| A couple of days ago I posted about my anxiety in public. As mentioned, I can identify with most of the symptoms of social anxiety.
I decided to write down my fears and face them. so what are my fears?
I am afraid I will appear weird
I am afraid I will appear creepy
I am afraid I will make someone uncomfortable
So I went out and became the weirdest son of a bitch there is. I made as many people uncomfortable as I could.
It seems to work. check this out. I have a phobia of public speaking. always have. In college, as soon as I would find out a class involves presentations, I would drop it and move to a class that only had written assignments. pretty much, if there is more than 2 people in a room, I cant talk.
so last night I went to this presentation. It was an auditorium style room, 150 or 200 people. I left early, but when i got to the parking lot, I noticed someone had parked behind my car. I went in the room and asked the presenter "can I make an announcement?" fortunately he said "sure"
then I asked who the car belonged to and if they could move it. I was nervous as fuck, but I did it. I know to you it doesn't seem like a big deal, but for me, it is. I could never even dream of doing such thing.
I dont know how I did it. if I were to do it again, I dont think I could. I seem to be reverting back.
What do you recommend I do now so I keep moving forward and not backwards?
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