I found my shelter in my passion - Xtreme Martial Arts Tricks and when I redirected this anger and frustration towards it, I feel much better.
On the other hand, I now think that she actually may have some personality disorder, a while ago we had such a text conversation of (H)er and (M)e.
H: So I want my stuff I left at your place, but you're such an asshole that I fkn must pick'em myself!
M: Hah, am I? I can bring them to your place tommorow after work.
H: No. I'll be back late today and sleeping till late tommorow.
H: Or come and threw'em through my aunt's fence!
M: pyjamas?
H: Pyjamas, sweater, pillow, blanket, pillow
M: Nah, that's too much stuff.
H: Noooo, but I want my blanket

My cute blankeet!

M: Or you know, fk it, your stuff will come in handy, excluding sweater
H: For sure -.-
Ok, now I was an asshole little bit, but she definately has some change of moods. But don't think all of your advises went to nothing, after this convo I'm not gonna text her ever again. Today I've started rebuilding my inner self, fingers crossed!
EDIT: Jesus sometimes I'm such a fkn asshole I don't even notice it. She wants to kill me now so I think I got rid of her for good (and good). This is probably my last note here:
Well, she suffers sexomnia, quite a funny but sometimes annoying thing, that she uncounsciously masturbates during night sometimes, hm. Little annoying, so when we were sleeping together she was wearing pyjamas and everything was ok. Now, with this argue about her stuff, she told me that ok, I can keep the blanket and pillow but to return the rest. And pyjamas! I replied. And after a while added ,,nah, just kidding, without somnia pyjamas aren't needed" and that's when the heavens broke down.
- YOU F***** MOTHER******!!!!!!!!!!!
- I'll bring ur stuff Monday after ur fitness
- GET THE F*** OFF!!!!!!!!!!
- Ok
So... I belieave it does it. Funny, how a word or two can sometimes bring up such a reaction. Maybe now it'll be easier to move on, oh, and I know, I'm an asshole huh
Wish you all more luck than I had!