of her head. She's an uber cutie, and she smiles and waves at me. I return it. After class, I walk right past her to ask the professor a question, and she waves and smiles again as she's leaving.

As I walk out, I catch a glimpse of her in another class room sitting down. I do a double take, ask her how her summer went, and she got up and came all the way out of the classroom to talk. I stop, and we fluff about nothing. I self amuse. She giggles. I purposefully let the convo trail off. She picks it back up. All good signs.

We're in the same class together, so long game it is. No reason to jump anything right now.

AE girl texts me later in the day, inviting me to a concert on Friday. Hell yeah, let's roll!

_________________
My Pick-Up Journal

Awareness --> action --> change

Still working on being more free flowing and unstifled in front of AE girl. Improving a little at a time. Not doing it for her, doing it for me.

I've been caring too much, and my new motto has arisen from this:

Let it go. Let the outcomes go. Don't need any of it. I don't give a fuck. I give 0 shits. I don't care.

Been DOMINATING in terms of work and exercise.

Been sore from running for two days now, still ran every morning. Planning on incorporating 2 a days and lifting when I recover from this stretch of training.

FW bro from Spanish club is an interesting fella. EF girl and I were talking last night (at CB potts with some folks) about him, and apparently he retired at 30 with a mansion and a fortune. Now I really want to pick his brain. Unfortunately, he's off in St. Louis chasing a girl. This is great inspiration for me to keep chasing and working on my dream. I've got very little free time now that school started, but I still waste that free time watching starcraft 2 replays on YouTube. That's unacceptable. ALL my free time now, including food breaks, is going to go towards something productive and relevant to my goals and VISION for my future.

FUCK procastination.
FUCK laziness.
FUCK sleep.
Let's GO

_________________
My Pick-Up Journal