I am of Middle Eastern origin. I live in Europe. This is my sad story. As a teenager I was sort of normal, went to parties. I got cockblocked by everyone except for my real friends. Whenever I talked to a girl, (no matter etnicithy), someone had to ruin it.

My bad friends talked with me how they hated how immigrants and non-Whites dated White girls. This started from an early age. Since my social circle was my world, I learned to stay away from girls, period. It got so bad I didn't even look at girls. It didn't matter what etnicithy they had, they could come from my country, look like me, and speak my language. I still didn't even look at them.

People thought I was gay.

Now I am an adult in my mid 20's, I still don't look at girls. Doesn't matter what race they are, I don't look. But when a White girl enters the buss or the room I look at the White males. Just to make sure that they look at me to see if I look. I try to pretend to look sometimes, just to see their faces, "Yeah, that Brown Shit likes White girls, typical." Whenever the White girls enter the buss I look at the Buss-drivers mirror to see him watching if I look.

And those White Cock Teased patethic ones. Those White male AFC. They are the worst ones. You can see the anger in their eyes.

I tried flirting and start to date a girl of my etnicity. But at the time I had a beer belly. And I heard her talking about it in our language with her friend. So I stopped.

It's like getting laid isn't a possibility for me. That I shouldn't even look at girls.

So I gave up completly. I got me a kick ass computer. I accepted that the only way I could get companionship was with a "Waifu", (Anime Girl Friend.) And I played games. This was my happiness in life. But I kept having dreams where I had a girlfriend and I was happy, when I woke up I was still happy.

I realise, that I can't ever stop wanting a girlfriend. So I'll give it another try. But I can't even look at girls cause I feel I do something wrong. Like race mixing which is a sin, even a girl of my race...

Any advice?

Hey man, you've let other people dictate a huge part of your life, well so it seems. Mid 20's, I'm approaching that part of my life soon, and it's time you tell yourself, this is MY life! Nobody else's, and I'll do what I want and can do to get what I want from my life!

First of all, you have to be prepared to put the past behind you and scrap other people's thoughts about you, because your looking too deep, and if that stays that way, you wont be able to proceed, date girls and become that alpha male you wish to be.

Have you read The Game? If not, read it, if you have, read up on NLP, it seems it will help you, massively.

You need to start fresh, and forget the doubters and haters, because that's all they are.

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I do own a copy. I was reading it for a while. But then I accepted that girls were not for me, but for other people.

And oh, it keeps following me everywhere. Even when I visited relatives in my home land. I kept having this curse with me. People asked me what I thought about the girls in that said country. And if I was going to get a wife there. And people kept looking to see if I checked out the girls, which I didn't. And once more people questioned my sexuality.

Your confidence has been shattered into tiny little peices by people's comments and views.

The pieces are so small, don't even try and repair it, build a new one, you can do it.

Start reading The Game again! Do not stop, whatever anyone says, or how ever far you go, do it for yourself, and when you finish, mark my words, you'll be feeling better and want to proceed!

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Yeah it must be confidence issues. And I kept on topic and talked about GAME related stuff here.

There are other issues like walking on a road and White people looking behind to track you on your way to "mug/rape/steal from them."

Unfortunately we live in a society these that's, that around the world, a lot of people get labelled, the way you fight that is by proving your not the same, and doing, then achieving the things you desire.

So keep on track man. Haters gon' hate!

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First and Foremost I'd like to welcome you to this forum on all of our behalf!

My friend you've come to the right place.

I'd heavily recommend working on your ''inner game'' than anything else at the moment, hey you gotta walk before you run right champ? Theres this book out there by Neil Strauss, author of The Game which you are so fond of. Its called the Style Life Challenge, GET IT! This is most definitely the first book you need to start over with. Check it out on Amazon or Google it, for God's sake torrent it! It doesnt matter just get it , trust me.

As for now, begin by making small talk to people on the street, subway, it doesnt matter. Approach with a friendly smile and nod to them and say hi. If you passing by on the street, just make eye contact and nod your head and smile. Try and walk with your chin held up and a slow relaxed swagger to your walk, people see this as confident and calm. Guy, girl, black, white, Asian, smile to everyone and if your near them on the bus or tube (whatever they call it in Europe) make small talk. A good place to start if you dont have any good conversation is to watch the news. Everyone knows whats going on and they ALL have an opinion about it. You can share your opinion and ask people about theirs.

Thats your first mission.

Start there while the order for the Style Life Challenge is on it's way and begin to read the book, and follow everything in it. It states that within a month you will be completely changed.

My new friend, know that all of us here are gonna help you, and if you want to talk to me, cause I still have some issues with confidence P.M. me.

The best frame of mind you can put yourself in right now is to:
Make it your personal mission to prove all those people wrong in what they think and say by being the most confident and best guy you can. As I said let's work on talking to EVERYONE not just women. And if you find guys and girls that bring out good qualities in you make friends with them.

Good luck man I have faith in you, let us know how it works out!

Thanks guys

thanks for sharing your story now its time to leave it as a story and leave it in the past and come into the present.
At some level you chose to believe that what others said was true focused on it and sought out other examples to support that belief creating a personal reality.
Now that your older and people mature and change it can now be used as a form of procrastination or it might provide comfort or sympathy at some level.
Although you cant change everyones racist ways you do have the power in deciding what your going to do and how your going to think and the first place to start is to LEARN TO LOVE EVERYONE and let people tell you THEMSELVES who they are and what theyre about ,then people might see a lightness in your face and not just reflect back to you whats going on for you internally with prejudgements.
What you focus on is what you'll get.
Not all girls will be attracted to you even if you were brad pitt so fuk what they think they dont even know you theyre not the open minded girls you want.
try learn some sort of dancing, heaps of open minded females go there
peace.
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