I'm not a great writer but I enjoy reading other people's journals and I think its important to catalogue successes and failures. I've noticed a lot of other people journals aren't just about pick up too and I think mine will be the same. More focused on improving my confidence and 'inner-game' in order to become a PUA and ultimately mPUA

Okay so a little about me. I'm 22 and broke up from a 3 year relationship in February. My relationship with her just sort of happened (No gaming really just being me - I was four years older and I think that was the main initial attraction) and she was the first girl I ever had sex with. Since February I haven't had another serious relationship and have decided for now that's not what I want. I want to focus on improving me personally and if I find the right girl for me whilst I'm doing that then sweet else I'm just gonna enjoy myself.

So since I've been single I have slept with 3 girls. 1 I have known for ages and was a good friend of my ex (which didn't go down well) We shagged twice on drunken nights after town and both agreed it was just a bit of fun. I think if I wanted I could pursue her again but she's maybe a HB6 and I think I can do better. Next was a girl I met on a night out - Not quite sure how I pulled this off I was drunk but we got on well and I took her number. We texted a little and I met her randomly out another night and she came back to mine. The third was a bit of a slut who was meant to just be a quick shag but she 'gamed' me (cus she's bad crap crazy) into dating her for a while. We dated for just two weeks and then I ended it and we became just good friends with a lot of benefits. She became too needy and obviously had feelings for me still so I thought it would be best to put some distance between us.

I am generally quite good at getting number-closes when I'm out and have been getting better and better. I find I have to be fairly drunk to approach women which I know if making me come across as confident but I can't keep it up through text and I think the girls pick up on it.

I am currently try to work on a girl 'Sarah' (Not her real name) who I fb-closed in town the other night and from what I can tell is interested but Its hard to tell. I might put a bit of our fb chat conversations up and let you decide

I work as a photographer for a bar/club in my town too on a saturday so I'm trying to use that as a way of getting numbers and I'll be working this saturday with some tips off people on here.

I'm going out tonight (friday) too so I'll post an entry at some point over the weekend to let you know how I get on with both.

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In the words of Sheldon Cooper - "Bitches be Crazy!!"

I would rank my performance this weekend Nm (Nothing of Merit)

On Friday, The plan was pre-drinks at a female friends house with other pals then head into town to continue the revelry. However, as per my bad alcohol habit I managed to get myself to the point where little more than the taxi ride to town is remembered and as a result I can only base my evening on the few photos I have of what seems to be complete strangers and other occasional acquaintances.

Okay so I fb-closed a girl who is obviously into me and apparently I spent a lot of the night comforting her (she was upset about a breakup with her ex) However, I must of been wearing some serious beer goggles and as much as she seems a nice person I will definitely just be keeping her as a friend.

Saturday was a bit of a waste. I had planned on trying out some of the tips I'd been given for Gaming as a nightclub photographer however my batteries of my flash gun died so I called it a night early and was home by 12.30.

My goals!
Stop drinking so much - Initially limit myself to 1 pint per hour.
Be more organised whilst working - Remember spare batteries!

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In the words of Sheldon Cooper - "Bitches be Crazy!!"

My efforts with Sarah seem to be going well. She was away for a few days but our conversations though Facebook are getting better. She was stressing on Facebook over something and I offered her a hot chocolate and a cuddle and she flirtatiously said she'd be over in her onesie. I jokingly said "Your welcome anytime in your onesie ". I wanna arrange a meet with this girl but I'm not sure how to go about it without coming off as an AFC. I'm pretty sure she does like me but I don't wanna come over needy like I always do. Advice?

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In the words of Sheldon Cooper - "Bitches be Crazy!!"

Okay so have left this for a while but thought I'd update things. I've given up on Sarah. Our text conversations went a little stale and She wasn't asking any questions back or anything. Been 10 days since I last messaged her. I've got a new girl (Codenamed: Vicki) I think is awesome thou so If nothing happens there maybe i'll retry with Sarah.

So this new girl!! - OMG she's perfect. I'd say HB9, gorgeous long dark hair, very pretty, cute, funny, a party girl but I'm a party guy, good job, nice flat. Getting on really well and I've been playing it really well aloof enough to keep her interested but enough push pull for her to keep coming back. Was round hers last night after I fetched her from her works xmas do. She was a little tipsy but I was sober and she invited me in for a drink - I'm not gonna lie, Was so nervous. (We danced a little and I think kissed the saturday before but I was blind drunk and was a bit of a blur) All her body language suggested she was interested but shes quite shy. We just lay on her sofa watching family guy and chatting. I really wanted to kiss her and I knew she wanted to kiss me but I kept over-thinking it. (She may have a boyfriend too - I'll explain this later). So two episodes of family guy and an episode of american dad later we're still just cuddled quite close on the sofa watching comedy shows. Wasn't awkward thou was a good flow of conversation and we had the TV to fall back to. She started talking about her doing massage at college (How hot is that) and stood up to show me her tattoo. When she sat back down she sat so close to me she was almost on my lap. I was mega nervous but after a little while I moved in for this kiss. She kissed me back I knew she would not quite sure why I waited so long or was nervous at all. We made out quite passionately for a little while and I went to undo the button on her blazer type jacket. They were really hard to do so I asked her to undo them. She undid the bottom one and then stopped. I went to undo the others and she stopped me and said no we can't its too late and I've gotta be up (It was 1am and we both had to be up early - Me at 6 and her at 7). I agreed... Should of thought of something a little better than "Fair enough - Suppose it is" but didn't think fast enough. We kissed a little bit more then I got up and said I best go then. I walked out and put shoes on and she tidied away her living room. When she'd came out I had my shoes on and went to say bye. She went to kiss me on the cheek and I moved for a proper kiss. It was a little awkward. She told me to text her when I was home and I did. We text a tiny bit when I got in and She said she'd text me today which she did. Feels a little awkward now thou. Do you think I've ruined my chances by being too forward. Don't really want her to think I'm just after a shag cus she's really nice etc.

Okay and then the boyfriend thing... After meeting her Saturday properly for the first time (I'd seen her around) I added her on facebook. Her profile says single and the way she was dancing with me on the Saturday I'd assumed she was but maybe Monday she had a message off a guy called lets say Dave that said "2 months today, dunno how I put up with me babe. Actually I dunno how you put up with me. <3" She replied with a <3 or something. His fb status is in a relationship. When I was at hers last night they had like 4 advert calenders posh thorntons ones with names. Vicki, Dave, Other housemate, and no name. I don't know what to do if that's the case... Do I ask her or just carry on trying to get with her and hope she resolves it if she is into me. But most girls wouldn't make out with you if they have a bf right? Not sure if I'm entirely comfortable with it if she does but I dunno how to bring it up?

Any ideas on any of it? In terms of confronting her about possible boyfriend or just leave it? Tips for making a connection when chilling together watching tv etc so that leaning in for kiss isn't so awkward and nerving. I did do the cube routine actually which she loved and she agreed it was all right what I said but I need something that increases the sexual tension. I think i'm getting quite good at my DHV stuff.

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In the words of Sheldon Cooper - "Bitches be Crazy!!"