| Hello everyone,
I need some help putting my life back together after what happened to me recently which screwed my life over for a reason I am uncertain about...
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Let me put you in context a bit: I discovered Adam Lyons a month ago, when my life seemed like it couldn't get any crappier than it already was. I learned as much as I could for about a week and a half until I would go out with my friends to the same karaoke place we always go to.
My first time picking up women went so well i actually got 3 phone numbers, and ladies were pulling me (literally pulling me to dance with them) whilst I was having a conversation with other women.
From there, I screwed up after texting the girls too early.
The week after that, went back to the same place, with the same friends, found 2 more girls whom told me, after 2 jocks tried to pick them up and failed, that I didn't count as a pick-up guy (basically, Adam says you have to be the exception, which is good for me)
But then, I started telling a girl friend of mine, Jessica, who was going out with another friend of mine and who was there with me, that I started studying women, and she loved the idea.
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Now this is where the real story starts: She had been going out with my friend for 2 months, yet last week, for my birthday, she came to pick me up to drive me to the same gig for my birthday party. On the way, the first thing she told me was that my friend had dumped her the day before. (fist pumped in my head, since I wanted her since the day I met her, before she started going out with my friend)
At the bar, she said to me and a friend I had told about Adam, that whomever came back with the most phone numbers at midnight (when she was supposed to leave) would win free drinks the next time we came.
I started drinking the same amount of alcohol I would normally drink, and start sarging around the table I was at. When Jessica went up to sing (karaoke, we sang together once during the night, and she wanted me to learn a song for the next time, elefant love medley (I0I?)) I stole her chair to talk to the girl that was sitting next to her. When she came back (there was a vacant seat next to me), she stood next to me waiting, so I just joked by saying "there is still some place left on my lap" then went back to talking to the other girl.
Well guess what, she bloody sat on my lap! (I0I #1!) I stole her fedora, we played a lot together, she lingered an eye-to-eye whilst I was playing with her hair before placing back her fedora on her head. (I0I #2). I got to hold her hand and squeeze a bit, and she squeezed back (I0I #3!!!!!). I even managed to make her come up on stage and dance with me (she's the kind of girl who doesn't, she normally sits or come up on stage only to sing) (I0I?)
Basically, I managed to kiss her a few times whilst she was on my lap. That was turning out to be the best birthday party ever.
Until the end... 2:30 am, (she was meant to leave at midnight), after kissing her, I get up to go to the bathroom, and when I come back, I see from affar that she was making out with this douche that had been sitting in front of us the whole night (I made him take a picture of us two earlier), and the kissed non-stop...
I left the bar pissed off, without saying anything to anyone, walked in the freezing cold of Canada for 50 minutes till I reached home, only to find a text on my phone from her saying "I just arrived home" received at 3:21 am.
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That happened last wednesday, and I am writting this on sunday. I can't get this out of my mind, I can't sleep, and I started to smoke again, ending a 2 year abstinence... I texted her today (we spoke, before the incident, that maybe we could see each other today for my real birthday, after she was done with work), she told me she was going to the hospital because her mother in-law (father's wife) was in the hospital...
I texted her a few times, once saying that if she wanted to do something afterwards to change her mood, to let me know and I would pick her up, and she said "I'll see!"
Now I don't feel like doing anything, and I am starting to regret learning about pick-up, feeling that I lost a great friend.
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I need help for 2 things:
1- I need to understand what I did wrong that day, and what happened, because I still don't understand.
2- I need to rebuild my confidence, and if possible, destroy any neediness I have, because I think I acted needy today and scared her away.
Please help me, I about to have a nervous breakdown...
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