Alright, 1st of all: Yes this post will be a little long, I'm actually seeking a big boost of help off the start, because I know once I get the bare basics down, I'll be able to grow easily.

*****Just scroll down to the bottom for my basic "questions" I want answers for, but the long descrip will help out a lot on showing where I need help/etc.*****

Okay where to start. Typical AFC. Bullied all my life for everything and anything blah blah. Throughout what SHOULD have been my social blooming years (basically since grade 2, all the way through highschool, and even now in college) I've spent ~8-12 hours a day playing video games. I realize now still even that if I never played video games, I could be such a better, happier person. Dont get me wrong, I used to enjoy life, and video games up until a few years ago. Keeping the theme short, 4 years of wasted feelings into a female. Now I hardly feel any emotion. I'm not sure if it's just me though, or all guys, but like I dont get butterflies in my stomache anymore like I used to, I dont get any kind of "feelings" towards women, other than for soothing physical needs. Even though I can (and do) get pretty decent females, It's not making me happy. I want to become a heavy PUA, because all I want back is my emotions which that girl killed inside of me. I know that I'll be able to go back to having a happy life again, All I need is a little help though. I've read a ton of PUA books, but haven't really tried much out, because I settle for simply what my life is currently, even though I k now I should change. It just feels like It's too late, Even though I'm only 20 years old.. If important: yes I do keep in decent shape, not perfect though.

Okay. So, Sometimes when reading PUA books,etc, or while walking and I see a hot girl, or just randomly, etc... I'll get a bunch of THOUGHTS in my head, which I tend to store in my brain, and put my brain's conscious thinking power on trying to decypher. These THOUGHTS are what I would think cause uncertainty in my life. Even if I know the answer, Sometimes I'll ask someone if they know it (from things as little as the date today, or to REPEAT something someone said (asking them like "oh really, so ***REPEAT***?")) And I believe that it's because I'm trying to EXTEND my social interaction with that person, even though I work in a somewhat busy environment with a lot of random people. I believe this is because I've been so rejected, that I seek rapport from those who I talk to (I even notice my Bod Lang, and I literally see all the mistakes I do socially, but cannot ever seem to fix them, probably due to lack of exposure to normal social situations) As in, I'll turn into someone and actually lean in when they are talking, which is the opposite of what I should actually be doing. I also like to talk/reply fast, without Thinking.. I'll also say that.. I am pretty feminine, and females can tell that about me too. I'm overly nice (I say sorry too often, for things which are so minimal)



Okay sorry, I know it's entering TD;DR length, so here are my *I NEED HELP* questions:
1)Does everybody feel that they sometimes say stupid shit automatically when in speech, like getting "excited" and everything just kinda moves by, and your heuristics take over? That's me more or less always (more when I'm high, but I'm qutting marijuana also)
2)I see an attractive girl on facebook and add her, What's a good opener to start a chat? (yes, she accepted my invite)
3)On a college campus, what is a good opener for some certain situations such as
a) In class(sitting beside..)
b) she's sitting down reading/eating, you're walking past
c)standing next to her in line/at a booth, being beside her
Like, if she's sitting down, is simply going up (opening my body to her but NOT leaning in, and saying "I just came up here to tell you that you have the more gorgeous cheeks i've ever seen, they make your smile very prominent" actually ever work? (because some books i've read said being open/seeking rapport slightly DOES work on younger college girls)
3)How can I quit video games & BECOME MORE SOCIAL? All i want is to balance school, work, and ACTUALLY being social/having a life! What are some easy "tips" to get myself out of a rut? (Dont just say "go out and meet friends", because that leaves me in a freeze, instead try and help out like... where to go, and tips on what to say.


If anyone can actually provide helpful input, It'd be greatly appreciated. I need a reason to be happy again.

Ill provide some input but most of your questions are answered in all that PUa material you obviously are reading but not following through on.

As a non-natural your tendency is to say supplicating things and trying to gain rapport with woman before attraction, this, as you know, is a fail. If you cant be natural memorize material that's attraction building, not rapport building, take an acting class, and then approach many girls with material you arnt going to fuck up. Go out early and often, and practice your ass off while reading more PUA material. If you do this you will get better. You likely know all this but you wont do it because its easier to drink mountain dew, and eat hot pockets, and take off ct heads with the AWP.
Do what I did, uninstall them, its too easy to sit around and game when your bored. Its like smoking or drinking you cant do it half ass, uninstall WoW, SC2, and CS and go out a sarge

daygame
nightgame
internet game
social circle game

wtf are you talking about? You know how many guys here would trade all their skill and talent to be a complete noob at 20 and redo their game. If I was your age again I would shit my [pants in expectation of how many ht chicks I was going to fuck. If you get your shit together you will be a monster by 22-23 even as a complete noob now