Ok, basically if you've been watching the pick up artist 2 on VH1, I'm about in the same spot as Rian is. I feel I'm not shinning as much as I should.
When Greg was down on his luck, he had Cosmo tell him things about him self that might internalize why he's the way he is with women, it is my attempt to do the same thing here.

So I'm trying to build inner game but heres whats inside

I was never the popular kid I was always the outcast, I was not apart of what I refer to as, the bridge jump stage, the stage around the beggining of puberty where, girls and boys, break aways from the bonderies from eachother and start to befriend eachother, I was not a part of this stage, I did not know or become friends with any girls, I did not know girls.
I grew up with only brothers, Me and my twin were considered to be borderline mental retards, it was our younger brother who informed us that we creep the hell out of the girls. I never intended to creep anyone out but thats the affect I had, I am creepy, I am a creep, I tried to think about what is about myself that makes me creepy and what I can do to change it, but I just had no control over what went on, on the outside.
After two years of mainstream high school, I was tired of being the weird kid with out any friends so I went to an alternative high school and began hanging with the punk rock crowd, in this crowd, on girls came in or out, very few of them ever had real girl friends or experinces, but in ensured my status for the rest of my high school career,
I never had a girl friend, never had a date, never knew or socialized with any females, and until I was 18 never even kissed.

Its been about a year since I discovered pua, while I've learned some valuable social information I've never actually done something that would be considered a pick up.

what are you asking?

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How You Approach Is A Matter Of How You Feel "mPUA Savior"

You Live What You've Learned

well from the way i see it. You're not pushing yourself, you are still within your Norm, or known as your "comfort zone" you need to go out and try these stuff, Try the newbie mission, get more socialable. The past is the past and the now is Now. If you just sit there wondering about the "what if" you are wasting your time. Go out and improve yourself. Go out and DO something about it. like my quote say "If you cant Improve yourself, how can you better your Game?, If you dont better your Game, how can you Improve yourself? ". Go out and Interact. You can learn about it by reading and studying but you need experiance.

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"Live life to the fullest, never look back, remember No regrets" J.f

You are looking for pity...look elsewhere. Pity is an empty quick fix that makes you feel good for 30 seconds and then you need pity from somewhere else.

You say you want to fix yourself up...thats good. That says to me you are taking responsibility for your inadequacy. However just reading about this stuff is not enough. You need to actually do it. NonStop is right, take risks. You *will* get shot down your first few times out...but being shot down will probably feel better than not trying at all. Just keep working on it.